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The Narrative Themes of Sailor Moon S/Infinity (Analysis)

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I’m a huge fan of the Infinity arc of Sailor Moon. I  love it. It’s my favorite arc of the franchise and was my first exposure to the series.  The soundtrack is amazing, the characters are lovable, and there are a slew of amazing scenes.  It is just a wonderful addition to the lore of the Sailor Moon series.

However, I think one thing that some people may have overlooked about this arc is the theatrical and narrative themes.  I believe that if one were to analyze and break down the arc’s themes, they could gain a better appreciation for it.

Join me as I go in-depth in the themes of the Infinity Arc.  I hope that after reading this article, you’ll gain greater love for arguably the best arc of the series.

PART 1

Science and Technology

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‘Yeah, but your scientists were so preoccupied with whether or not they could, they didn’t stop to think if they should.’

Ian Malcom – “Jurassic Park”

The theme of science and technology is one of the best things of the arc.  It’s a refreshing addition to the lore of the series.   While prior villains Queen Beryl and Wiseman were versed in magical arts, Infinity Arc villain Professor Tomoe used science and technology to combat against the Sailor Scouts’.

From genetically engineering superhumans such as the Witches 5 (manga and Crystal anime), transforming his own  daughter  into a cyborg, implanting himself with an alien egg, and constantly performing experiments, Tomoe had various tools of in his arsenal in relation to science.  I mean hell, the man was even blacklisted from the scientific community for his illegal and unethical experiments (manga and Crystal).

The brilliant Tomoe wasn’t alone in using science against the Scouts.  His assistant, Eudial had her own tool set as well.

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Toasty!!

Eudial (of the Witches 5) fought the Scouts using her own tools such as poison gas, a shotgun that exacted a victim’s Pure Heart, a flame thrower that even surpass the strength of the Sailor Scouts,  and perhaps her most dangerous tool; her wits and mind.

While she wasn’t a total genius like her superior, her  wisdom could not be ignored.  The woman even wrote a computer program that hunted down possible owners of pure hearts and the Holy Talismans. In addition, she built a super computer made from peach cans.  Hell, she even worked on dimension transporter device in her downtime.

Granted, she did realize there were fatal flaws with the device. Something that her hater I mean partner Mimete learned the hard way.  Boy did she learn the hard way.

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It was at this moment that she knew, she fucked up.

I can’t forget the more science fiction elements of Sailor Moon S.  The invasion of the Daimons  felt like something out of sci-fi movie; strange aliens from a foreign galaxy attempting to take the  world over,  using humans as their host.  Or whatever cheesy plot they thought of.

Even Mistress 9’s theme sounds like a track from a sci-fi film:

I wonder, was Naoko Takeuchi and the Toei writing staff were on a sci-fi kick during the development of the Infinity manga and anime arc? The sci-fi aesthesis are way obvious.   Cyberpunk and sci-fi culture were dominating and influential in the anime and manga culture of the early 90s. I would not be shocked if Naoko and Toei were influenced by the cyberpunk culuture for the arc.  In any case, the sci-fi elements were a breath of fresh air after compared to two anime season and manga arcs of magic and fantasy.  It brought something new to the series.

PART 2

Father and Daughter

Father, you left me but I never left you
I needed you, you didn’t need me
So I, I just gotta tell you
Goodbye, goodbye

– John Lennon “Mother”

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The father and daughter  narrative isn’t anything new in the series. You have Usagi and her pops, Kenji. Then we have Chibi-Usa, and her dad, Mamoru (and of course, Chibi-Usa’s dark persona Black Lady with  her Electra Complex with Mamoru).

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When he finally lets you call him “daddy”.

Those examples of fathers-and-daughters are stable. However, with the introduction of Hotaru,it broke the mold of the stable father/daughter relationship in Sailor Moon (excluding Rei and her dad, but that’s for another alcohol fuled writing)

The manga and the original anime continuity depict Hotaru and Souichi’s relationship in polar opposites.  To put it nicely, Souichi was a piece of shit to Hotaru in the manga.  The selfish asshole viewed his daughter’s injuries resulted from a fire in his lab as a blessing. Taking advantage of the newfound “blessings”, Souichi fitted Hotaru with cybernetic implants, as well as genetically modified her by infusing the kid with the egg of Daimon Mistress 9 (given to him by Master Pharaoh 90).  Souichi’s selfish actions, and his desire for revenge ruined not only Hotaru’s body, but her life as well.

Hotaru had some well… daddy issues.  She went off on her dad, frustrated with him for allowing Kaorinite  in their house.  She also moped about her dad being consistently away, focused on his research rather than her. Thus, Hotaru felt lonely.

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Just an average day in the Tomoe household.

It doesn’t help Souichi’s case that he only cared about Hotaru to awaken Mistress 9.  In addition, he only saw Hotaru as a science experiment, a perfect hybrid of cybernetic, genetic, and alien technology.   Yea, the dude saved his daughter’s life.  Yet, he only did it to make her into a living puppet.

Sometimes, family ain’t shit.

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There’s something else Kaori likes to suck up from her dad but this is a Christian run blog. There are h-doujins of these two online if you’re into that.

 

Back when I was a child 

Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me’

-Luther Vandross “Dance with my Father”

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When “Take Your Daughter to Work Day” goes horribly wrong.

When it comes to their relationship in the first anime, Hotaru and Souichi were close.  The two loved each other dearly.  Souichi gave up his freewill to Germatoid , in order to Hotaru’s life, who lost it in a lab explosion.  Souichi was supportive of Hotaru, always there for her and made the girl his number one priority.

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Despite not being his fault, Souichi regretted ruining Hotaru’s life.  In his defenese,  he wasn’t unaware that Germtoid made her a vessel for Mistress 9. Souichi even risked his own life to protect Hotaru, taking blows from Mistress 9 and attempted to restore his kid (Even though Mistress 9 used Hotaru’s voice to trick him and Sailor Moon).

While I’m on the subject on Mistress 9, I love the more sinister side of Hotaru and Souichi’s relationship; Germatoid and Mistress 9. Although indirect, they did have some interactions while under the possession of their alien overlords.

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It’s strange to think how opposite their relationship were when comparing the anime and manga. Souichi was willing to save Hotaru, even if it meant becoming a servant to Germatoid. While he was noble for doing so, it did spite him, as Hotaru would become Mistress 9’s vessel.  Souichi had enormous remorse for allowing Hotaru to be possessed, despite he knew it wasn’t his fault. Unfortunately his manga counterpart did not share that guilt.  He felt prideful about his actions, thinking of Hotaru as just a project and not his daughter.

PART 3

Conflict and Division

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Sailor Moon: Civil War

Why can’t we be friends?
Why can’t we be friends?
Why can’t we be friends?
Why can’t we be friends
?

-WAR “Why Can’t We Be Friends”

Most fictional team up will have their time of division and conflict.  The nWo splitting between the nWo Black/White and nWo  Black/Red,  the Avengers splitting up between Team Iron Man and Team Captain America,  and Spider-Man and Venom’s team splitting during the events of Maximum Carnage.   It’s bound to happen.

With the introduction of the Outer Scouts, and their goal of saving the world by any means, including sacrificing the wielders of the Pure Heart Crystal, the Inner Scouts will face their biggest problem yet: Inner conflict and division.   It doesn’t help that the problem increased  with Hotaru revealed as the Messiah of Destruction, but more on that later.

I love the clash between the two teams. Right from the jump, the Outers didn’t play with Usagi’s optimistic, idealistic views.  Hell, they flat out told her to stop being childish and selfish; bigger things were at stake.

Episode 21 of Infinity arc, “The Death of Uranus Neptune?!” expands on this:

Usagi is desperately pleading Haruka and Michiru to join forces with the Inner Scouts.   You can feel her emotions as she wants the pair to unite with her team.  Usagi wants nothing more but to unify her friends.  Despite Usagi positive attitude, Haruka snatches Usagi’s transformation brooch and  gives the girl a chilling warning:

“Don’t ever show yourself in front of us ever again…Sailor Moon.  Or else.”

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Haruka and Michiru ain’t playing games, even if it meant threatening to kill Usagi to save the world.

Speaking of killing, The Outers had no issue with wanting to kill a sickly 12-year-old child, Hotaru Tomoe, whom was confirmed to be the Messiah of Silence, Sailor Saturn.  The second Saturn awakens in Hotaru, the trio went on the attack, not caring if this was a damn kid.  They wanted her dead, for the sake of the great good.

By the way, Hotaru is the best friend of Chibi-Usa, who just happens to be the future daughter of  Usagi.  One of the Outer Senshi is Setsuna/Pluto, who just happens to be a second mother to Chibi-Usa.

So this whole “Kill Hotaru” thing was going to be fun for all parties involved, right?  Two group of allies and friends split into two opposing teams.  You have one team aiming to save the person because it wasn’t their fault that they are a puppet for the bad guy.  Then, you have the other team wanted to kill the person regardless.

Hell, even our heroes weren’t the only ones with team work issues. The Witches 5 (anime) weren’t too keen on sticking together. Mimete and Eudial had their beef with one another.  In Eudial’s defense,  Mimete was a complete and jealous idiot who wasn’t  shit.  Their beef escalated to life-ending heights, with Mimete destroying the break system in Eudial’s station wagon, leading her to a watery death.

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Mimete’s petty shit starting would catch up to her, leading to her own death at the hands of another member of the Witches 5, Tellu.  You see, Mimete thought she was slick, calling up Tellu and pretending to be Professor Tomoe (using a voice changer), reliving Tellu of her duties.  All so she could could take Tellu’s spot in the upcoming mission.

Tellu wasn’t playing that shit.  Boy, she wasn’t playing that shit.

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Man, it’s such a damn shame that even the bad guys, who are supposed to work together in order to defeat the good guys, are beefing.

Teamwork makes the dream work but not with these fools…

 

PART 4

Messiahs

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‘The time has come
O Messiah.  O Messiahs.’
Dragon Ball Z Soundtrack “Day of Destiny – Spirit vs. Spirit”

Messiah of Creation.  Messiah of Destruction. They’re like ying and yang; one can’t exist without the other.  Sailor Moon is the fabled as the messiah; the one whom will bring hope and salvation against the taboo messiah of destruction and death; Sailor Saturn.

We are introduced to the Messiah of Destruction in Rei’s horrifying premonition.   The world is frozen, painted in red.  Rei, (the only person who isn’t frozen), spots a destruction force of light and energy approaching.  It’s dreadful.  As Rei is violently pushed back by the energy, a light shines behind her.  She turns to it and in despair ask is it the Messiah.

The light ignores her cry.  Rei can only watch as the darkness consumes her allies the world. Never get your hopes up, children.

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As the series progress, additional information of the Messiah of Destruction are presented.  In episode 30 of S, we are revisited by Rei’s nightmare.  This time,  there’s a feminine figure with a scythe (hmm…), standing on a cliff menacingly, illumined in a bright white light.  Rei’s vision ends with the figure violently descending towards Rei, bringing her scythe down on the girl ending with blood splatter.

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Rei awakens, recalling the dream.  She notices the figure has a recognizable face, but quite can’t put her finger on who it is.  It’s totally not Hotaru as Sailor Saturn who’s the malevolent messiah.   Trust me; I have never misled people on the internet.

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Not Hotaru.

As for the true Messiah, she is hinted as Sailor Moon. After Neptune’s death, and the revelation of the two being the Talimans wielders, Uranus questions the Messiah.  She asks their deaths were divine punishment for their crimes of their mission.   In her despair, she envisioned the messiah, whom in actuality is an untransformed Usagi.

Usagi envisioned as the messiah is fitting.  Time and time again, Usagi is willing to put her own life on the line for both the world, and her loved ones.  Usagi even risked her life to save Uranus, the same person who threatened her earlier in the episode.

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When the Outers tried to kill Hotaru, Usagi pushed the girl out of the way of a combine energy blast that may had otherwise killed her.  Usagi defends her new friend, stating that it’s not her fault that she is Saturn, and that she shouldn’t have to die.

Usagi still had the drive to protect Hotaru, even after her transformation to Mistress 9. Usagi took an energy blast from Pharaoh 90 head on, (who attempted to kill Mistress 9).  Before that, Usagi attempted to restore Hotaru back to normal by giving her the Holy Grail.  Granted, it was a trick from Mistress 9 (who was using Hotaru’s voice) to manipulate Usagi into giving her the Grail.

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Finally, Usagi tried to save Hotaru (as Saturn), who jumped into the core of Pharoh 90 to kill him and save the world.  Despite being warned by Saturn that she may not survive inside Pharoh 90, Usagi still went in. While Usagi “failed” to save Hotaru, who had  died using her destruction powers,   Usagi managed to recover a reincarnated, newly born Hotaru.

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By the way, did you notice that both Saturn and Moon were introduced as messiahs at right around the same time? It’s like both the Toei writing staff and Takeuchi knew how to directed these two  to meet at the end of the arc. It gives a sense of duality with Saturn, being the Messiah of Destruction, the one who would end the world, and Sailor Moon, the Messiah of Creation, the one who will save it.  Of course however,  Sailor Saturn became the savoir of the world, sacrificing her life in the progress.

‘If you have feelings for other people…anyone can be a messiah.”

-Hotaru Tomoe
Sailor Moon S Episode 36

PART 5

Sacrifice

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‘Logic dictates that the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few…or the one’

-Spock
Star Trek

The narrative theme of sacrifice returns in Sailor Moon Infinity and boy, do they shove it down our throats.  From Uranus and Neptune’s willingness to sacrifice the live of pure heart owners, to the two losing their own lives to ensure the world’s protection, to Profressor Tomoe surrendering  his freewill to save Hotaru in the anime, to  Hotaru herself  giving up her life to save the world, sacrifice plays a huge role in Infinity.

As previously mentioned, Uranus and Neptune’s prime objective was to track down the Holy Talismans, sealed within three Pure Hearts.   The Three Holy Talismans (The Mirror, The Sword, and The Garnet Orb) were tools to summoning The Holy Grail (or Sailor Saturn in the manga/Crystal anime).  Once summoned, the true Messiah will use the Grail’s everlasting power to stop the threating silence and Messiah of Destruction.  However, in order to unseal the Holy Talismans, the Pure Heart owners had to be sacrificed.

As time went on, Uranus and Neptune were revealed to be the wielders of two Talismans (by Eudial). Upon her death, Neptune ‘s Pure Heart transformed to the Deep Aqua Mirror. Once Uranus realized she too held a Pure Heart, she took her own life to exact it, in hopes that Usagi will use the Talismans to summon the Holy Grail and save the world.

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(Of course Uranus and Neptune were brought back to life, so their sacrifices were somewhat meaningless.)

After concluding that Hotaru was Sailor Saturn, the Outer  Scouts decided they needed to kill her in order to prevent the world’s destruction from Saturn.  Take an innocent girl’s life to save countless others.

It’s heavy, isn’t it?

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I do find this funny:  the Outer Scouts wanted to sacrifice Hotaru  life.  The Inner Scouts were all gung-ho against it.  Despite the conflicted groups’ back-and-forth aguring,  Hotaru ‘s life was still sacrificed.  Just not in the way anyone expected.  After Hotaru accepts that she is Sailor Saturn, she jumps into the core of Pharaoh 90, and destroys him, killing herself in the progress, but saving the world and her friends (and of course her father in the first anime).

While sacrifice was always a theme prior and after, I love how it’s portrayed in the Infinity Arc.  It wasn’t just about Usagi, or the other Scouts putting their own lives on the line. Others may have their own life sacrifice if needed be.   Eventually, one life was taken to save the lives of countless others.  This arc did brought up the ethics of sacrifice. It is like to to say is if really okay to (unwilling) sacrifice one person’s life to save the lives of others.

Conclusion

Sailor Moon S/Infinity is my most beloved and favorite of the series.  The narrative themes oof this arc made it interesting and analyzing the themes makes it a renewing experience.  The Science and Technology theme was refreshing in a magic based series. The paralles of the father-daughter relationship of Hotaru and Souichi from the anime and manga were conflciting,  The Outer Senshi brought in something that the Inner Scouts never dealt with in the past: division and in-fighting.  The Messiahs gave the arc a near  religious side to the series.  Finally,  the sacrifice theme presented the issue of is it ethic to take a life of a person to others.

On the surface Sailor Moon S appears to be that of a simple shoujo magical girl series but once you dig into the narrative themes with an analytical mindset you’ll uncover that there are hidden meanings behind this excellent arc.
I hope with this in-depth look of the themes of S you have gained a better apperication for the season as much as I have.  Thank you for taking the time out of your life to read this article.

Thanks to everyone who supported and believed in me.  Thank you so much.

Images Sources:
https://prettysoldierproject.com

 

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Asian Ghost. White Body. (Freewrite) (MAJOR GitS SPOILERS)

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Matoko: Asian Ghost. Mira: The White Shell.  In the movie, it’s revealed that Mira (or The Major) was in fact, Matoko, before the mind-to-body transfer.  Matoko was an Asian runaway girl who was kidnapped by Hanka units, along with several other runaway children of Japanese  heritage.  After destroying her body, extracting her mind, and injecting it with false memories give her motivation to fight terrorists, Matoko was given the body of that of a white woman.

Prior to that reveal however, Mira runs into an older Asian lady.  The lady welcomes Mira in her house, offering tea.  As the lady and Mira speaks, the lady remarks that Mria’s body language and verbal tones reminds her of her dead daughter, Matoko.  It’s incredibly eerie to the woman.
Hmm…

Anyway, While I’m happy  Matoko wasn’t “white washed” (completely), the scene made me think: Was this all social commentary on the white washing of iconic ethic characters?  You have  Matoko, an Asian woman inside the cybernetic body of a white woman.

Matoko/The Major, an Asian  anime character (we assumed), is portrayed by Scarlett Johansson, an white actress.

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Manga Matoko.  My personal favorite design of The Major.

In a sense, it’s meta. Film Matoko is Asian but why is she in a white body?  Why are iconic anime characters of Japanese descent are being portrayed by  White actors in Hollywood.
It’s probably not that deep or meta.  Hell, perhaps they changed things around to cover up any edvidances of white washing.  Perhaps this was just all apart of the plan.

These were just merely thoughts I played around with at 2 in the morning when I had nothing better to do but to overthink an action film based on a comic book.

 

DISCLAIMER: I’m Black.  Not Asian.  I don’t speak for Asian-Americans, Asians, or all people of color.  White washing is an issue in American films.  I am not okay with it. We all have different views on this shit.
(Gotta get that shit outta the way before people SJWs tumblrinas get mad or 4channers think I’ll support their bullshit I already got people mad at me on Facebook lmfao)

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What Makes an Anime Great (My Opinion of Course)

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Lupin the 3rd (1971). One of my favorites anime series of all time.

Everyone has an opinion on what makes an anime great.   Some people love storytelling.  Others enjoy aesthetics and art direction.

I love storytelling and music personally.   I love direction synergy between art and music tones.

We all bring in our own personal bias and taste when viewing anime, considering what will make or break an anime.

Anime is a visual medium.  I like anime series that can play off the aesthetics of the series. Visuals are narrative.  It gives aids the story’s tone.

Directors can use visual tones to emote viewers’ emotional reaction.

Example: The conclusion of Yusuke and Suzuki’s fight (Yu Yu Hakusho).

Series animation director Akiyuki Shinbo uses vibrant surrounding white light transiting into black and. dark shading on Yusuke.   It sets a depressing feeling; that Yusuke died putting his life energy to defeat Suzaku.

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Yu Yu Hakusho (1992)

Along with visual tone, a great anime needs a convincing story. The story needs interesting written characters with motivation. I like characters that are written in a way that can relate to naturally.

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Son Gohan of Dragon Ball Z: Fusion Reborn (1994).  I love his goofy and carefree nature as Great Saiyaman.

Most of my favorite anime characters are written like this. If I relate to a character,  I care for them. I root for them to overcome their issues and improve overtime.  This factor makes the character seem more human.

Mob from the 2016 anime series “Mob Psycho 100” is a character that fits this.

Despite  blessed with everlasting psychic power,  Mob wants to improve in other accepts in his school life.  Rather than joining his school’s supernatural club, he joins the athletic Body Improvement club.

He aims to nurture his weak psychical strength and body.

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Mob and Musashi. Mob Pyscho 100 (2016)

He wants to improve his weak body by strengthen it.  He could have easily joined a club suited to natural skills.  However, Mob wants something more in life than just relying on his natural gifts.

This makes him feel human. This makes me relate to him because I want to improve in life. We all do.

Finally, a great anime needs a prominent music.  Similar to visual, music sets tone.  Music is narrative. Music is expressive.   Music should  reflect the mood of the scene.

I want to experience the same shock and amazement of Kyon, a normal teenager, as he was spectating reality wrapping aliens Yuki and Ryoko fighting inside a data field.   Hell, I want the music to make me believe that I am Kyon.

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Ryoko vs. Yuki from The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya (2007)

I believe music can do this to my emotions.  The right usage of a background song can impact and trigger the emotional accepts of my core.  This enhances the anime for me.

As diverse individuals, we have our ideas on what make a great anime.  We bring in our own taste and ideas that reflects what we want in an anime.  Visual, sound, character story and tone.  We  use those factors to build standard of quality.

REFERENCES:

Ryoko vs. Yuki Fight Theme
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Love the song’s usage of of techno-like percussion, violins, cellos, and synths to create an alien sound.

Why You Should Watch Mob Pyscho 100

Super Eyepatch Wolf’s in-depth analysis on why Mob Pyscho 100 is worth watching.

Aesthetic IS Narrtive

Digibro’s analysis on the importance of using visuals aid and aesthetics for anime story-telling.

 

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Playing Favorites: Character Relation

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Shadow Kanji (Persona 4 – 2008)

 

 

Question:  Have you ever wonder why a certain character is your favorite?  The answer can be as simple as you think they’re cool and awesome or  deep such as you have a relatable personal connection to that character.

I believe everyone has that one (or more) character that they can relate to.  You probably relate to the character because of similar personality traits.

We like to see ourselves in characters we favor most.  We appreciate these characters because they remind us of ourselves.  This is how I am with my favorites. I love my favorites because I see myself in them.

Kanji Tatsumi from the 2008 video game Persona 4 is somebody I love.  I can relate to his issues.

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Kanji  has a complex with his identity as a man.  He enjoys sewing, knitting, and cute things.

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Generally speaking, those hobbies are stereotyped as feminine and thus, he has a complex about his masculinity and sexuality.

Years prior to Persona 4, Kanji was bullied for his hobbies.  He was taunted with homophobic slurs and other forms of name calling by his classmates.  This fucked him up mentality.

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Young Kanji (Persona 4 manga – 2012)

 

Kanji develops a tough guy facade to combat (and mask) his insecuirties. He bleaches his hair blonde, starts weight lifting, pierces his ears, and wear attire to reflect his “manliness”.

It’s a bullshit front to hide his unresolved issues.

Kanji would eventually accept himself. He gains confidence  embracing his “feminine” hobbies and learn to be open with his passion (it’s a story best saved for a more in-depth analysis post in the future).

Kanji’s struggle with his identity and self-acceptance was a reminder of my teen years.  My enjoyment of  nerdy hobbies such as video games and anime resulted in  being bullied and called an “oreo” (black on the outside, white on the inside) and being accused of “acting white”.

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An “Oreo” or whatever.  Stupid ass term.

 

Shit was goofy and baseless but it impacted me mentality growing up.

I knew I was black.   I knew I wasn’t trying to be white.  However, being fuck with and bullied for my hobbies by my black peers fucked my head up.

I developed a fear of expressing my nerdiness openly. I was afraid that people would judge me for being black and nerdy. Didn’t help that I  had  low self esteem pile on as well.

It took going to college to get over this fear.  In college, I found other black peers who openly enjoy nerdy things and being conformable with both their racial and nerd identity.

I was inspired to do the same.  To say fuck the judgement niggas and do me. To embrace myself.  I became my true self and felt accepted.

Today, I am not only just confident in myself but also I am happy.  Happy that I finally could be me and be understood without fear. Happy that I was able to accept who I am.
Kanji’s issues with his identity and accepting who he was reminded me of my younger days: A young kid dealing with his own issues with it and coming to terms with  loving myself.

It was a struggle of self-conscious issues and fear of rejection but I learned to overcome those fears.

When it comes to relating to an anime character I would say  Hotaru Tomoe from Pretty Solider Sailor Moon is one of my top choice.

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Hotaru Tomoe (Sailor Moon Infinity – 1994)

 

I’m a huge fanboy of the Hotaru/Saturn character. While it is dope that she can blow up a planet or even a  galaxy with her powers, my love for the character comes from finding parallels in her core personality in Sailor Moon Super (SMS) and me growing up.

Hotaru in SMS  is introduced as a shy, quiet, socially awkward, bullied and weird girl who doesn’t have any friends (prior to meeting Chibi-Usa and the Inner Sailor Scouts).   She keeps to herself and doesn’t  interact with othrrs due to her  fears of being shun, bullied and teased by others.
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Hotaru’s fears resulted from being mocked and rejected by her peers because of her general weirdness (her healing powers and random, but violent, mood swings from being possessed by Mistress 9) so it’s understanding why she did not open up to anyone before befriending Chibi-Usa.

Hotaru first encountered Chibi-Usa,who had hurt herself chasing her hat. Seeing her hurt, Hotaru offer to heal  Chibi-Usa’s wound.

Chibi-Usa was amazed by her power. Hotaru was surprised that Chibi-Usa didn’t freak out or thought of her as weird or creepy as others thought of her powers in the past.

 

(Granted Chibi-Usa IS a superpowered time traveling princess like Future Trunks from Dragon Ball Z. Healing factor ain’t shit to her but I am getting off topic).

The two became best friends from that day forth.  Hotaru didn’t dwell on how different she was from her new friend because she was just happy to be accepted for who she was. She was able to open up to somebody.

 

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“That’s my best friend, that’s my best friend, flexin”

Growing up, I was bullied a lot for my weirdness and awkward nature. I’m also rather  shy and quiet (expect when I am drunk. I am not quiet nor shy when drunk).

It takes a while for me to open up to people due to my own fears from the past (the fear isn’t as bad as it used to be in my youth). If I do open up to somebody its because I vavule that person deeply and I feel like they will accept me.

I get overwhelm with joy each time I can connect with somebody despite how different I feel about myself.  It is a great feeling to be accept despite what fears may hold me back.

To conclude,  I believe everyone has at least one  character they love because of one or many similar triat.  Being able to connect with a character is a wonderful feeling because you see yourself in him or her.

I was able to see myself in Kanji from Persona 4 and Hotaru from Sailor Moon S because I shared similar traits those characters had.  They became some of my favorite characters in their respected medium because of the parallels I had with their personality.

 

(I am never fucking editing on a phone ever again)

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Always Work on Your Craft. You Just Never Know…

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Dragon Ball Super manga artist Toyotaro. Former fan artist turned professional comic artist.

As an artist, musician, or writer, you often hear people tell you that you should always promote your craft. Always work on skills.  Always improve on your work because you never know who may be checking you out.

Having the right person enjoying your craft could lead your passion and hobby into a career or even working along side with your idol.

Dragon Ball Super manga artist Toyotaro is a prime example of this.  Toyotaro started out as a Dragon Ball manga artist.  As a doujin artist he is best known for his Dragon Ball AF doujin manga; a fan project that landed him a job with JUMP Magazine working along side with series creator Akira Toriyama.

A fan working with a series creator man.  That’s perhaps one of the greatest honor you can have that nobody can ever take away from you.

Think about it: Toyotaro had a hobby of making Dragon Ball manga.  He probably never imagined in his life that his passion and love would lead him to working with famed manga artist Akira Toriyama.  He gets paid to create art of his favorite series with the creator.

If you’re a producer keep making beats. A musician? Keep playing. A writer? Keep writing.  An artist? Keep drawing.  Keep promoting yourself and putting you works out for the world.

You really never know who may be enjoying your work.

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Thanks, Son Goku! (Barely Edited Freewrite)

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Goddammit Goku…

Imagine this: Your homeboy gets you caught up in his bullshit.  You had no involvement to his actions prior but this doesn’t mean anything.  Your careless ass friend managed to drag you into their mess. If you do not get involved, the  dire consequences will impact not only him but you as well.  And it ain’t gonna be pretty.

In the recent episode 78 of Dragon Ball Super, Goku is that careless friend.  Goku manged to drag his associates, friends, and family into his bullshit.  Goku defiantly went against Beerus’ prior warning to not to remind Lord Zeno (Zen-Oh-Sama) of the Tournament of Power.
The Tournament of Power (a.k.a the Omni King All Universe Survival Tournament)  the all universe tournament hosted by Lord Zeno, king of all.  There are no rewards in this tournament sans your universe not being wiped out of existence if you’re declared victor in addition to using the Super Dragon Balls. There’s at least that.  Yay!

So, because Goku wants to fight so badly he endangered not only endanger his friends, family, and planet, this man put the existence of his universe at risk of being wiped out.

Goku, for the very first time in his life, has to take responsibility for his actions. Beerus had to threaten him  to do it of course.  Thank god for you Beerus.  Thank god for you.

Goku enlists his son Gohan and friend, Majin Buu to fight in this tournament and explains If they lose, goodbye to their  universe existence. Mr. Satan tags along but he ain’t doing shit. They ain’t too please about Goku getting them all caught up.

They ain’t the only ones you know.  You already know word got  spread quick about this tournament.  You already know you got niggas from all 12 universes who want to come after Goku.  They have to fight  not just for surivivial, but for their existence because Goku needed a good challenge.

Nigga you need your ass beat.

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Father and Daughter – Souichi and Hotaru Tomoe

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Prior to Sailor Moon S, a laboratory explosion would claim the lives of Souichi Tomoe’s family.  Lamenting his daughter Hotaru’s death, Souichi is approached Geramatoid of the Tau Nebula. Geramatoid presents him an offer: Restoration of Hotaru’s life in exchanged for Souichi’s freewill and servitude.

Souichi accepts, not caring about  his own life.  Upon Souichi’s agreement Germtoid takes him as a vessell; controlling his body, will, and life. Unknown to Souichi , Hotaru would become a vessel to Mistress 9; the Messiah of Silence.

After the incident Hotaru and Souichi continued their lives “normally” and grew close, despite acting as pawns for the aliens. With Hotaru’s character arc introduction, we are given a solid example of their bond. In episode 112, Hotaru and Chibi-Usa are warmly greeted by Souichi at Hotaru’s house. Hotaru cheerfully introduce her Chibi-Usa to her father, who is glad to see Hotaru made a friend (for once in her pitiful life). Hotaru is affectionate towards her father, expressed in tone and body language.

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Later, the relationship cemented at the arc’s climax.   Souichi (liberated from Germtoid’s control) confronts Mistress 9 (fully controlling Hotaru’s body). He falls to his knees, clutching the unrecognizable woman and begins begging for forgiveness, guilt ridden for allowing her to become possessed and indirectly ruining her life.

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Irritated, she responds with calling Tomoe a “useless filthy shell of Geramtoid” and strangling him with her hair. Enraged, Hotaru (whom was inside Mistress 9) overpower the Daimon, forcing her to release her father.

Mistress 9 would struggle with Hotaru to regain control of the child’s body but to no avail.  Hotaru’s drive to save her father would lead to the awakening the spirit of Sailor Saturn residing in her.  Mistress 9 was instantly killed as the power of Saturn’s awakening was too much for her.

 

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Soon after awakening, Hotaru, as Sailor Saturn, proceeds to destroy Pharaoh 90 (leader of the Daimons, summoned earlier by Mistress 9) saving the world at the cost of her life.  However,  with her powers of rebirth, Hotaru was reincarnated as a baby.  Souichi (recovering from his injuries and amnesia) reunited with Hotaru, beginning a new life free from the Daimons.

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This is heartwarming and sweet and I’m happy for these two. They went through some shit. They earned their happiness. And then Setsuna kidnaps I mean borrows Hotaru for her powers. Yea. Borrowin’. That’s what they’re callin’ it these days.

 

At the end, it’s funny to think about the roundabout results Souichi noble act of sacrifice. The man gave up his own will and body to save his daughter’s life.  Hotaru saved her father and “sacrificed” herself to save the world.

To quote a certain rapper: ‘Have you ever loved someone so much, you’d give an arm for? Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?

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I think he gave more than just an arm for Hotaru.

(If we were to dig deeper into their relationship there’s actually a second side of Hotaru and Souichi’s, relationship although not as direct.  After Hotaru’s introduction in the series, there are a few scenes of Hotaru and Souichi [under the influences of Mistress 9 and Germatoid] interacting with one another and discussing plans for Mistress 9’s awakening and the destruction of Earth.)

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While the anime portrayed Souichi as a caring, warm, and selfish father, his original manga counterpart was a deranged monster. (Okay, maybe monster is a bit too strong of a word.  Bastard seems right).

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Professor Tomoe from Sailor Moon Crystal (2016)

Professor Tomoe was a self-centered madman whom perceived his daughter’s near fatal injuries and the invasion of the Daimons as gifts from the heavens.  His grand ambitions and selfish drive would lead to Hotaru living a horrible life.

An infamous figure in the science community, Professor Tomoe was blacklisted due to his unethical research and experiments.  After being blacklisted Tomoe sold his findings, using the money he earned to buy property for a research lab and founded the Infinity Academy to continued his work.  Flip and hustle my dude.  Flip and hustle.

Similar to the original anime, his wife was killed and Hotaru was severely injured in a lab fire.  Tomoe saved Hotaru’s, using a combination of genetic technology and replacing  her damaged limbs with cybernetics implants.

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During a follow-up operation, lighting struck his lab, opening a dimension gateway (it’s a comic book, roll with it).  Master Pharaoh 90 emerged  from the gateway with an offer: he would give Souichi everlasting power and knowledge  in exchanged for his allegiance.  Although bewilder and hesitate at first Souichi accepts, seeing this chance encounter as a breakthrough for his research.

Pleased, Pharaoh 90 gives Tomoe Daimon eggs for implantation of human hosts.  The professor receives one for himself and another containing Mistress 9.  The Mistress 9 egg needed a suitable host for her powers to grow.  Souichi knew the “right’ person.

Tomoe implants the egg inside  Hotaru who was still recovery.   Her body degrades to a frail state resulting from the unnatural combination of cybernetics implants, genetic technology, and finally, becoming the unwilling vessel of Mistress 9.  Culminating from the selfish ambition of her father, her health plummeted ranging from seizures, shortness of breath, and blackouts.

While Souichi and Hotaru were close in the anime, their manga counterpart was distant and cold.  In chapter 2 of the arc Kaori (Tomoe’s assistant) notices Hotaru having a health fit.
Kaori offers to help Hotaru until she recovers.

 

 

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It’s shocking to see Kaori concerned about Hotaru compared to how she emotionally tormented the girl in the original anime.

Despite being offered help, Hotaru pretty much tells the woman to fuck off, stating that she can take care of herself.  Tomoe intervenes, asking Hotaru not to be rude to his assistant as Kaori helped the family ever since the death of her mother.

Hotaru proceeds to go off on her dad. She doesn’t hold back in telling him that he’s only infatuated with the woman, who just happens to be his private tutor.   As Hotaru storms to her room she tells Kaori that “she ought to learn her place”.

 

 

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Hotaru isn’t quite subtle with her disapproval

Souichi checks up on Hotaru once things cooled.  As she is being comfort by her dad she remarks on how inhumanly cold his hands are.

I believe this is the best to describe their relationship: Cold.  The two were distance and cold.  Souichi was invested in his research, always in his lab. This left Hotaru lonely with little interaction with her father.  Souichi only saw Hotaru as a project, more concerned Mistress 9’s growth than his own daughter.

Later in the future, Mistress 9 awoken (transformed after consuming Chibi-Usa’s Silver Crystal). Souichi was excited to see her in full.    He expressed concerns that  initial  fusion attempts with Hotaru’s body failed, nearly prevented her awakening.   Hotaru (observing the discussion in her spirit form) wasn’t pleased that her father did this to her.

Her suffering and ostracized life was caused by her own father.  Her father whom only saw her as a science experiment.

 

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Fuck you bruh. Fuck you.

Souichi would meet his demise in Act 35 of the manga.  Soon after transforming into Daimon Germatoid, Tomoe was instantly killed by Super Sailor Moon’s “Rainbow Moon Heart Attack”.  (Dude was talking all that good shit but he didn’t even last three pages.)

As she watched her father die, Hotaru reflects how he did everything for her ever since her mother’s death.  However, she states that her father died on the day he sold himself to Pharaoh 90.  The man who died was not her father.

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It’s strange how opposite their relationship were comparing the anime to the original manga.  Souichi wanted to do anything to save Hotaru even if it meant becoming a servant to Germatoid and the Pharaoh 90. While he was noble for doing so it did spite him as Hotaru would also become a servant to Mistress 9.  Souichi had enormous remorse for allowing Hotaru to be possessed despite he knew it wasn’t his fault.

Unfortunately his manga counterpart did not share that guilt.  He felt prideful about his actions, thinking of Hotaru as just a project and not his daughter.  Yea, he did saved her life (how he did at may not been totally legal, performing surgery his  kid in his secret lab) but what good was that if he took advantage of her suffering?

Goddammit manga Souichi.  Just…goddammit.

 

Afterthoughts:
While most (hardcore) fans are aware that Hotaru and her father’s interactions are vastly different in the manga/Crystal and original 90s anime, there are some who may had only grew up watching or experienced the original anime.  It is because of watching the original anime alone that they were unaware that Souichi was a horrible person in original manga thus his cruel nature in Sailor Moon Crystal.

Their surprise is understanding as Souichi was a good person who was thrown into a horrible situation in Toei Animation’s portrayal of his character in the original series compared to Naoko Takeuchi’s Professor Tomoe in Crystal and the manga.  Their shock pretty much inspired me to write about both versions lol (YouTube comments can do that to you)

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