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On FLCL: Progressive Lack of Charm (Freewrite)

FLCL: Progressive is weird.  I don’t mean that it matches the original FLCL weirdness that fans celebrate and praise it for.  It’s awkwardly weird.   It doesn’t have the fluid, bold experimental animation, the zany characters, and the upbeat music as its predecessor.  The story’s a  bit of a  rehash (with the main character not seeing anything exciting about life until Haruko comes along) but with new elements. There are only two episodes left of Progressive and it’s unfair to judge  and compare,  but it’s hard to wait  – especially with the internet buzzing on how Progressive isn’t as glamorous as the first series.

Why is this?  Surely Production I.G. and Studio TRIGGER could have delivered the same excitement from the classic with  Progressive (as the original team members are all on board).  The thing is, FLCL classic was an experiment for Gainax to test new animation software at the time.  The team was allowed to go off the rails with the software, art, and story writing to push the limits of their new toy and their artistic talents.   That’s it.

That’s why FLCL classic was charming…well that’s my theory.

With FLCL: Progressive, the production team isn’t using new technology (to my knowledge).  They already proved themselves to the industry (serval times mind you).  There’s no need to reproduce the charm from FLCL Classic with fancy new software.  From the four episodes I’ve watched, I’m assuming that Production I.G. and Studio TRIGGER are focused on delivering a solid story than just being silly with animation software.   There’s FLCL: Alternate coming out in later this year.  Perhaps it’ll recapture the outlandish feeling that the original gave us so we can only wait and see.

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“They Don’t Make Tombstones For Stray Dogs”

What’s a name?  Obviously, it’s a set word(s) to identify a person, place, or thing.  Some names are linked to a famous brand (Nike, Nordstrom, or  Nintendo for example). Others are associated with a person in your life ( brother, sister, cousin, etc.)  There are names famous throughout the world — regardless of culture, race, etc (Micheal Jackson, Bill Gates, Shigeru Miyamoto).   Depending on the person, whenever we hear their name,  we either react with disgust or with love.   Names are important as they are the basis of who we are as a person.  Some fight to preserve their name in history — even after death.

In episode 2 of the Spring 2018 boxing anime Megalo Box  the Junk Dog Gearless Joe squares off with Megalo Boxing champion Yuri. Before their fight, Yuri requests Joe’s real name, as he states that “I can’t imagine you want a ring name on your tombstone” in which Joe  replies “They don’t make tombstones for stray dogs.”

Regardless if Joe wants to use his real or ring name,  he wants his legecy to be known.  He refuses to die without anyone knowing who he was in life.  The line is simple, yet powerful.  Joe is right: they do not make tombstones for no names.

Question: Do we recognize people who never done anything in history?

No, we don’t.    Those who achieved greatness have their names embedded in history.  The ones who don’t are forgotten. The story of the Gearless Joe is one of the classic underdog story.  Joe is a young man of lower class status yearning to escape the strife and trap of poverty through boxing.  With his boxing skills,  he believes that if he becomes the Megalo Boxing champion, his name will live forever.  Joe refuses to die as a nobody.  That’s not his fate in this world.  There’s no glory in being another unknown background character in a world of billions and billions of people.

Nobody gives a shit about a stray dog.

People fight until their final breaths to keep their name and brand relevant.  We may not understand why,  but there are many in this world who do not want to die as a nobody.   Utliziing their skillsets and talents, they put themselves out there in hopes that one day, their legacy will be celebrated. Deep inside them, there’s that drive for certain humans to make their mark on this world by any means.  If they don’t, they will die with the regret of not becoming the icon in their niche or even the world.  That’s why they fight.

They don’t make tombstones for stray dogs.
 

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History Repeating Itself: Doki Doki Literature Club Blamed For A Teen’s Suicide

What’s the best way to generate an increase in sales and downloads for your product?  It’s simple: controversy.   This effective yet infamous trick has worked well for the video game industry for 30+ years.  Mortal Kombat came under fire by the U.S. Government for its high level of gore and violence (at the time).  Middle-Class suburban parent groups demanded that the game should be removed from arcades and stores; as they believed children would become influenced by the game’s brutally  Their anger and protests only generated more support and sales for Mortal Kombat.

Rockstar used this trick as well with the Grand Theft Auto series. As with Mortal Kombat before it, parents and government groups were horrified by the pixeled violence and sexual acts displayed in Rockstar’s landmark series. They demanded the video game company to cease production.   Guess what?  Their crusade against it only helped increase sales, support, and popularity for the series. Rockstar knew the controversy would work in their favor.

On June 25th, 2018, the Manchester Coroner’s office issued a warning to school officials in the United Kingdom after the suicide of 15-year-old child back in February 2018.  Prior to the suicide, the child was playing the popular free-to-play visual novel Doki Doki Literature Club (DDLC).  The coroner and the child’s father suspected that the mental health themes of DDLC played a part in the death.

I gotta say: history is repeating itself.

It’s  unfortunate that the child killed himself.   He needed therapy.  However, it’s funny to blame DDLC (for triggering the child’s death). Are we really going to do that again (blamming video  games)?   Shit’s played out.  Then again, it’s easy to play the blame game as opposed to be more open to the struggles of mental health illnesses and finding support for those suffering from.  We are quick to shun anyone with it.  We are quick to shun video games.  But we aren’t quick to help people.  We only use people with mental health issues for selfish gains.

Take that as you will.

DDLC being linked to this latest  video game controversy will only generate more popularity, support, and downloads.  People love negativity. Humans are a curious lot.  That warning will make  can children curcious about the game, share it with their peers, and of course, produce an expansion of its populairty and downloads. History is repeating itself.

To the Manchester Coroner’s office: Congrulations on helping Team Salvato net furhter attention and support.  Ya did well.

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Monika and Taking Advantage of the Game of Power (Drunken Freewrite)

Disclaimer: Wrote this when I was drunk.  

Just imagine: You’re a normal schoolgirl living a normal life in Japan, America, or whatever the fuck you’re from.  You do normal schoolgirl things like homework, talk about boys, join clubs, and worrying about if the beta incel loser who think women owes him pussy will finally snap and shoot up the school. You live an average life with you and your friends having fun and thinking about the future after high school.

One day, you have an epiphany: Everything you know about your life was a complete lie.

 

You’re not a real person – you’re a computer game character trapped in a visual novel made by some computer nerd who used to make mods for a children party game that was ruined by a bunch of sad, loser ass manchildren who turned it into a “fighting” game.  Your peers are nothing more but data.  The school you love?  It’s a simulation.  Your friends?  Programmed to fall in love with some sad virgin weeaboo jacking off to hentai of said friends after the finished playing the game while you sit on the sidelines questioning your existence.   So what you going to do with your new Godlike self-aware powers?

Brainwash and Kill your friends,  disrupt the game and force the player to fall in love with you of course!

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Monika gets a lot of shit in the DDLC fandom.  People claim that she’s a sociopath.  People hate on her because she killed their cliche’ waifu. Fans of Monika (like myself) are accused of being morally bankrupt and corrupt.  Me personally?  I think Monika is a power player and was a G for taking advantage of her situation.  If you had absolute power, or seek it, wouldn’t you do anything by any means to get what you want?

Monika was simply playing the game of power to her advantage.  She understood that her friends were nothing more but lines of data.  She wasn’t killing anyone real. Besides, what would have happened if one of them became self-aware? Surely they would have tried to take out Monika and anyone else in their way.   Knowing this, I can’t fault Monika for her actions.

She had to do everything within her power to ensure victory.

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What are the goals for dealing with rivals in sports, business, the workplace, what have you?  Take out anyone in your way, dominate and intimidate them all. You take them out by sheer force and superior skills. You dominate by being better,  maintaining your number spot, and being innovating.  Finally, you intimidate through brutal, savage actions – making sure nobody else tries to step up to you and knock you out of first place. Monika did all three. Screwing with the game’s programming was intimidation.  She made Sayori hang herself, Natsuki snap her neck, and Yuri stab herself to death: taking out the competition. And finally, she dominated the system.  Simple power plays if you ask me.

Don’t hate the player or the game.  Be the player and take advantage of the game.

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The Tournament of Power’s Important Lesson (Drunk Freewrite)

Disclaimer: This freewrite was written under the influence of alcohol. It may not make logical sense.

Dragon Ball isn’t deep.  There are deep themes, but it isn’t that deep than other anime.  Dragon Ball is a goofy, battle action manga and anime series created by some crazy Japanese dude who bread and butter is gag comedy manga (Dr. Slump). Expecting Dragon Ball to be meaningful and insightful is like trying to find one’s dignity at a drunken,  drug-fueled  anime con orgy:

 

It ain’t gonna happen.

This doesn’t mean that Dragon Ball can’t teach us lessons about life.  After all, Goku’s journey is a lesson that if you want to better yourself, you must go out and travel; putting in the hard (and smart) work to and learning under those better than you to obtain whatever you want in life.  Baby from Dragon Ball GT  teaches us that people who were treated unfairly (through oppression) will come back to take revenge against those who oppressed them – even going as far as hunting down and killing innocent people if they have to.

Dragon Ball Super with the Tournament of Power arc is no different.  There are valuable lessons to be taught about that arc, one that is obvious and yet – it’s the most important lesson.  In order to achieve what you want, emotions need to be put aside.

In episode whatever it was in Super (I’m drunk: I don’t feel like looking it up), Majin Buu succumb to his deep sleeping habits; putting him out of action for two months.  Thing is, it would have been okay for Majin Buu to take a two months break from combat…if he wasn’t a team member of Universe 7, and the existence of their universe was at risk of being destroyed by Zeno-Sama.  With their ranks shorten, Team Universe 7 had two options:

  1. Find a replacement for Majin Buu
  2. Operate at a loss and/or risk destruction

Logically, Team Universe 7 should have put Majin  Buu in the Time Chamber (Room of Spirit and Time for your purist elitist weeaboos) but logic doesn’ work in anime. While everyone else was in a panic, Goku came up with an ideal replacement for Majin Buu: Lord Frieza – mortal enemy of the Z Warriors.

The Z Warrirors weren’t happy with Goku’s suggestion.  They had every right to.  Krillin and Vegeta were murdered by him.  Piccolo’s race and home planet was destroyed by the cruel tyrant.   Plus, Frieza’s a snake.  Who knows what kinda of shit Frieza would pull on the Z Warrriors if given the chance.  If he wanted to, Frieza could had kill members of Unvierse 7 for shits and giggles.  (Un)forutnetly for Team Universe 7, Freiza’s an asset to their surivivial.  Yes, Frieza did horrible things to Z Warrrios and caused suffering to the unviersse.  But what’s worse; Having a powerful, yet psychopathic warrior on your side who can get the job done with ease or losing your exsitance because you got emotional over somebody you don’t like?

I thought so.

In dire situtaitons, you have to put aside your emotions and focus on the ultimate goal.  Emotions are great.  They make us humans.  They drive us to do amazing things.  But emotions can fuck you up if you can’t control them.   Let’s look at what happen to Lerbron James during the 2018 NBA Finals.  Game 1.  He got in his feelings over a teammate’s mistake.  He gave into them and got swept by The Golden State Warriors.

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What would had happen to Universe 7 if they gotten emotional over Frieza’s includcion to their team?  You might say “But Ben, they could had went with Yamcha instead or maybe even Cell!” You’re right.  They could had went with Yamcha or Cell.  But Yamcha would had gotten slaughter within the first five seconds of the tournament.  And Cell doesn’t give Toei Animation enough money like Frieza in terms of product sales.

Don’t get emotional when trying to hit your targets.

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Competition in Cosplay: What’s So Bad About It?

“Competition” is a dirty word in the world of cosplay. It scares and angers some; as they dread the idea of “elitists” approaching cosplay with such a mindset. Recently, I came across a tweet by @0Becki expressing concern towards those with this mentality.  They felt that cosplay is a hobby and not a competition, that they should share tips with others, and they should hang out with cosplayers (who are cosplaying as the same character).

I’ve mixed feelings about this.  I agree; cosplay is a hobby. People should share tips, be friendly,  and help others.   But they aren’t entitled to do such things.  People have the right to be competitive with their passion. Competition is natural in any field.  Competitive cosplayers enjoy it as it pushes them to work hard on their skills and talent to become the best. As long as it’s not toxic, competition isn’t bad.

We need competitive cosplayers.

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Competitive cosplayers have the driving need to win and outperform everyone else in the niche.  To them, every little detail matters to ensure victory. The perfect wig.  Professional grade makeup. The exact color contact lens.  Superior craftsmanship. They have no tolerance for error. It’s the difference between being just a cosplayer and becoming the cosplayer. First place or second place in a cosplay contest.  And trust me: nobody remembers the second place winner.  For the hobbyist cosplayer, this might be hard to understand.  That’s okay: you lack the competitor’s spirit.  Unless they attack you, don’t hate on these people.

It’s who they are – they can’t help it.

It’s funny how hobbyist cosplayers get angry at the “elitists” for their competitiveness.  Yet, they love these high-performing manga artists, ruthless anime directors, passionate game designers, what have you.  Why it’s okay to praise those people for their high levels of desire and drive but it’s wrong for cosplayers to act the same?

You’re a hypocrite if you praise one group but shame another for the same thing.

Competition is great.  It drives others to better themselves.  It forces you to become innovating.  It encourages change. If a cosplayer above your skill level trashes your cosplay, instead of being mad and pissed, use that as inspiration to prove them wrong and better your cosplay.

They talk shit about your wig (or lack of)? Buy a high-quality wig. A snobby cosplayer thinks your skirt for your cosplay is trash?  Hire the best seamstress in your community to make you one better to prove that asshole wrong.  Better yet, study the best cosplayers in your community and learn how they won rewards, got their fame, and so forth.  Use that anger, the power of the dark side as you will, to better your cosplay game so that one day, nobody will ever talk shit about your cosplay again.

Or beat their ass.  I don’t care.

REVERSAL:  Not everyone is competitive.  Hobbyist cosplayers far outnumber the competitive.  I’m not telling you to be humble or lower your standards, but keep in mind that your attitude could offend – thus furthering tainting the cosplay community. It can also ruin your reputation, which you must guard with your life.   To quote Robert Greene’s 48 Laws of Power: ‘Know who you’re dealing with – do not offend the wrong person.’ and ‘Think as you like but behave like others.’

Yes, be competitive but only compete with those at or above your skill level.  Simply acting arrogant and prideful towards those below your skill level will only stir up hatred and anxiety against you.  Nobody will want to work or be around you if your attitude is nasty.

If you know a group of cosplayers are having fun, don’t ruin it for them.  Suggest ways to help them improve their cosplay skills in a friendly, loving tone.  Don’t mock a cosplayer for something they can’t control (such as race, color tone, gender,  disabilities, etc.). Remember: you too were once a hobbyist cosplayer who didn’t know any better. So spread the knowledge (but not too much of it)

Sometimes, it’s better to feared than loved.  Sometimes, it’s better to be loved than hated.

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Death Grounds: Anime Expo

30 days.  30 days until I need to get my shit together for Anime Expo. 30 days to structure my perfect battle plan. 30 days to mentally prep for the largest convention I have attended yet.  30 days of disciplining myself when it comes to money management. 30 days to get things right or lose everything I desired for my brand and personal growth – for at least a year.  30 days isn’t enough time when you’re planning out big moves. But you best use those days wisely.

I’m on death grounds.

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What is death grounds?  Death Grounds is a warfare strategy use as a reaction to desperation tactics in the face of not defeat – but death.   It’s based on Sun Tzu (author of The Art of War) desperate ground, which he defines as follows:

‘When you have the enemy’s strongholds on your rare, and narrow passes in front, it is hemmed-in ground.  When there is no place of refuge at all, it is desperate ground.’

In short, when pushed against a corner, an army must go all out to survive. If they don’t, they’ll be slaughtered by the opposition.  Failure isn’t an option.

It’s kill or be killed.

I know I’m coming off as dramatic over plans for a nerd convention, but put yourself in my shoes. Since Fall of 2017, I’ve been planning and going around telling my peers that I’m going to Anime Expo.  I’ve invested $350 on a plane ticket. I saved up $440 for my share of the hotel cost.  I invested $475 on an AX Premier Fan pass (a fancy way of saying VIP pass to avoid the long lines).  I’m ordering pieces for my Monika cosplay this week (only because I made a drunken post on social media stating that I’m doing a genderswap cosplay of her) which will run me around $150. Too much money has gone towards this trip for me not to go.

When you invested money into something, you better fucking make sure it happens.

I must gather my resources, wits, tools, and wisdom together to make it out to AX.  I either get to kill it at Anime Expo and achieve a milestone for my brand or die.  Of course, there’s next year, but let’s say if I miss out on this year’s AX.  I run the risk of losing opportunities this year I will never get next year.  There’s an influential guest or person at this year’s AX I could have met who could help me get to the next level.  He or she won’t be at any conventions again in their career.  I missed out on that network.  Death. Worse, I miss out on AX this year and a few weeks after the event, I die.  Death.

Scary, huh?

Here’s something scarier: Allowing myself to be on  Death Grounds is fun. It’s a lot of pressure, but it’s fun.  I guess it’s my borderline masochist nature, but I find it motivating. Why? Because I want to see the end results of this 10 months of planning. . All my shit talking,  planning, and performing massive action must pay off.  I can’t fuck up now.  In fact, there are no fuck ups allowed on death grounds.

Either you win or die.

 

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Are Nerds Trendsetters? (Freewrite)

Yuki’s Note: This is unorganized and I probably got a few things wrong about nerd culture in the mainstream.  Whoops. 

I love scrolling through my Facebook feed and seeing ads from companies such as Sugoi Shirts and Kaomoji.  Seeing their flamboyant Japanese street fashion inspired clothing makes me smile at the expense of my wallet.  But who cares as long as it could make me look good. I just wanna rock a fuckin’ shirt with an anime girl with a censor bar across her eyes in public!  It just makes me feel good about myself and feeds my ever growing ego. But man, who would imagine vendors online selling stylish and fashionable weeaboo shirts on Facebook?

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Nerds have come a long way since the darker days of our passion when we were shamed for simply enjoying our nerd culture.  If I were to wear my weeaboo attire 20 years ago, people would mock me.  Today? People (for the most part) tend to mind their business.  Shit, just the other day,  when I  went to my local head shop the store clerk saw my shirt and we started talking about Fate series for a few minutes (he thought my sunglasses were something based off Fate).  It was a lovely chat until he said that Rin was the worse girl in the Fate series and that Saber was the best.

I ain’t never going back to that headshop.

Anyway, you wanted to catch a superhero movie in full cosplay back in 1996 and you were over the age of 13?  You got roasted!  Now it’s the norm for people to cosplay as their favorite Marvel or DC superhero at opening night. If there was a nerd in a TV show, they were the laughing stock loser who never get the woman.  They never got anywhere.  But shows such as Silicon Valley has ended the stereotype that nerds are losers and that their hobbies won’t get them anywhere.  I gotta say, this is the golden era of the nerd.

Everything that I’ve mentioned above now leads me to this question: Are nerds trendsetters?

The obvious question is yes, of course.  In fact, I even answered the question my self.  So leave my page.  I want to say that, but I do enjoy going deeper with my theories and exploring them. We (well, I) have come up with the conclusion that nerds are trendsetters.  But why?  Why are us nerds trendsetters, and how can we take advantage of this before the inevitable nerd bubble breaks and we’re back to being shoved into lockers and having our lunch money stolen by the jocks (well, you weak nerds are getting shoved into the lockers, I’m knocking anyone out who tries to do that to me).

This is my theory:

People were tired of the old shit and wanted something new.   Everyone and their moms love reality TV, watching sports, drinking at the local bar, what have you.  Meanwhile, the nerds were in the background; creating and working on their passion. We spent our time inside, communicating with our peers, showcasing our talent online.  As time went on and technology advance bringing the advent of social media people were started to take notice of the group they once shunned away: The Nerd.

Social media lead the way for nerds to showcase their creative talent (although we’ve been doing this shit years and years  before that came along through online forums, blogs, etc.) As more people gain access to the internet, the more nerds were given exposure.  Yes, there were TV channels such as the Sci-Fi Channel, Tech TV, and g4, but they were only viewed by their niche target market.

Now?  Well, I mean they’re still being watched by their niche market, but the normies are getting into them as well.   Oh and g4 is dead.  So perhaps that doesn’t count.  Shows that were once for nerds with cahs (meaning they could afford internet and cable packages) are available through streaming services such as Hulu, Crunchyroll, Netflix, etc..   The video game industry makes more than the movie industry.   Anime is…catching up.  It still has a some catching up to do, but with anime (slowly) creeping into the mainstream, I say it won’t be long until anime in the West is treated like film.

It’s funny to think about how nerds are shaping things up.  We’re like rockstars (almost).  Seriously.  Go on YouTube right now and you see that some of the top YouTubers are people talking about video games or streaming themselves playing games.  Two decades ago folks would scream at nerds that playing games isn’t a real career.   Today? Playing video games and screaming at a game for hours on end is considered a real job. Of course, you have those normies who think that isn’t a real career, but they’re just mad that they’re slaving away at some corporate or labor gig they hate while the nerds they used to bully are making hunder of thousands of dollars playing video games.

So, to anwser my own question: Yes. Nerds are trendsetters.

 

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Playing The Long Game As A Nerd (Freewrite)

 

“You still watching Dragon Ball Z, nigga?  Grow up!”
“Stop acting white! You’re too old to watch cartoons!”
“Go get some pussy and stop playing video games!”

Growing up as a (black) nerd in a backward ass Midwestern city was rough (in the early 2000s). Throughout middle and high school if you had nerdy interests, you were deemed a loser amongst your peers.   Nobody (outside your fellow outcasted nerds) wanted to fuck with you.  You were bullied, teased, and taunted for your nerdy passion.  I too dealt with my fair share of bullshit from normies who didn’t have the balls to step out of their comfort zone; unlike us nerds who didn’t fuck with that fitting in shit.

I still remember how my normie peers would tell me how being a nerd was uncool and that I need to grow up.  They claimed that video games and anime would never get me pussy, popularity, or money.  Of course, they were wrong.  Hell, even with my near grandiose levels of ego, I knew they were wrong. Mainly because  I spent my free-time shit posting and trolling gaming and anime forums communicating with older nerds who went through the same shit I was going through back then.   Many of them had wives, families, money, and status at their jobs.  Some even talked about how they hooked up with an equally nerdy chick or a dude at comic and anime conventions.

I mean shit, I looked up to Bill Gates when I in middle and high school.  Here was a nigga that  was a total nerd in his school days.  Was bullied for being a nerd, spent his weekends working on computers for 40 hours while everyone else was partying and doing stupid, unproductive shit. He played the long game with his brand and within a few decades, he became the richest men in the world.

So much for nerds being losers.

Reading about Bill Gates’s success (as well as the success of older nerds online) made me realize this at a young age:  If I’m going to dedicate my life to being a nerd and building something for myself off it,  then I better play the long game. I just knew deep down that nerd culture was going to be popular.  I just had this gut feeling that nerds and geeks in America will stop being bullied.  That we were going to be trendsetters. Game changers.  The dominant culture in entertainment (The Big Bang Theory doesn’t fuckin’ count).

At the turn of this decade (the 2010s),  my vision was coming true (for the nerd community). Blockbuster superhero movies were the norm.  Video games were treated as a respectful, valued form of entertainment.  Anime (and otaku culture) was accepted.  Anime and video game clubs were poppin’ up in high schools across America.  While nerds were still being bullied, it was happening far less often then decades past.  Kids were free to wear their favorite anime or superhero shirt without fear of being teased or mock.  Conventions were getting mainstream attention.  Being a nerd was now consider cool.

Playing my first long game paid off.

Playing the long game with your passion isn’t easy.  Do not think you won’t face difficulties as a player of the long game.  You are fuckin’ stupid and clueless if you think there no errors or hardships with the long game.  You will have people talk to out of your passion (as they do not see nor understand your vision).   You will get called weird, mad, goofy, insane, whatever your hopeless, average, bottom feeders peers will throw up in your face.  As a player of the long game, you need to block those people out.  Cut them out of your lives even.   Link up with other people who share your passion and understand that success takes years to achieve instead.

How do you play the long game as a nerd?  Simple: Pick something you’re passionate about.  You love vlogging about the latest episodes of mainstream anime?  Good.  Stick with it for a few years. Do you find joy in making others happy when you play video game music on your violin?  Perfect.  Keep it up for years and years on end.  Don’t expect success to come overnight.  If you do, quit right now.  You ain’t cut out for the long game.

To those still bitter about the past and how nerd culture is now popular: Good.  Stay mad.  I need bitter ass suckers like you so I don’t have to worry about fighting other nerds to get that number one spot and dominate and intimidate everyone in the culture one day. Keep being miserable.

For the normies who made fun of nerds and are only on the nerd train cuz it’s popular: Thanks for being suckers!  I look forward to making money and build my brand off yall niggas.

For the rest of us nerds who are taking advantage of this trend: Play hard.  Work hard.  Success is ours for the taking.

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Yuki’s Path to Doki Doki Literature Club’s Good Ending – Round 1: Sayori

You know, I truly believe that you can earn your happy ending in life – but only if you work and grind your ass off for it.  Video games (with multiple endings) drive this point home hard.  If you truly want that happy ending, then you have to go through hell to obtain it.  Doki Doki Literature Club is no expectation.  In order to get the game’s true/golden ending, we gotta go through hell first.  Well, okay we already went through hell once.  Let’s do it again.

‘Paradise starts in hell.’
-Tim Grover

To start, I’m going to tackle Sayori’s route first.  There’s a CG I have yet to obtain (at the time of this writing) from her route.   Plus, her cheerful attitude grown on me.  The too pure cinnamon bun thing, ya know?  Also, gonna name myself after my PC (“OWNER) to see if Monika detects that lol.

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I’m still mad at this bullshit.

Let me say this: Thank god for the skip text option.  Because fuck; I ain’t spending another two hours of my life reading all that bullshit in her route.  For some situations, I did read some of her lines and what others have to say about Sayori.  It’s strange: when you consume media for the first time, you do not pick up on the subtle clues the creator(s) hid within the art.  It’s only when you consume and experience it multiple times is when you start to pick up on the things that were once hidden.  Seeing how Sayori wanted to cheer everyone up to hide her depression and pain not only made sense, it was heartbreaking.

Monika mentioned that it was surprising to read Sayori’s poems on the topic of sadness as it was opposite to her normal cheerful personality.  Saying the obvious (Sayori conceals her depression from the club) is stupid so I won’t go into those details.  It does make you think about the people in your lives who are always happy and want to cheer everyone up.

Are they truly happy, or is their happiness a mask to hide their pain to make people not worry about them?

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“I could sleep forever.” That was the first clue.

Skipping through the dialogue I came across one of the two most important choices I need to make for this route: Would I rather walk back home with Sayori or Yuri.  In my original walkthrough, I selected Yuri (personal bias).  That was one of the catalyze that worsen Sayori’s depression.  In retrospect, I can understand how that fucked with Sayori’s head. I am not a mental health expert or anything, but seeing how Sayori reacted to that, I can only guess that she felt that she was a burden to the MC as well as her feeling worthless.  She probably started to overthink the situation and believed MC was pushing her away to hang out with Yuri (or any other club member).  Again, I do not know if that how depression works.

 

If anyone could be kind enough to correct me let me know.

I went with the “I’d still walk with Sayori” option.  I think I’m doing well.  I hope.  The third round of poem writing seems to get harder. The dark and depressing words seem to relate to Yuri more than Sayori, but I still got reactions from Sayori.  I’m starting to think the game knows I’m save scumming lol.    The day after, the club starts to prep for the festival.  Sayori is sitting alone as normal with her head bury in her desk.

At this point, you can sense that her depression is hitting harder as she once again does her façade of trying to make her crew not worry about her.  Perhaps it is because I am more in tune with my emotional/creative side of my brain, but I can’t help but feel bad about her and think about my friends who are battling depression.  Honestly, that shit breaks my heart and I feel helpless when I can’t help my friends feel better about themselves because of how cruel mental health illnesses are.

Maybe that’s why her character has grown on me on this second playthrough. Ha.

You know you’re dedicated to getting a good end when you panic and freak out thinking you fucked up.  When the MC goes to  Sayori house to check up on her, I started to think “Oh shit I made a mistake this is the suicide scene!”.  Then I remember that scene came a little bit later in the game so I still have time to do my save scum shit.  But nah, the first time MC goes over to Sayori’s house, she reveals that she has lifelong depression.

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This could be fate or just by chance, but I had my hip-hop instrumental playlist playing in the background.  The next song in the cycle was 2pac’s Pain from the movie Above The Rim. Fitting.  Sayori dealt with (mental) pain all her life.  We’re now seeing her tell her best friend about it.  There’s a sample from one of the Star Trek movies that are used in Pain.  I think it goes: “‘I couldn’t help but noticed your pain!’” “’My pain?’” “’It runs deep – share it with me!’”

(If I could get away with it, I would make a music mod of DDLC that uses 90s hip-hop music.  Pain would be perfect for Sayori revealing her depression to MC).

‘Why do we die at an early age?
‘Why there’s so much pain?’
‘Tired of the strain and the pain’

Yea.  Those lines work well with DDLC.

For preparations for the festival, I selected Natsuki to help me out .  I have yet to have any interactions with me from my first run through so I thought it would be best to check her shit out.  But since this is a Sayori-centric path, I’m gonna save my notes/thoughts on Natsuki for her path.  I do like Natsuki’s softer side though and she seems mellower than what she puts out on the surface.   Mellow Natsuki best Natsuki.

(I will like to say that the instrumental of Drake’s “Pound Cake” goes well with the baking scene between MC and Natsuki. Yes. Puns were intended.)

Now, finally, I arrived at the single most important point of this path; Telling Sayori if I love her or if I should put her in the friend zone.  In a normal run-through (without a guide), either decision led to Sayori’s suicide.  In that regard, telling Sayori you love her only to have her kill herself the next day hurts harder than simply telling her that she is your best friend.  Pretty fucked honestly.  In any case, I manage to unlock two CGs I needed for this path for the golden ending so I’m gonna dip out.

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Next: Natsuki.

 

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Yuki’s Doki Literature Club Adventures: Act 4 – Bad Ending (Freewrite)

‘This game will not have a happy ending.’
-Bernkastel, Umineko no Naku Koro ni

Major Spoilers: I lied.  Sayori is the final boss.
Warning: You should already know by now I play this game and write about it drunk.

I was warned that DDLC wouldn’t have a happy ending.  I shouldn’t sweat it too much; given I’m a fan of Umineko no Naku Koro ni: A 07th Expansion visual novel that too didn’t end happily.  The first half of my favorite Fire Emblem game, Fire Emblem 4: Genealogy of the Holy War, also didn’t end well.  And my favorite Persona game, Persona 3, had a depressing ending.  (Jesus fuck, maybe I’m secretly sad that’s why I like downer endings) Did I spoil myself on the bad ending for DDLC?  Yes.  But, I think by spoiling it, it drove me to finish the game (to see how sad and depressing the game ending is).  To tell the truth, I love it when consumer media concludes with a downer ending.  The happy ending thing is played out.  Fuck that happier ever happy shit.

Sometimes, you need a reminder of how brutal and unfair life can be.

 

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The movie been out for almost a month.  Don’t bitch about this spoiler.

 

After killing Monika I restarted the game.  It started as normal, expect Monika isn’t on the title screen.  Yay!  The wicked bitch is dead!  The game resume starting with act 1 like nothing happened expect the recently revived Sayori is now the president….Shes’ gonna be self-aware like Monika, isn’t she?

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In any case, MC  — rather, the player – joins the Literature Club.  Given Sayori’s position on the screen, she is the club’s president.  Yuri is on her left, so I’m assuming she retains her vice-president role.  The BGM is the title screen music.  Ya know, with the piano playing the melody.  Didn’t Monika play the piano?  Hold up…

Sayori gets all happy that the MC has joined her club.  You know, it’s kinda depressing:  Sayori is happy  Everyone is acting normal like they didn’t go through the chaos from Monika. Yet, we the players knew what these girls went through.  We know what is to come.  And there’s nothing we can do about it.

Sucks, doesn’t it?

As the girls celebrate the formation of the club, I couldn’t help but notice how more friendly Natsuki and Yuri are towards each other.  In Act 2 they were at each other throats, belittling one another and judging their hobbies.  In Act 4 however, they seem to respect one another, with Yuri wanting to learn more about manga and Natsuki wanting to learn about novel through Yuri.  What did I say in my Act 2 Part 2 writings?  Natsuki and Yuri could get along and become close friends – best friends even.

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(To tell the truth, I’d love to see a mod or a non-h doujin with  Natsuki and Yuri as they form a powerful bond. Natsuki could help Yuri overcome her fears, become more confident with herself, and fight her bullies. Yuri could help Natsuki learning about the arts.)

As MC and Sayori speak about how fun the club will become, Sayori thanks me (not MC), for getting rid of Monika.  I start to freak out as I’m still drunk from writing my Act 3 shit and the music becomes creepy and distorted.  Doesn’t help that  I’m wearing earbuds that are programmed to be bass boasted.

I made a terrible mistake, haven’t I?

I’m prepping myself for any jump scares or freaky shit so I may become sober as we get deep into this post.  Which probably is a catch 22 because Sayori revealed that she knew Monika did all the horrible things she did to the girls and the player.  She talks about how MCI made her the happiest girl in the world…hold up, didn’t Monika said some shit like this as well?  Please don’t tell me I gotta deal with another murderous nutjob girl who trying to get with the MC. I already had enough of that bullshit for one play through.

 

Sigh…do I have to delete another yandere bitch?   To quote a 90s Nickelodeon co-star “Awww here it goes!”

I’m sure the game knows I don’t wanna go through this bullshit again because the first choice of this act is “No.” Thank you game, I appreciate you.  Sayori’s spelling out “FOREVER” was creeping me the fuck out.   Hold up,  the game isn’t saving me…it’s Monika.

 

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Even this game was like “Yea no let’s not go through any more bullshit.”

 

 

Monika starts to hakai Sayori, the club, and the entire game.   After that, she starts to sing the game’s ending theme and the credits roll.  Apparently, I’m missing a few CG shots (given I have yet to tackle the Natsuki route and I didn’t fucking save scum).  Sigh…fuckin’ bad endings.

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Continued in Yuki’s Revenge Against This Fuckin’ Entry Level VN.

 

 

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Yuki’s Doki Doki Literature Club Adventures Act 3 (Freewrite)

Warning: Major spoilers for the finale of Act 2 and 3. Yuri dies.  Natsuki’s dad uses her as a punching bag. Sayori comes back to life. Monika is the final boss.  Gory imagery of your dead  visual novel waifu decaying below.  Adult themes.  Written under the influence of alcohol.

To my fellow Yuri fans; we got shitted on.  Boy, we got shitted on.  Bad enough she got brainwashed by Monika and was driven to “suicide”  by her  Bad enough we gotta see her bloody body.  But did Dan really have to make us watch her body decay for three days (in game)?  Real nigga shit, for 5-10 minutes we see Yuri body fuckin’ decay while Monika basically taunts us talkin’ about how happy she is to have friends in her club and shit.  I mean, me personally, my fucked up  in the head ass would made Yuri body bloated and do the whole rigor mortis super realistically with the CG art, so I can’t really talk shit. But still, I didn’t wanna see that shit.

…okay I actually didn’t see most of the decaying scene.  I got bored and decided to roll up a blunt cuz that shit was taking too long.

I do have  a few  questions though.  How the fuck did MC survive 2-3 days without food or water while he was trapped in the classroom with Yuri’s body?  How did this nigga not go insane?  He watched his homegirl kill herself and rot in front of his eyes.  I’m sure anyone would had gone crazy seeing that shit. Also why didn’t he call anyone up and tell them what happened?  I understand he was in shock but after a while you would figure he could made a few phone calls.

Eh, it’s video game logic let me not think about it too much.

The weekend came and gone and MC is still trapped in the school with Yuri’s body.  I wonder if he started to eat parts of her body to live.  I mean, when you need to survive and there’s no other source of food… Okay, that’s  fucked up.  Natsuki come up to the club room to prep for the festivial with the reminidng  living  crew.  She spots MC and is surprise that he arrived earlier than her.  A few days earlier but still early.    As Natsuki is about to prep (for the festival) she sees Yuri’s body and starts to freak out.  She also starts to vomit because…yeah, rotting dead body.

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Now, I ain’t a forensic nigga, but wouldn’t you think Natsuki would had smelt Yuri’s body before she got into the classroom?  She goes in the clasrom carefree and doesn’t smell anything until she hits the classroom.  I ain’t gonna look that shit up cuz I don’t want Google to think I’m some serial killer or anything but still, science and everything.   Natsuki starts to run away and Monika enters the classroom.  She wonders why Natsuki was screaming and runnin’, sees Yuri’s body and put two and two together.  Instead of freaking out and/or asking questions Monika simply says “Well, that’s a shame.”

Monika is a fuckin’ psychopath.   Or sociopath.  Whatever. I ain’t a psychologist.

Monika admits that she was screwing around with the game’s script and by doing so, she forgot to let MC escape the room.  Thanks.  Your jealously and murderous intent caused this man to have irrssevial psychological damage. Good job.  As Monika conitutne to brag about her failure she erased Natsuki and the remains of Yuri like she’s a Dragon Ball Super God of Destruction.  You know, I wanna see Monika dressed like a God of Destruction.  She’ll be a perfect fit for Universe 3 given it’s an universe heavily focoued on the advancement of technology (with her being an AI program).

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Monika talks about how it’s the last time she’ll get to fuck around with the script or something and things get weird.  The game glitches out.  The classroom changes to this sinster shit in outer space or something I don’t know I’m too drunk to describe it.  Monika is happy to see me – not the MC – me.  I tried to save the game but Monika doesn’t allow it because she ain’t going anywhere.  Joy.

Is this consider the  end game?  Did I beat the game?  I was hoping so cuz I had to work in a few hours (at the time I played this act) and I didn’t wanna deal with this jealous murderous chick and her trying to get into my personal life.  First, she asked if my name was really “YourName”.  In my head, I’m thinking “no you goofy bitch I was trying to see if the game would pick up on me dicking around and naming myself ‘Your Name” when it asked me to enter your name.  Then she asked if I go by “Owner”.
 

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Chill I ain’t into that kinda shit.

 

Monika, look.  I get you’re in love with the player/me. I get that you may have some kinks like any other normal person. But  I am not into pet play or that owner shit.  If you’re trying to find a someone to entertain your fetishes I ain’t the one cuz that’s some white people shit. I mean it’s cool to like guys older than you. I myself have a thing for older women.  Older women who won’t fuckin’ kill people out of jealously, mind you.

Then I remember that my my laptop is named “Owner”. Whelp!

Monika starts to admit that she made the other girls go crazy in  an attempt to get in the player’s pants.  She brags about making Sayori’s depression worse in order to make the poor girl commit suicide.  Monika didn’t mean to, but shit happens. I understand.  But real shit that’s fucked up.  She also brags aboutt  corrupting Yuri’s obbessive personality.  Therefore, it lead her to kill herself. The girls starts to bitch about how lonely she is (you’re a murderer I can see why nobody wanna be around you) and how much it sucked that the other girls were programmed to fall in love with me while she just sit and watched.

Okay.  Real nigga shit: If you were Monika and you know you were an AI who could  control their fate, wouldn’t you just went ahead and make yourself known in the first place? Make yourself the perfect girl for the player. So perfect that he would have to choose you over the other girls.

Oh wait, Monika’s a fuckin’ idiot nevermind.

 

I almost feel bad for Monika.  Almost.  She didn’t chose to be born a program.  She didn’t choose to live in an artifical world.  Then again, she is also manipulative as fuck so I don’t truly feel sorry for her.  She show me a poem she wrote about an happy ending which would had been sweet and cute but you know: the whole trapped in the room of inifinty thing.   Monika then asks if I know any artists who could draw her in some casual clothes (given she only wear her school clothes).

Well, there are artist out there but they usually draw Monika without any clothes. You can go search for that I ain’t gonna help you out,

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After showing me her poem and her talkin’ she ask that she should look into each other eyes since we have nothing better do to in her world.  That’s really fuckin’ boring.  For real, I ain’t gonna fuckin’ stare at a fuckin’ piece of anime art for horus on end.

Apperently if you wait a while Monika reveals a few things about herself (she loves animals), the girls (such as Yuri sneaking wine into the school through her purse), and  the world she lives in. But like I said, I had money to make and I doubt my boss would be happy that I cameo work late over a fuckin’ video game so I had to delete Monika.

So I did.  I closed the game, deleted Monika and restarted it.  Monika gets all mad and everything like I did something wrong (because erasing her was a worse crime than her murdering three innocent people).  She confessed that she loved me and will always love me.  To show her love, she brought the other girls back to life.  Yay.

Me personally?  I don’t love Monika.  Fuck Monika.

“She said ‘do you love me?’ I tell her ‘only partly’ I only love my bed and my momma, I’m sorry.”

-Drake, God’s Plan

Continued in Act 4.

 

AFTERWORD

Me: “Man, fuck Monika!”
Also me:
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Backside of Our Desires (Freewrite)

Recently I started reading Relentless: From Good, To Great,  To Unstoppable by Tim Grover (athletic trainer for iconic basketball players such as Michael Jordan and Kobe Bryant) after months of the book sitting on my dresser.  Skimming through the table of contents I found a chapter that took my attention.  The chapter: “When You’re a Cleaner… …You Have a Dark Side That Refuses to be Good”.  I went straight to that chapter (as I  know I have a dark side and comfortable with that), yearning to understand why it’s okay to have one.

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The chapter opens up with Tim saying this: ‘A cooler tries to fight his dark side and loses.  A closer acknowledges his dark side but isn’t able to control it.  A cleaner harnesses his dark side into raw, controlled power.’  While I simply nodded and smile (a twisted smile at that), I started to laugh a bit. ‘What kinda Persona 2, 4, and 5 type shit is this?’ I asked myself.  I mean, I doubt Tim Grover is a gamer nor does he gives a fuck about video games, but I couldn’t help to think about the Persona series when reading the chapter.  In Persona 2, 4, and 5, you encounter the “Shadow Self” of the heroes.

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Simply put, the Shadow Self is the “corrupted’ version of a character. It is their hidden desires and thoughts they do not want the world to see.  Domination.  Revenge.  Anger.  Jealously. Lust.  Pride. Hatred.  You name it.  It is the character true self. Yukiko (Persona 4) secretly wants to be liberated from her duties as heir of her family’s business.  That’s her true self.  Maya’s (Persona 2) anger towards her childhood friends.  That’s how she actually feels about the situation that happened to her (as a child).  There’s nothing wrong with them.  It’s just their repressed feelings they have yet to deal with.    We felt those dark feelings often and there’s nothing wrong with it. What’s wrong is if we let those feelings control us – not the other way around (or worse, if we try to fight them).

 

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Shadow Maya

 

It is said that if anyone tries to deny their shadow self in the Shadow world, their shadow will become enraged and kill the person.  In short, they’re coolers. Adachi (Persona 4) knew he had a dark side and rather than control it, the darkness in his heart lead to the murders of two innocent women (and it almost caused the destruction of the world).  He’s a closer.   Yukiko however, came to terms to her dark desires and understood those feelings shouldn’t be demonized.   Because Yukiko accepted her dark feelings (rather than denying them) , her shadow manifested into raw, controlled power (her Persona) – which she would use to save the world with her friends.

Yukiko is a cleaner.

 

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Shadow Yukiko and Normal Yukiko

 

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Be real with yourself and don’t bullshit me: You have dark desires that you don’t want the world to know.  It’s oaky.  Those desires do not make you a horrible human being (as long as they’re not unethical, illegal, etc.).  You want power and control?  That’s okay.  So do I and many other people in this world.  You wish to dominate in your niche and be the baddest man or woman in it?  Same here man.  Had wrong doings against you or those you love and you want the people responsible to suffer for it?

Me too.

Since I’m on that topic, let’s take Futaba (Persona 5) for example.  Her Shadow self was rooted in her desire to confirm that her mother was murdered (rather than committing suicide as originally reported).  Futaba lusted for revenge against the people who murdered her mom.  Futaba was going to kill herself (over the grief and stress of losing her mom) until her shadow talked her out of it and  told her that she has friends who love and support her.   How could Futaba get revenge against the people who killed her mom if she had offed herself?  Upon accepting her true feelings of wanting revenge Futaba became a cleaner.

 

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Shadow Futaba and Normal Futaba

 
Now, do you see how there’s nothing wrong with having a dark side? A shadow?  Your shadow self should be used as a positive.

You were used! They forged her suicide note nad laid the blame of her death upon you! They trampled all over your young heart!  Get mad! Don’t forgive those rotten adults!”

-Shadow Futaba

NOTES:
Coolers: Your average guys.  They get job done at a simple, everyman level.  Your 9-to-5ers basically.
Closers: Those who go up and beyond just a little bit.  They may do a little bit extra than the average guy, but won’t go far when face with issues that they can’t handle

Closers: Your top/god tier men and women.  They do not fear pressure, advisesity, or problems.  In fact, they love them.  They are willing and able to dominate in any situation even if the situation is filled with problems without error.

Shadow Yukiko art source:
https://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=3428393

(Three years later I’m still mad Shadow Futaba’s white/Asian/what the fuck her race is ass dressed up like an Egyptian lmfao)

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Yuki’s Doki Doki Literature Club Adventures: Act 2 Part 2 (Freewrite)

Warning: Major spoilers for Act 2.  Gory imagery of your dead, entry-level visual novel waifu below.  Adult themes. Written while under the influence of alcohol.

I dunno if I mentioned this yet, but Yuri is my favorite character in DDLC.  I can to relate to her issues (overthinking, worrying about what others think about me, etc).   I used to find it hard to open myself to others due to my own problems of being bullied for being weird (took me years to overcome this). I can talk  about the things I love with strong passion for hours.  I get happy when I find people who appreciate me and my work.

Now, with that out of the way, can I say that Yuri is fucking crazy as fuck?   Did this bitch forgot to take her meds before coming to school?  Why does she need to carry a pocket knife around school for?   Why did she felt the need to bring up Natsuki’s abuse; all because she wouldn’t win an argument against her?  And if she couldn’t be even lower, she tells Monika to kill herself to reveal her stress.

Bitch got issues.

 

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I don’t think that’s how that works, Yuri.

 

Today’s Yuki Adventures in DDLC won’t have much substance. Been lackin’ due to work.  Therefore, this post is based off my ever fading memories (thanks to alcohol and weed).  There won’t be as much excitement as my past DDLC adventure posts.

I left off with Monika telling MC that Yuri likes to cut herself (to deal with her emotions) and that I saw something he shouldn’t see.  Now, my thing is this: If Monika knows Yuri cuts herself, why doesn’t she help her friend out?  Tell her to seek a therapist or somethin’ fam. Ah well.  After that, Monika theorizes that Yuri may be cutting herself for sexual pleasure.
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Alright, Yuri is into some things.  I remember my homegirl telling me that Yuri is freaky.  But I didn’t know she was that freaky. Knifeplay is one thing (since you [usually] have to use a dull knife for such acts – don’t ask how I know I just know).  But cutting yourself to get off?  Yea, no that’s crazy.

Yuri, stop it. Get some help.

Monika concludes with that I should spend more time with her because she’s sane.   Monika, sane people don’t call themselves sane.  They especially don’t tell their friends to delete their other friends.   Oh yea, Monika wanted me to delete Yuri and that it’ll be a difficult decision.  Nah, what’s difficult is dealing with a crazy girl who’s plotting against her friends because she can’t get her crush to fuck her.  That, and actually deciding if I wanna delete Yuri just to see if I unlocked a path.  Of course, the game has a habit of deleting your saved files (because being annoyed that you lost your files when you need to take notes for your blog is true psychological horror…) so I decided against Monika’s wishes.

Monika rants about how much she cares about the MC/me/whatever I don’t care anymore and how we’re the only real people in the club (lazy foreshadowing).  She’s not doing a great job at hiding the fact she’s the villain and wants to kill her digital friends.  She may have many talents, but hiding her intentions ain’t one of them.

 

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Nah, you’re faker than them Jordans you find at those dirty ass flea markets.

 

Yuri pops up and pulls MC to the side to ask him some stupid questions.  First, she asks him if he noticed Monika’s recent strange behavior.  I wanted to say “Yes, you fucking idiot she’s been plottin’ against all y’all since day 1 she is actin’ strange!” but I doubt she could hear me (despite DDLC’s genius level fourth wall breaking gameplay).  But yes Yuri, to answer your question Monika has been acting strangely lately.  Next, she asked if she’s not crazy or anything.

Well, Yuri, here some things thing:
1. You did lick and suck the MC’s finger clean of blood (after  he cut himself on your knife).
2. You’re into knives. Not only that, you get off to the danger of knives.
3. When you were reading with the MC, you started to breath heavy.
4. You touched yourself to MC’s poem and did things to your own poem that I can’t go into full details because this isn’t an adult WordPress site (more on that later)
5. You made Natsuki cry.
5B. You said that nobody would cry  or miss her if Natsuki killed herself.
6. You told Monika to kill herself.

Bitch. You’re fuckin’ crazy.

If I was the MC, I’d tell her she is, but that would run the risk of being stabbed to death by her. Yanderes don’t like being called what they are.  As the two talk about how much of a fake, slimy snake Monika is guess who pop up a totally heard MC and Yuri’s conversation (because these two idiots didn’t just go further down the hall away from the club to talk shit)? Monika! Personally,  I was hoping Monika would grab Yuri by her hair and start beating the shit outta her (for talking that shit behind her) but I didn’t make the game.  Look: if you’re gonna talk shit about somebody, make sure they can’t hear you.

 

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Kids: This is how people wind up on World Star Hip Hop fight compilations.

 

Some shit happen that I don’t remember so let’s pretend something happen between that scene and the next poem review scene.  Natsuki comes up to MC with her “poem”.  Strange, given she hates the poems I make the MC write (because I’m not a weeaboo like her) but MC accepted anyway.  Here, we’re are given a look at Natsuki’s softer side.  Instead of a poem, Natsuki gives dude a note about Yuri’s strange behavior.  It’s revealed that Natsuki secretly cares for Yuri and it hurts her to see Yuri acting abnormally.  She wants to help and befriend Yuri but fears Yuri will snap on her (due to their conflicting history).

I’m not shock by this.  Yea, Natsuki is a tsundere and that was tsundere do.  However, Natsuki’s concerns for Yuri make sense if you compare the two. They’re relentless about their passions. They’re often misunderstood.  They will fight to the bitter end in what they believe in.  The two tend to hide their issues from others.  They will only reveal their true, softer side to those who they can trust.

I can totally see them being close, if not, best friends.

 

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Natsuki and Yuri reading manga together.

 

But they won’t. Because Just Fuckin’ Monika.  After Natsuki snitched on herself that she actually cares about people, the game starts glitching madly. The text box is spam with the words “Just Monika” over and over until the game “reset” to the title screen.  Then, I’m greeted with more “Just Monika” text.

The game resumed per “normal”.  MC gave his poem to Yuri and she reads over. Yuri starts to praise it.  She loves it.  Loves it so much that she tells MC that she’s gonna take it home and fuck herself while reading it.  For real, the fuck is wrong with Yuri?  After gushing (probably literally) over MC’s poem, she gives him her poem – which is covered in her blood and what I can only guess is either urine or dried up female ejaculatory fluids. And said poem is endowed it with her scent.

I am pretty sure Yuri may have sexually harassed the MC.

Following that, Monika speaks to MC about spending the weekend with her instead of the other girls.  Yuri (obviously) didn’t like that idea and goes off on Monika. Yuri calls the kettle black and accuses Monika of being jealous. Then she asks her if she taking her anger and jealously out on the club because she hates herself and if so, she should kill herself (to benefit her mental health).

Boys and girls, this is why Yuri has no friends.

Once that died down, Natsuki and Monika leave school and Yuri is all alone with the MC.  Great.  The crazy bitch has the boy she wants all by himself.  The yandere with the knife collection is alone with the MC. Again, the crazy ass, nutty ass, yandere ass knife lover is alone with the boy she crushin’ on hardcore.  What could go wrong?

Yuri confesses to the MC that she’s in love with him. Clearly.  Then she reveals that she stole his pen and fucked herself with it.  Okay.  That’s creepy, but still ain’t that bad.  Next, she was like “You love me too, right?  You accept my love?”.  I’m presented a choice to tell her if I do or not.  I said yes: only because I am a fucking idiot who have a thing for smart, quiet, shy girls.  And I also have a thing for anime girls with purple hair. Yuri gets excited.  Super excited.  So excited that she starts to breathe heavy, laughs, and whips out her knife to stab herself to death.

At was at that moment, I  knew, I fucked up.  Continued in Act 3.

 

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Dreams (Poem)

Let me tell you about outlandish dreams.
No, not the ones created through grandiose delusions and fantasies.
But the ones we entertain during deep slumbers of the night.
That disobeys the nature and order of our realities.

Dreams that tell about fantastic tales beyond human comprehension.
That pushes beyond the limits and barriers of imagination.
When we wake from our dreams we are given no explanation.
For what went on in our head during deep relaxation.

A mad bus driver drifting her bus through the city.
Pretending that she’s a street racer without pity.
Unbeknownst to the bus driver lacking sanity.
There’s a drunken demon on it shouting profanity.
At the back of the bus, there’s a bewitching succubus.
Who narcissistic praises reveal such vanity.

See how insensible a person’s dreams can be?
They can be outlandish and meaningless you see.
But some dreams carry about a dreadful omen.
And predictions of a future yet seen by men.

Symbolism and imagery that give clues to the unforeseen.
Warning us about untold events as we dream.
The vicious barking and growls of a black dog,
Reveal to us our friend’s betrayal.
A heartbroken woman carrying a knife,
Tells her to cut out the cheater in her life.

Our dreams tell us many things while we sleep.
Many that are shallow, yet few that are deep.
Dreams that alert us to danger and doom.
Or dreams that show us our personal bloom.
Pay attention to your dreams next time you’re in bed.
For they can tell us about the unknown coming ahead.
Silly dreams, don’t think about them too much.
Deep dreams, analyze them, as they tell so much.

 

ART SOURCE:
https://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=4881349

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Hating Popular Things Makes You An Intresting Person (Freewrite)

Mark Twain once said, “Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it is time to pause and reflect.” Anyone who does not think Averages: Infinity Wars is a masterpiece superhero film obviously stands opposite to the majority.   Bored at work, I decided to make a shitpost on some Black nerd anime group stating that I do not think Infinity War was a great film (despite the fact I have yet to see it and I wanted to stir up a flame war). The post was merely an excuse to secretly give spoilers of characters dying (as I used a gif of Beerus of Dragon Ball Super erasing Zamasu from existence: a subtle hint to what Thanos did half the universe in the movie).

As expected, Marvel fanboys (who can’t handle the fact people won’t dickride their favorite movies/comics) attacked me. They called me a troll, a hater, insane, whatever insults they could use against during their blind fanboy rage.  I simply laughed: as they didn’t know I never watched the movie (and I was going off spoilers I read online). Manipulative? Yes.  Yes, it was.  Do I care? Nope. Anyways, scrolling through yet another masterpiece troll post of mines I came across a post with the Kirby meme “Hating on popular things doesn’t make you interesting.”

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I love this meme.  Love to make fun of it given how silly it is to think that way.  See, I think people who don’t like things others enjoy are interesting.  They bring something different to the table. A unique taste or flavor so to speak. It gets boring talking to people who share similar interests.  I rather have somebody who’s a bit of an outlier around.  You can’t debate and/or argue with people that share your views – you don’t learn at all from them.

Somebody who has opposite viewpoints, you can learn from them.

By interacting with those who may not share your views, you learn what makes them tick. Somebody may not Pokemon, but they love Digimon.  They might be willing to share their love of Digimon with you to give you an insight of thin passion.  You get invited to go over to their house to watch a few episodes of it and you may even enjoy it.  Dealing with people who are opposite of you is great. Furthermore, you’ll learn skills to handle situations where somebody might have a disagreement with you.

Do you really think you’re an interesting person because you like what’s popular – just like everyone else?  You’re not.  You’re not different.  You’re boring. Bland.  Uninspiring.  Whenever I see a post like “hating on popular things doesn’t make you cool” or whatever, that just tells me this: “I am secretly insecure about the things I enjoy and I can’t’ handle criticism on it because I don’t have confidence towards it.” Confident people don’t let the “hate” get to their head. They just move on with their lives, heads held up high knowing what they enjoy is hot shit.  Nobody can tell them otherwise. So what if people hate things you enjoy?  Stop reacting to the hate and do you.

I believe this world needs that balance of people loving and hating on popular things.