I’m a 90s hip-hop fan, with the late Tupac Shakur as one of my favorite rappers from the era.   “Staring Through My Rare View” (which the title of this freewrite is from),  is my favorite work by the legend, as to me, can describes one own desires of achieving their dreams , goals, and how one yearn to reach  their personal level of success by any means.

As stated from an earlier post about my pride and ego, for most my childhood and teen life, I was told I’d never be successful with having a learning disability and being in special education.  Overtime I managed to prove the doubters wrong . However, with recent unwanted interactions from a toxic person ()whom I had cut off a year ago) who decided to remind me of my past struggles, my pride and ego has been working overtime to prove yet another doubter wrong to say the least.

This is where the line “Real niggas do what they wanna do” comes to play.

I do not know what’s going on in my head (in combination with my desires), but I have this drive to do whatever the fuck I please in order to reach what I want in life, or at the very least, achieve  my own personal short or long terms goals  then move forward to the next one.   Even with things not going how I want it right now, me starting on this anime blogging (and now “vlogging”) journey at an late age compare to most others, and working full time, I still gonna do whatever I want to gain higher success.

Massive success even.

There’s more from life I want then just doing the same shit everyone else is doing.  I wanna new shit rather than doing the same old bullshit from last year.  Maybe this what Haruhi Suzumiya probably felt when she realized she can do whatever she pleased  on that fateful day of realization watching baseball with her dad (gotta keep this somehow anime related).

So, I’m just going to keep doing me. Do whatever I wanna do in life, and for my passion.