When I had first received word of a new Higurashi anime coming out, I was thinking to myself ‘This has to be a troll’. The Higurashi series is over. There is no casual anime fan that fucked with Higurashi since Higurashi no Naku Koro Ni Kira (if even that). The visual novel side of the fandom is niche as hell. You ask some norime anime fan they heard of Higurashi and they’re either going to look at you silly or think you’re a sick fuck that gets off to lolis killing each other. Higurashi is not and will never come back.
Or so I thought.
Right before I was going to take a power nap, my YouTube notification alert went off on my phone. Subconsciously, I grabbed my phone to see what lame video some lame YouTuber has uploaded. As I scrolled down to unveil my shameful clutter of news in my notification bar, I was greeted with something that made my usual pathetic day better:
The haunting cries of the cicadas. Rika doing her classic “Nippah!” catchphrase. The yandere Shion in her Angel Mort uniform. Mion…with a butcher’s knife. Okay. She’s finally snapped or whatever but she’s back. Our favorite characters are back…alongside some new characters that I don’t give a shit about. One of them looks like series creator Ryukishi07. Okay, it may not be him and I’m probably just being prejudice towards Asians.
As I’m watching the trailer I couldn’t help but notice the text in the upper right-hand corner: Last Period. ‘Did Ryukishi finally tell Studio Deen to fuck off and got with a new animation studio!?’ I thought to myself. I went ahead to do some research on this “Last Period” and things became clear on why Higurashi was coming back.
Last Period is a smartphone RPG game. Joy. Fuckin’ joy. I mean, it’s awesome Higurashi is coming back in animation form. However, it’s being pimped to sell a fuckin’ RPG. Ryukishi, did something happen? I know BT’s death fucked your head up and everything but damn man, you broke too? Were those Umineko pachinko games secretly a front by the Yakuza for money and now you got too deep with them? You owe them some cash? You good bruh?
Jokes aside, I am happy Higurashi no Naku Koro ni is coming back. It’s one of those series that has a life-long impact on me as an otaku, consumer of art, a creator, and as a person. Even if Higurashi is crossing over with a smartphone JRPG series, I’m still going to watch anything Higurashi related. Expect Kira. That was a fuckin’ mess. But really, I hope this collab project is a success because I want more Higurashi. Hell, that might mean we might get a faithful adaption of Umineko no Naku Koro ni
…you know what, let me not get my hopes up.
Maybe not all weeaboos on the internet aren’t all trolls trying to raise my hopes up. Maybe there is a God who actually loves me and wants me to be happy with my life.
Maybe Studio Deen won’t fuck this up. Regardless, there’s a new Higurashi anime coming out and I’m happy.
Hot, black asphalt.
Snaking around the course.
Racers gather ‘round, bumper-to-bumper.
Each wishes to dominate over their competitors.
We rev our engines, our cars roaring with intimidation.
We wait without patience,
As the starting lights sang,
That familiar tune.
Ding. Ding. Ding. DING!
The race begins.
No need to rush just yet.
Let the losers fight for first.
Then push for it when they’re tired.
A sudden left.
Wrap my car around it with ease
Such mastery and grace.
Zip ahead the slow racers.
Who never master that turn.
8th, 7th, 6th, 5th,4th they’re too slow.
3rd, 2nd, and 1st,
Take their place.
And now I, The Champion
End lap one.
The losers want my top position
I peep into my rearview
Rookie idiot crashed
Trying to take my place
I laughed, you thought you could win.
Another loser comes close.
I’ll be nice.
Have first place.
You look so happy.
Hope you win.
Go for it, you can do it!
Changed my mind,
I zipped past that loser
With a smirk
Finish line draw nears,
And I remind in first place.
End Lap two.
Victory draws near.
Defend my rightful first place.
Against men desperate to win
This crazy race.
No more playing hit the gas.
If you’re not first you’re last.
Some loser comes near.
It’s so much.
How you got so close?
I turn my head back to taunt
“You’ll never win!”
When I win, I’m gonna flaunt
Or not. Shit, that’s a wall, isn’t it?
And then I lost the race.
That “loser” became the best.
There goes being at the top.
In victory, know when to stop.
In the original draft of this poem, this was going to speak about overthinking and a racing mind (thus the racing symbolism) but that shit was falling apart so I decided to go a simple route and talk about how being overconfident and cocky can lead to one’s downfall.
Plus, I was blasting some F-Zero music so there’s that.
Recently, my friend came back to town for the Easter holiday weekend. I haven’t seen him in over a year, so naturally, I had to hit my boy up and see how he’s doing. After work decided to pay him a visit to see how he was doing. As I arrived at his parents’ house (where he was staying), I saw playing chess against our homegirl. I’ve always been interested in playing chess, but I was unaware of anyone (in my circle) who played it (until recently). Wanting to feed my curiosity on the game, I ask to play the winner (our homegirl).
My homegirl, knowing that I’m new to the game, gave me the rundown on it. She described how each piece has their own movements, attacks, and the best way to make moves with the pieces. Finally, she ended with the most important detail of chess: planning ahead for the long game. In short, she taught me how chess is about making strategies in your head often; being aware of the risks and rewards that lie beyond.
During her explanation, I realized how chess is like planning my next moves (in terms of brand building, vlogging, blogging, etc.) and looking beyond the moment. You don’t simply move without logic. You must not only plan all the way to the end but adapt to changes as well.
Chess is a game of patience and long-term planning – similar to brand building.
When building your brand, business, etc., you need to plan things out. If you don’t, you will be overwhelmed with stress and problems. Planning for the long game takes time, thoughts, energy, and effort. You must craft a plan for each project – for each move. There are no excuses.
Say my first move is to write a review on Kokkou. My plan is to make time to watch 12, 23 minutes of the series (6 hours or so) once without taking notes. My second move will be to watch it again while writing notes on character devolvement, scriptwriting, animation, etc. Following that, I’ll take out the details in my writing that aren’t important, logically, etc. Once those are tackled, I start writing the first three drafts of my review until I hit my final draft. During this time, I make a schedule for this writing project with a deadline. This way, my review for the anime comes out in time while it’s still fresh in the fans mind.
My long game plan on writing anime reviews or analysis also includes my regular 9-to-5 schedule/plans. Let’s say I have to go in to work at 11. The night before, I take about one hour (10PM-11PM) to add content to my review before I go to sleep for about 6 hours (11PM-5AM). From 5AM-7AM, I just continue to write from where I left off the night before. From 7AM-7:45AM, I prep and eat a protein heavy breakfast. After that, I take a shower and once I’m done with that, it’s back to writing until I have to leave to work (I’m in my work clothes by then so there’s no delay or making myself late for work as I’m working on a project).
Repeat until success.
To conclude, you gotta plan for the long game with your projects. It will help you out. You need to set up your plan with logic, and not be ruled by your heart. Attacking a project without a plan will destroy you. It is foolish not to plan things you.
(Note: I have yet to watch Kokkou. Do not wait for me for a review for it.)
(WARNING: The following post contains my raw, unedited thoughts. Therefore, you may encounter spelling and grammar errors. Plus, I don’t feel like editing a free foam writing post).
The past month or so has been chaotic for my creative pride. With being active in writing, getting my side hustle off the ground, and planning out content for my YouTube channel, my ego has gone into overdrive. I’ve grown arrogant, snapping on people who judge my passion on different Facebook group. When I see people judge my shit, my thoughts go ‘I don’t see you putting your works out for the public to see’ and ‘When was the last time you created something?’. I’m finding myself upset that some people (who are my friends) won’t support me, but they support a stranger (in our niche). I normally turn to a business and branding group I’m a member of for support, but despite their helpful posts, it doesn’t help for long.
In short, I’m feeling impatience about my journey (and a bit of jealousy towards others who’re doing better than me, sadly).
I turned to YouTube to see if I can find any branding influencer I follow for help. I came across Gary Vaynerchuk’s channel in my subscription. He has awesome materials for dealing with impatience, so I started to scroll through his channel until I saw a certain video:
(If you don’t have time to watch the video above, here are some quick notes:
1. Drown out the noise around you and just focus on you until you hit 29 (or 39, 49, etc.).
2. Impatience kills creativity.
3. Everyone who’s in their 20s with “success” hasn’t’ truly hit success in the grand scheme of things.)
I needed this. I needed somebody to tell me that the feeling of impatience and wanting success badly are normal feelings. Ever since I started to study about the moves I need to make, self-education, and working on me (for a better future), I have just been impatient and angry. Impatient because I feel that I’m pouring my heart into my passion and not getting the results I want. Angry because I wish I would have the materials and tools (that I’ve discovered at age 27-28) when I was still in high school. If I had those tools back then, perhaps I would be in a better place right now.
Then again, there’s a saying: Better late than never. Am I mad at myself that I started out late? Yes. Am I happy I started at 28? Yes. I’ve accepted the fact that I’m a late bloomer and everything lmfao. In any case, I need to close my eyes until I’m 29 (three weeks from now). I figure if I limit my time on social media (only using it for networking and brand building), my mental state will improve. I won’t be as impatient, and I stop comparing myself to others. Drown out the noise as Gary Vee suggested in the video.
It won’t happen overnight (like success), but it’s a start. So I’m closing my eyes until I’m 29.
Sorry for the whinny ass post lmfao. I just needed to get this off my chest do something productive with how I feeling rather than holding it in. I promise I’ll post the weeaboo shit soon.
Today I want to share a few of my favorite things.
I must warn you, I am enthusiastic about my loves.
An overt fanatic even.
What are my favorite things you may ask?
Well, I am infatuated with books.
The epic tales of brave, flamboyant heroes overcoming impossible odds.
Unexplainable horrors of the unknown violating your psyche.
Immense, multiple worlds anyone can journey through.
I don’t think about the tales I emerged myself in too much.
I just let the tales lead me.
Characters exhibiting their own unique personality
Mirroring the characters of our own world.
I love to sink into them naturally – exploring the world the author invited me to.
That’s why books are just a few of my favorite things.
Are you still curious about my loves? My favorite things?
I feel comfortable with me telling you about them.
Don’t worry; my loves aren’t too outlandish, hopefully.
What else do I love?
I adore tea.
Black. Green. Herbal.
An abundance of selections for your needs.
Need relaxation? Chamomile.
Want an energy boost? Eary Gray.
Tea for all occasions, for all needs.
That’s why I love tea.
May I tell you one more thing I love?
Oh, but if I do tell, it might drive you away
Scare you even.
But I can’t contain myself – I must tell you!
I love knives.
The alluring danger from their unforgiving sharp edge.
The beauty of the silver blade, irresistible.
I want to resist the urge of touching my skin with them.
But I can’t!
My heart’s beat assaults my chest, my slow breath deepens the blade kisses my skin.
Fresh cuts joining scars from kisses long since passed.
Blood dip, sliding along my skin.
I fill the silence of my room with a blissful, perverted sigh.
Oh! I’m sorry. Was that too much for you?
Perhaps one of my loves was too intense for you after all.
I hope you don’t find me strange or obsessive towards my loves.
I just wanted to share with you
Just a few of my favorite things with you…
Free form poetry isn’t hard. What’s hard is writing that shit for a character you only have a few things in common with. Might do poems focused on Monika and Sayori next I dunno.
Also, i can’t believe I originally played DDLC to make fun of the fans and the game but it inspired me to get back into writing poems lmfao
I have a bit of a big ego.
I shouldn’t talk about it, I know.
But, can you hear me out.
I tell you what’s my ego is about.
They say ego is the enemy.
I don’t see how that can be.
I say that my big ego is my ally.
Do you wanna know why?
My big ego helps me get out of bed.
At times where I rather just be dead.
My big ego helps me face the relentless dread.
Just so I can simply get ahead.
In this game we call life.
What’s wrong with being egotistical.
Having high-self-esteem, it seems logical.
To get to places I need to go.
It seems to bother people through.
When you’re proud of your ego.
In my field, I gotta be the best.
To stand out from the average rest.
Having a big ego works well for that no less.
Stay humble? Miss me with that nonsense.
I’ve been humble for far too long.
It doesn’t get you anything but step on
My ego refuses it.
I must show the world my greatness.
Monika’s desires in Doki Doki Literature Club are clearly rooted in jealousy. She is merely a (self-aware) spectator who watches her (scripted) friends fall in love and live a normal school life. Meanwhile, she cannot do anything, as she knows her role as a program. Despite such a situation, she falls in love with the main character (more so the player) but knows she could never get with them. Therefore, she plots against her friends – murdering them one by one – in order to trap the hero and force them to love her.
As I play DDLC and see Monika’s growth as a jealous villain, I’m reminded of another character that was driven by jealousy and love: Kain of Final Fantasy 4. Like Monika, Kain grew jealous of his friend (Cecil) over the fact that Cecil was in a relationship with the heroine, Rosa. Kain was in (unrequited) love with her. Kain grew hatred towards Cecil; plotting to kill him to get with Rosa. Kain failed, however (as his emotions were manipulative by the game’s villain).
“Monika is like Kain. Fuck I wish I knew how to draw.” I told myself as I reached Monika’s villain reveal in DDLC. As she explains her reasoning behind her action, I started to imagine if I had visual artistic talents how I would draw Monika as Kain. Have her in Kain’s Draagoon armor and her holding a lance (with the tip coated in green to symbolize her jealous nature).
Monika Highwind. I think that could work.
For years, I had this wish that I could draw. I used to be envious of my friends who could draw. Our friends would surround the artist of the group as they reveal their last work. I played the violin, but you couldn’t just whip out a violin in the middle of class and play it. So I wasn’t able to showcase my talents. I tried my hand at drawing and even asking my artistic “friend” for help. He just laughed and told me I’d never become a great artist. Sadly,I took that to heart and quit drawing ever since (gotta love toxic friends).
As the years gone by, I regretted not sticking with improving my visual art skills. Yea, I would have suck back in 2004, but in 2018? Perhaps I could done something fantastic with my skills. Right now, I’m kicking myself for listening to said “friend”. For those who don’t know, I’m working on re-hacking a Fire Emblem 4 romhack that uses Touhou characters.
As I’m testing the hack, I’m having visions of the action in-game. I want to draw these visions. Visions of Reimu and Sigurd having a friendly chat. Marisa crying as Alice is struck down dead. Kaguya and Mokou attempting to kill each other with their respective Holy Weapons. Plus, it’ll make for great promotion for the romhack.
If there is something you’ve been wishing you could be doing, don’t delay. Get on that shit today. Don’t let others discourage you from taking action. If you ask your talented friend for advice and they just belittle you, end that friendship right then and there. They mean you no good and they do not wish for your success at all.
Just things I wish I would have known when I was younger.
Angry because he hurt me again
He hit me before school began
I should tell my friend
But she has her own problems
To worry about my problems
So I guess I’ll be angry
Angry because he ate all my food
I ask him why, but he got in a mood
I should tell my friend
Maybe she can make me feel good
But why would she waste her time on me
I should just be quiet and let her be
So I guess I’ll be angry
Angry because he yelled at me
Told me to shut my mouth
Or he’ll shut it for me
I should tell my friend
Maybe if I do,
It will finally end
But I doubt I can
So I guess I’ll be angry
I’m angry because it won’t stop
I’m angry because I’m scared
I’m angry because it hurts
I’m angry because I’m such a coward
So I guess I’ll be angry
This is perhaps the only fan poem I’ll do in my lifetime. Got bored today on my day off and I have nothing better to do but to write this for a DDLC fan group and do weeaboo shit. Maybe I’ll write and share an original poem one day.
There’s a peculiar law that many believe in. Earl Nightingale, the late motivation speaker, considers this law to be the strangest secret known to man. It is said by believing in this law you’ll attract the things you desire. That if you think about it all day long, it will happen. What you put into the universe is what you get out — good or bad. This law is none other than the Law of Attraction.
Sounds awesome, right?
What if I told you that simply believing that things will happen isn’t enough? The Law of Attraction works (about 10% of the time), but you have to put in the work to obtain the things you want in life. Any ol’ fuck can just look in the mirror and say “I will be successful. Today will be a good day. I will become a millionaire.” But few put in the work to achieve their goals. Let’s be honest: people just say things so they can feel good about their about their current situation without doing anything.
They’re not willing to put in the work.
While the majority is comfortable with wishful thinking, there’s a minority that not only speak positivity into their lives, they make moves to ensure it. Saying some silly mantra over and over again do not and will never make them happy. They need to to go out and get it. Do you think Son Goku stood in front of a mirror and told himself “I’m going to meet powerful warriors, train with masters, and better myself.”? No. He went out to the world and did it. He took action in order to grow. Goku traveled to hone his skill s and learn new things. He wasn’t content and happy with staying in one place.
People who do the law of attraction thing must act in the same manner. You don’t just say silly shit and think you’re gonna magically get shit. This is why I hate most self-help books and gurus who say you only have to say you’ll get what you desire. They’re full of shit. The ones who show you how to get it and warn you it’s not going to be easy – I respect them. They want more than just money from some book.
The law of attractions works. It’s a wonderful law that I follow and have faith in. But I understand that I must put in the action to get what I want in life. Simply lounging around and operating on a hope and a wish that I will become successful is not only stupid, it’s pathetic. I do not want to be one of many who does that shit without applying me. That’s boring.
Warning: Minor and major spoilers for Act 2. If you read this and get mad at me for spoiling things you ’re stupid. This may or may not had been written under the influence of alcohol.
First off, rest in peace Sayori you was a real one. I’ll save you or download a mod where you don’t die after I’ve completed my first run through.
Actually nah, not really. You can stay dead.
After a crazy day at work I decided to go to the liquor store near my house for another large can of Miller Beer (and some Jim Beam shot bottles), head to a park near my crib, rolled up a blunt, and smoke it while drinking (the beer) to get my mind right for Act 2. After that, I headed home and opened up my DDLC folder. Upon opening it I’m greeted with a file: “hxppy thxughts.png”. For a second, I thought I had downloaded while drunk/high (given I like to download weird fanart and hentai when I’m high/drunk), and place the image in the DDLC folder out of pure laziness. Then I remember that as you process in the game you unlock secret shit.
I booted up a new game. The MC made a wisecrack about some genki girl running down the street with bread in her mouth (replacing Sayori). I kinda laughed since this game does make fun of tired anime and visual novel tropes. However, I did stop laughing once the girl’s sprite started glitching. I was more annoyed than shocked through.
The game continued per normal as Act 1; expect Hanako 2.0 is the Vice President. Monika and Moe Fang Tsundere Otaku Girl (forgot her name) reprised their roles. Actually, I lied. The game doesn’t truly continue as normal. Natsuki started doing that Za Warudo shit off Jojo while Yuri’s sprite and the background went into a Dutch Angle; making me think I was playing one of my early 2000s ero-games. Yuri said something like how it’s amazing a writer can take advantage of your lack of imagination and throw you out of a loop.
Thanks Yuri. I thought it was the weed and beer that made me thought I was seeing things and not the game fucking with my head.
Following that, Yuri said something like how the world is full of evil people and how we all worthless at the end. Cool. After the first round of Poem Writing in act 2, I managed to romance Yuri. I was informed earlier that Yuri is a yandere and that she does some crazy shit with knives. Not something like tying up a little girl to a cross and stabbing her to death crazy shit, but somewhere close.
For some reason (for my notes possibly) I took a screenshot of the game from my FRAPS – or so I thought. I pressed “S” on my keyboard thinking I mapped the screenshot hotkey there. My game froze up for a bit and a message popped up: “Screenshot saved to blah blah blah folder”.
“Hold up, does the game know I’m recording and taking screenshots now?” I started to freak out. Yea, the Sayori suicide thing was a bit fucked up. The glitches and jump scare got me a little bit. But the game knowing I’m taking screenshots? That’s too much man. Then I remember: This game was made with that Ren’py engine. The screenshot key is automatically mapped to S.
This game isn’t fucking with me I’m just drunk.
Anyways, I resumed gameplay as normal. Everyone starts to read their poems. Natsuki and Yuri start to form a beautiful friendship/rivalry/a future yuri hentai scene over their poems by cussing each other out and starting a fight. Natsuki hurls some insults towards Yuri; calling her an edgy bitch and a cutter. Yuri claps back, telling Natsuki that she needs to stop acting cute. Me personally, I’m just waiting for Monika to pull out her phone, start recording, and yelling “World Staaaaarrrrrr!”.
Shit if I was the MC, I would instigate the fight further and egg both girls on until one of them snaps and beat the other girl’s ass.
And it looks like I could actually make them fight. The game made me choose between the Yuri and Natsuki. I went for Yuri of course. But the game was like “Nah”. Then I was like “Fuck you I’m picking best girl Yuri.” Despite my wish to do so, the camera kept zooming in towards the Natsuki choice. I tried a few more times until Monika popped up and was like “Nigga you gonna pick Natsuki.”
Monika steps in between the player and the girls and things chilled out. And by chill out, I guess Yuri made a crack about Natsuki’s dad abusing her – causing Natsuki to burst out in tears and leaving the school. Yuri, you should be proud of yourself for making fun of Natsuki’s suffering. I’m kinda glad you did kill yourself.
Yea, Hanako 2.0 winds up stabbing herself to death at the end of Act 2. I’ll come back to that later though. I wanna talk about on how the fuck Yuri found Dagger of Time from The Prince of Persia. Because I think she’s cutting herself with it.
After the fight scene, Yuri decides to make tea for her and the MC. Lovely. Tea is great. I love tea. I’m always down for some tea. Yuri runs off for some water or some shit. I wasn’t paying attention. The MC notices Yuri hasn’t come back and decides to go after her out of concern.
Yea, I don’t blame dude. Yuri’s both a cutter and a yandere. I’ve seen enough shit tier anime featuring yanderes to know that you shouldn’t trust them with food products. Yuri could have been cutting her wrists to put blood in the tea. But yea, dude catches her cutting herself with her knife. As dude tries to talk to her, the screen gets distorted and time’s reversed. Rather than being spooked, I started laughin’ again.
“Yuri has the Dagger of Time and she cuts herself with it!” I said to myself. Not really, it was just Monika fucking around. She explains how when she gets overly excited she starts cutting herself – and how she may do it for sexual reasons.
Yuri’s fucking weird. This game is fucking weird. Monika is the fucking villain and the game doesn’t hide it well. More in part 2.
Whoever coined the phrase “It’s the journey, not the destination” must have been a loser. Clearly, they never hit their goals. So, rather than push through and try again, they gave up. They figured “Well, I couldn’t get to where I wanted so I settle for less to make me happy.” How the hell could you be happy with just the journey? Sure, you can learn from it, but ultimately, you want to hit your destination – your goals. The journey is hard, tiresome, and full of trails. Everyone goes through it when they’re trying to get to their destination, so it’s nothing special. I rather talk about the destination instead.
We have these losers who hold on to that phrase to heart. These losers want to tell others that it’s okay to give up on the destination just so they can feel good. Sorry, I don’t feel good when I don’t hit my goals or arrive at my destination. I hate it. How can I feel good if I didn’t hit success? “But you can learn from your failures!” Sure, you can. But when you fail so often you want to win. I think its just better to learn from the victory, analyze how you won, and repeat the methods/steps from your victory to ensure massive success and victories over time.
Let’s compare this to one of my most beloved JRPGs of all time: Final Fantasy 4 (and because I’m listening to the overworld theme as I write this). His goal in the first act of Final Fantasy 4 was to cleanse his soul from that Dark Knight bullshit. He felt guilty for his sins and wanted to atone himself. In order to do so, he had to go on that Heroe’s Journey or whatever. Cool. But his ultimate goal was to clear his past sins and atonement.
If you played Final Fantasy 4, you wanted to get the Paladin class for Cecil. I bet you were tired of grinding for hours and wanted to push forward. I know I was. You wanted to see Cecil better himself and reach that goal. You wanted, no needed to see him achieve. That’s how we should be with goals and destination. There’s a funny line in the game. When Cecil speak to one of the Mystia elders who had knowledge about the Paladin class, the elder flat out told him the truth.
Cecil asks how many people failed in their quest to become a Paladin. The Elder starts to laugh and say “Failed? No, they died!” The failures don’t get to tell their tale of how they almost obtained that paladin class – because they died. But Cecil was able to tell the tale. Nobody wants to listen to stories from failures who almost did things or about their journeys. Everyone has their stories about their journey. Nobody cares about the journey, we wanna hear about the destination.
Anyone can go on a journey. But few can arrive at the destination. Very few.
In my eight years of traveling to conventions and browsing through convention social media pages/groups, there is one ailment that tends to impact many an otaku: Post-Con Blues. Post-Con Blues is the feeling of depression and sadness at the end of a convention. Many will have to wait a year or so to see their cosplaying friends and weird ass costumed brethren, dealing with the “normies” of the real world. I’m going to be real: I do not get this post-con blues thing. It sounds goofy to me. Ever since my first convention (Anime St. Louis 2010) I never felt this feeling of sadness. Did it suck that I had to return to the real world after my first convention? Kinda.
I say kinda only because I figured years ago if I go back to work, spend and save my money wisely, I could continue and traveling to conventions and write about my experience on them (althrough seven years later after my first convention but whatever, I’m lazy). Going to conventions weekend after weekend would burn me out and destroy my bank account. Seeing the same people and cosplays would bore me quick.
Another counter messaurement I have for post-con blues is my hobbies outside of anime. I love reading books (business, self-help/education, money, etc.) – so I focus my attention on those things. I kick it with my friends when we’re free. Watching anime helps as well…when I have the time (being an adult working 60 hours a week is brutal).
Something to help keep my mind off cons for a bit.
If I do get upset after a convention, it’s more so I’m leaving a more cultured city and returning to the hellhole that is Saint Louis, lmfao. I remember being treated with so much love at Atlanta when my crew went to Anime Weekend Atlanta back in 2014. People were friendly, polite, helpful, and not on some bullshit back in St. Louis. I love St. Louis, but we are fucking backwards. We are too slow to catch trends and by the time we do get trends, it’s too late. I’m not saying Atlanta is perfect, but when you know your city barely has any culture and you go to a city full of it, it changes your mind about your hometown.
Now, my next statement will be harsh. Cruel even. But you guys know me – I don’t care for the feelings of others (for the most part). I personally (again, I) think if you have post-con blues, that simply means you have no life outside of your anime hobbies. Sorry, but that’s how I feel. If your life revolves around whacky ass Japanese cartoons (and you’re not making money or major moves off it), you live a sad life. If you use conventions to escape your problems rather than reward yourself for solving them (that you can control mind you), you’re an idiot.
To conclude this short little essay or freewrite or whatever, I don’t’ get post con blues. Never have and never will. I feel that I have means to avoid that shit and do better myself, but that’s just me. If you have post con blues, then do something about it rather than whine about it.
(Warning: Major spoilers for Fire Emblem 4: Genealogy of the Holy War and Doki Doki Literature Club. I’m not dealin’ with ya weebaboos and ya hurt feelings.)
I can fondly remember when my homeboy (at the time) “spoiled” the fact that Hotaru was Sailor Saturn (Sailor Moon S) in grade school. I had just finished watching my first episode of Sailor Moon (episode 117: Higher, Stronger! Cheers by Usagi) the previous day and was hooked. I expressed my love for the Hotaru character and her awesomeness. Unlike Usagi and Chibi-Usa (who had to transform in order to gain their powers), Hotaru didn’t need to transform for her powers. My dude smiled and said “You know Hotaru is actually a Sailor Scout, right? She’s Sailor Saturn. That’s why she has powers. In fact, not only is she a Sailor Saturn, she’s being controlled by somebody else.”
“Ahh!” I replied. “No wonder she could do those things like blasting a monster across a track field.” The spoilers about Hotaru’s truth identify didn’t ruin her character for me. In fact, it made me more excited to watch more Sailor Moon S. I wanted to see Hotaru’s journey as a sickly, lonely girl to the Soldier of Destruction (who ironically, would save the world from destruction).
Spoilers don’t mean shit. Being spoiled about an event in the media we consume never ruin the emotional experience. In fact, it makes it better. Some may say “But spoiling something will make you disappointed or change your mind about a character.” Okay, so what? Your views of a character are going to change regardless of you got spoiled on their actions or not. Why try to avoid the inevitable when it’s going to hit you sooner or later?
Let me change your mind about spoilers. I know I can.
Spoilers neither ruins nor replace the emotional experience that you’d otherwise witness. Spoilers are just words. They don’t provide the gut hitting visuals of seeing your favorite character die. Spoilers don’t give you the sense of anger of seeing a “trustworthy” ally betraying his best friend on screen. “But Ben! What about twists and surprises!?” Oh well. Once you consumed media for nearly 25 years you tend to get bored with surprises and twists.
Recently, I’ve been playing the popular Western visual novel, Doki Doki Literature Club/DDLC (not to be confused with the obscure PC98 visual novel Doki Doki Vacation). Through my adventures (of playing the game), people were trying (failing) to convince me not to read spoilers. They told me that it’s better to experience the game blind so I could “truly appreciate” the game for what it is.
First off, I had to laugh at those who believed I should play DDLC by their standards. Second, telling me to avoid spoilers won’t work – it’ll just make me read them. Through reading spoilers, I discovered that Monika was the true villain of DDLC. Monika was a manipulative, angry, jealous, and lonely girl who wanted someone to love her and grant her freedom (from her digital prison and self-awareness powers). Did those spoilers impacted and change my views on Monika? Of course, but in turn, it made more interested in her character (given that I enjoy manipulative/Machiavellian-type characters).
Here’s where I still felt the emotional impact of Monika’s cruel deeds despite being “spoiled”.
As Monika brags about killing Natsuki, Yuri, and Sayori, your character is forced to sit across from her in the Literature Club (now the Room of Eternity). The distorted music, dark orange tint filling the room, and Monika staring at your eye gave me a sense of unease. I felt anger as Monika casually – yet coldly – discussed how she murdered her friends. Now, do you see how spoilers don’t replace those emotions? Again, they don’t give you that visual treat.
Reading those spoilers didn’t provide me with those emotions – but playing the game did. The spoilers just enhanced my journey, which brings me to my next point.
Around 2005, I started playing Fire Emblem 4: Genealogy of the Holy War. I “foolishly” spoiled the game’s ultimate plow twist – Arvis murdering the main character, Sigurd. Furthermore, Arvis manipulated the nobles of Grandbell to wage war against a few nations: just so he could have the nobles kill each other. Arvis’s schemes prove successful.
Rather than being mad at myself (for “ruining” the plot), I became curious about Arvis’s “terrible” deeds and did research. I discovered the game development notes of Shouzou Kaga (creator of Fire Emblem); gaining information on Arvis (that changed my mind about him). Arvis was angry at the nobles of Grandbell who abused their power – subjecting their citizens to levels of extreme poverty (while the nobles spent their riches on themselves).
Arvis – in his head – thought himself as a liberating hero for the common man.
The spoilers didn’t ruin the plot for me. In reality, not only did it made me want to play the game, it made me respect Kaga’s complex writing of Arvis’s character. Kaga’s notes help me understood the tragic (anti) villain archetype of media. It was the kick that I needed to see the game all the way to the end – to see how the events unfold through Kaga’s craftsmanship.
See how spoilers can work in your favor?
Spoilers do not mean shit. This was a fact that I discovered back in my childhood with Hotaru/Sailor Saturn, one of my favorite characters of all time. Being spoilers on certain characters might change my views on them. That’s okay: it was going to change either way. Reading spoilers helped me understand why villains such as Arvis and Monika had to do the things they did – and I still got emotional when I reached their villain reveals in their respected games. The spoilers got me in the head of the creator and made me felt what they felt. To me, that’s the ultimate sign of respect for a creator: understanding their works.
Origins: Famicom Detective Club
Class: Princess > Lady Lord (Automatic game over if she dies)
Weapons: Sword (C), Staff (D), Light Magic (E) (Earns E rank in Fire/Wind/Thunder upon promotion)
Personal Weapon: Light Blade (Sword, heals 5-10HP if used as an item, casts Lighting from afar)
Skills: Adept (Strike twice if faster)
Pursuit/Critical Coefficient: 2/5
Re-move Chance: 2/5
Leadership: 2/5 (10% to the army’s hit and evade)
Ayumi’s Lady Lord class is basically the Mage Knight class from FE4 and FE5 on steroids. Her high growths in Magic suggests the player to focus on building up her Light Magic ranking (as well as Fire/Wind/Thunder upon promotion). Her biggest flaw is her defense and HP as she cannot take heavy blows. Since Ayumi replaces Leaf, you need to baby her and focus on her weakness in to ensure she’ll become a solid leader by the end of the game.
Origins: Higurashi: When They Cry
Class: Mercenary > Hero
Weapons: Sword (C Rank) (Earns E rank in Axes upon promotion)
Personal Weapon: Satoshi’s Bat (Sword, 3x damage vs. armored units)
Skills: Charm (provides 15% hit and evade to nearby units), Miracle (Luck*3% chance of evading fatal blows)
Pursuit/Critical Coefficient: 3/5
Re-move Chance: 1/5
Leadership: 1/5 (5% to his army’s hit and evades)
Supports: Mion (Bow Fighter>Sniper), Shion (Sword Master), Rika (Mage>Dark Bishop), Rena (Myrmidon>Sword Master), Satoko (Shaman>Sage)
Keiichi’s main strength lies in his abilities to hit hard and survive otherwise fatal blows thanks to his defense and HP. He can support the Higurashi girls thanks to his leadership star and units outside of his army due to his Charm skill. Upon promotion, he will gain access to axes (which you will need to focus on building his Axe rank up due to indoor lance users). Don’t waste Satoshi’s Bat on any enemies, however. You’ll need it for troublesome Generals and Barons.
Origins: Umineko: When They Cry
Class: Mage > Mage Knight
Weapons: Fire/Wind/Thunder (C Rank) (Earns D rank in Sword and A rank in Dark Magic upon promotion)
Personal Weapon: Red Truth (Dark Magic, Bestows Nihil skill, 3x damge to horseback and armored units)
Skills: Vantage (Always strike first)
Pursuit/Critical Coefficient: 1/5
Re-move Chance: 4/5
Leadership: 2/5 (5% to her army’s hit and evades)
Supports: Battler (Mage Fighter), Ange (Mage>Mage Knight), Lucifer (Social Knight>Duke Knight)
Beatrice (as much as I love her), won’t shine unless you baby her and work on her flaws (and once you gain her personal weapon near the end of the game). She gains access to swords upon promotion but with her weak build and low strength it may not be worth giving her such weaponry.
Origins: Doki Doki Lit. Club
Class: Female Paladin
Weapons: Sword (A Rank), Lance (E Rank) Staff (A Rank), Light Magic (C Rank)
Personal Weapon: Your Reality (Lance, bestows Pavsie and Luna skill. 3x damage vs. horseback units)
Skills: Nihil (Disables Sword Skills), Charge (Prolongs battle)
Pursuit/Critical Coefficient: 1/5
Re-move Chance: 0/5
Leadership: 4/5 (20% to her army’s hit and evades)
Supports: Yuri (Dragon Rider>Dragon Master), Sayori (Thief>Theif Fighter OR Dancer), Natsuki (Axe Fighter >Great Knight)
Using Monika is a gamble. She excels in Strength, Magic, Luck, Skill and Leadership making her a viable physical and support character. With Your Reality, Monika can block attacks, do incredible damage to horseback (especially if Luna activates). Sadly, this comes with a price. She has shit Build, HP, and defense. She can not take blows against powerful units. Many of the weaponry Female Paladins have access to are heavy — which will weight Monika down (and she will wind up being attacked twice by faster enemies). Her PCC is low so any chance of her landing a second attack or dealing critical damage against her enemies are slim. Oh, and she has Charge — the worse skill to have in Thracia 776 due to the long-range units you’ll face in the game.
Use her for situational combat.
Origins: Katawa Shoujo
Class: Paladin > Master Knight
Weapons: Sword (A Rank), Lances (C Rank) (Gains usage of every weapon upon promotion)
Personal Weapon: Hakamichi (Sword, increases critical attack bonus, strike twice)
Skills: Vantage (always strike first), Sol (restore health equal to the damage inflicted on an enemy), Pavise (may block attacks)
Pursuit/Critical Coefficient: 3/5
Re-move Chance: 4/5
Leadership: 5/5 (25% to her army’s hit and evades)
Supports: Lilly (Priestess> High Preist ), Hanako (Mage>Mage Knight), Misha (Armored Lancer >General), Hisao (Duke Knight)
Shizune is perhaps the most broken Leader so far (in my game notes). I mean just look at her skill set, class promotion, and personal weapon! That screams “I’M CHEAP!” lol. Since Shizune is a powerful leader I’m going to make it hard for the player to recruit her but trust me – it’s going to be worth it.
MORE LEADERS TO COME AND UPDATES COME NEXT APRIL FOOLS LMFAO!!!!
Coming soon! My next major project: Visual Emblem: Novel 776! A Fire Emblem 5: Thracia 776 romhack featuring the VN genre’s most popular characters pitted against one another in war in the world of Thracia 776!
Characters and series include:
Famicom Detective Club (Lord: Ayumi)
Steins;Gate (Leader: Kurisu)
Fate/stay night (Leader: Emiya)
Higurashi (Leader: Keiichi)
Umineko (Leader: Beatrice)
Katawa Shoujo (Leader: Shizune)
Little Busters! (Leader: Riki Naoe)
Doki Doki Literature Club (Leader: Monika)
Ever 17 (Leader: Coco)
Saya no Uta (Leader: Saya)
Rewrite (Leader: Kotarou )
Phoenix Wright (Leader: Phoenix Wright)
Danganronpa (Leader: Junko)
Ayumi from Famicom Detective Club will be the Lord of this Visual Novel Fire Emblem romhack (given she’s a Nintendo character and I believe it make sense for their VN character to be a lord in a Nintendo game ). She has access to Swords, Magic, and Staves starting off and retain her weaponry upon promotion to Lady Lord.
Given Thracia 776 gives multiple characters the chance to provide leadership bonuses (instead of some FE games), I figured that FE5 would work best for my ideas (of having multiple leaders provide support).
Example: Monika of DDLC provides support bonuses to Yuri, Sayori, and Natsuki if Monika is on the same map as her army. Because her Leadership Stars ranks up to 4 (out of 5), Yuri, Sayori, and Natsuki each gain an additional 20% to their hit and evade.
Keiichi does the same with his Higurashi army (Rena, Mion, Satoko, and Rika). What makes Keiichi special from Monika as a leader is that he has Charm (Charisma) as a skill. Charm gives any nearby units 10% to their hit and evade bonuses. His army nets an additional 5% to their bonuses as he has 1-star leadership. Therefore, the Higurashi army automatically net 15% in bonuses.
In short, this romhack riles heavily on supporting units as Thracia 776 is a difficult game. You must use teamwork in order to survive.
Thracia 776’s elements such as capturing, fog of war, and fatigue will remind in this romhack. This ensures that the players are thinking about their next move and prevents overusing certain characters. I get that you may love Saber (fate), but let rest for a map. Besides, you might need her to recruit Rin to your side. If Saber is tired and can’t go into the chapter where you must recruit Rin then you’ll lose on her.
Deadlords are gonna be in the final chapter. Depending on who you didn’t convince to your side, if they got killed before the final chapter, or let them get captured, certain characters will become mindless vessels to the Deadlords. Sayori off DDLC, Hanako off Katawa Shoujo, Mia off Phoenix Wright, and Kurisu off Stein Gate are possible candidates for Deadlords vessels However, that might change over time.
Next post: An introduction to the Leaders of Visual Emblem: Novel 776 and their stats.
But real shit is Monika Machiavellian? She did use power and fear to control the game. She also tricked Sayori and Yuri to kill themselves just so she can get closer to the main character. In addition, she used fear to get her way by fucking with the player’s head AND deleting Sayori before Sayori became self-aware. What ya think?