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Yuki’s Path to DDLC’s Good End: Round 2: Natsuki (Freewrite)

Disclaimer: Possible spelling and grammar error below I’m just knocking this out of my way so I can work on this Hi-Score Girl review.

Round 1: https://yukithesnowman.com/2018/05/15/yukis-path-to-doki-doki-literature-clubs-good-ending-round-1-sayori/

Continuing from where I left off, I was able to obtain the CGs for Sayori’s route in order to unlock the true ending.  Re-playing her route gave me a new insight into her accurate portrayal of people suffering from depression (such as feeling numb, hopelessness, lack of desire, etc.) made me appreciate her character. I want to see more educated takes of characters struggling with mental health in fiction –because done right, it can hit hard.

Since I’ve “completed ” Sayori’s route, I’m going after Natsuki’s next.  I haven’t done her route since my first run through, which is perfect given I need to go through her route before replaying Yuri’s.  Going through Yuri’s route in Act 1 requires me to witness Sayori’s death scene; therefore ruining my plans to get the game’s true ending.

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For cut down on time, any previous read dialogues are being skipped unless I find something interesting and worthy of being talked about.

I like Natsuki. She’s slowly becoming a favorite character of mines. I’ve said this many times, but I hate the tsundere trope in anime – unless a writer puts realism to the trope (as we see with Natsuki).  She’s a “tsundere” but her aggressive, angry nature is a resulted of her being physically and emotionally abused by her father. It’s common for victims of child abuse to struggle with anger issues and develop an inferiority complex. Obviously, Natsuki hides her insecure nature (from the abuse) by acting tough and hard-hearted (but of course, she secretly cares about other people and don’t wanna see them down or hurt).

Playing Act 1 again, I couldn’t help but laugh at MC’s awareness of overused anime archetypes as Natsuki did her little “tsundere” bullshit such as “It’s isn’t like I did this for you” and hiding her love for cute things through acting hard and tough.  It almost made me forget that DDLC was a psychological horror VN.  Almost.  With that said, I can’t help but find some parts of my personality in her (as weird as it might sound).  There are some things I do enjoy that I’m kinda shy to admit (some moe’ blob anime like Lucky Star, classical music, reading about heart-warming stories , and shedding a tear or two at emotional scenes in anime to name a few).

…that’s as far as my softer side y’all gonna get from me.

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Tsunsuki

The first night of the poem homework for Natsuki went smoothly.  And by smoothly, I cheated and save scummed because I accidentally got a few reactons from Yuri and Sayori that completely override my goal to have MC romance Natsuki.  Eh. I dunno what cute shit fictional girls like. Or real ones at that.  I suck at the romance thing.

After starting over I got MC to interact with Natsuki,.  There’s a hint for shadowing/mockery here as Natsuki talks about her favorite manga,“Parfait Girl” MC makes fun of the cover, which offends Natsuki telling him the old adage of never judging a book by its cover and how things may have more layers than it appears. A subtle jab at the true nature of the game.

I can’t help to think how Natsuki’s character mirrors that of the otaku. Otakus are quick to defend their passions – may they be anime, manga, gaming, etc.. Sometimes, they find inspiration in them (such as with Natsuki becoming a baker and a cook from reading her manga) and opening up to those who also share their passion. Natsuki struggles to share her love of manga with her friends. Every attempt has been met with ridicule by them (since they believe she’s still childish for not growing out of her manga phase).

I’m sure you guys had to deal with this in the past (maybe even today as adults for the older people reading this).  With nerd culture growing ever popular by the day the stereotype of nerds and anime fans being childish and immature is dying. The stigma is still there, but it wasn’t as bad as it was decades ago.

I was able to have MC make Natsuki fluttered with the poem with him writing something that matches her style.  Guess she’s not used to people appreciating and sharing her passion.  I know that feeling.  Doesn’t excuse her from acting goofy about it but I get it.  As Natsuki share her poem with Monika Monika tells MC how Natsuki’s writing style is similar to late author Shel Silverstein: “childish”, but with adult themes and straight to the point by using fewer words than necessary.  I like that lowkey.  I believe that you can say more by saying less and the more you talk and ramble, the less interesting you are to people.

Make people think about what you say and keep them in wonder by saying less.

Everything goes per normal so let’s skip ahead to Natsuki and Yuri’s fight.  Stated in an earlier post (I think, it’s been a while and I don’t feel like searching for it), I went to Yuri because she’s my favorite character and I like her character archetype, but for this one, I went for Natsuki.   She gets happy, proud that somebody like her childish, but blunt writing style.  Real shit,  I get her.  It gets annoying when people talk down about your style (without any advice to improve it, mind you).  When somebody sees the beauty of your style, it reminds you that it is not bad.

You do get a little egotistical, however.

Following the second poem writing,  there’s a funny scene where Natsuki  is struggling to get her manga collection from the top shelf of the clubroom’s closet.   Natsuki, dealing with her short complex, tries to reach for them but fails.  MC tries to help out, but couldn’t, as he was put in an awkward situation – either hold the step ladder  that Natsuki had (while innocently looking up her skirt), or let her fall in which she hits head hard against something, crack it open, bleed out and die; thus ending her route and the game .  The two fall down and shit scatters, with one of her manga being damaged.

(…okay so she didn’t fall to her death.)

Natsuki gets upset, snaps off on MC, but then starts to  cry, saying things like “I’m just having bad day” and “every day, it just gets harder”.  Subtle hints to Natsuki’s homelife and being abused by her dad.  Of course, you won’t catch it on your first run (unless you read the spoilers).  You assume that Natsuki acting childish or overreacting, not knowing that her acting out is a result of her stressful home life.  Over time, it’s going to take a toll on any child dealing with abuse.

There was an interesting theory I came across on a DDLC Facebook group months back that not only Natsuki’s dad belittles her for reading manga, it’s possible that he may have destroyed a few from her collections.   It’s not uncommon for abusive parents to destroy their children’s personal items. I have friends who during childhood, their parents would break their things as a form of “punishment”.

Natsuki could be hiding her manga at the clubroom to avoid any further damage from her dad.  Monika fucking with her collection adding to how horrible her home life is only fueled by Natsuki’s paranoia that she may lose her manga – her way out of reality for a little bit. Really wish Dan did more with Natsuki character.  There are layers about her that need to be explored.

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Continued in  Round 2 Part 2.

(before I go I gotta say some of you Natsuki fans need Jesus)

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Yuki’s Doki Doki Literature Club Adventures: Act 2 Part 2 (Freewrite)

Warning: Major spoilers for Act 2.  Gory imagery of your dead, entry-level visual novel waifu below.  Adult themes. Written while under the influence of alcohol.

I dunno if I mentioned this yet, but Yuri is my favorite character in DDLC.  I can to relate to her issues (overthinking, worrying about what others think about me, etc).   I used to find it hard to open myself to others due to my own problems of being bullied for being weird (took me years to overcome this). I can talk  about the things I love with strong passion for hours.  I get happy when I find people who appreciate me and my work.

Now, with that out of the way, can I say that Yuri is fucking crazy as fuck?   Did this bitch forgot to take her meds before coming to school?  Why does she need to carry a pocket knife around school for?   Why did she felt the need to bring up Natsuki’s abuse; all because she wouldn’t win an argument against her?  And if she couldn’t be even lower, she tells Monika to kill herself to reveal her stress.

Bitch got issues.

 

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I don’t think that’s how that works, Yuri.

 

Today’s Yuki Adventures in DDLC won’t have much substance. Been lackin’ due to work.  Therefore, this post is based off my ever fading memories (thanks to alcohol and weed).  There won’t be as much excitement as my past DDLC adventure posts.

I left off with Monika telling MC that Yuri likes to cut herself (to deal with her emotions) and that I saw something he shouldn’t see.  Now, my thing is this: If Monika knows Yuri cuts herself, why doesn’t she help her friend out?  Tell her to seek a therapist or somethin’ fam. Ah well.  After that, Monika theorizes that Yuri may be cutting herself for sexual pleasure.
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Alright, Yuri is into some things.  I remember my homegirl telling me that Yuri is freaky.  But I didn’t know she was that freaky. Knifeplay is one thing (since you [usually] have to use a dull knife for such acts – don’t ask how I know I just know).  But cutting yourself to get off?  Yea, no that’s crazy.

Yuri, stop it. Get some help.

Monika concludes with that I should spend more time with her because she’s sane.   Monika, sane people don’t call themselves sane.  They especially don’t tell their friends to delete their other friends.   Oh yea, Monika wanted me to delete Yuri and that it’ll be a difficult decision.  Nah, what’s difficult is dealing with a crazy girl who’s plotting against her friends because she can’t get her crush to fuck her.  That, and actually deciding if I wanna delete Yuri just to see if I unlocked a path.  Of course, the game has a habit of deleting your saved files (because being annoyed that you lost your files when you need to take notes for your blog is true psychological horror…) so I decided against Monika’s wishes.

Monika rants about how much she cares about the MC/me/whatever I don’t care anymore and how we’re the only real people in the club (lazy foreshadowing).  She’s not doing a great job at hiding the fact she’s the villain and wants to kill her digital friends.  She may have many talents, but hiding her intentions ain’t one of them.

 

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Nah, you’re faker than them Jordans you find at those dirty ass flea markets.

 

Yuri pops up and pulls MC to the side to ask him some stupid questions.  First, she asks him if he noticed Monika’s recent strange behavior.  I wanted to say “Yes, you fucking idiot she’s been plottin’ against all y’all since day 1 she is actin’ strange!” but I doubt she could hear me (despite DDLC’s genius level fourth wall breaking gameplay).  But yes Yuri, to answer your question Monika has been acting strangely lately.  Next, she asked if she’s not crazy or anything.

Well, Yuri, here some things thing:
1. You did lick and suck the MC’s finger clean of blood (after  he cut himself on your knife).
2. You’re into knives. Not only that, you get off to the danger of knives.
3. When you were reading with the MC, you started to breath heavy.
4. You touched yourself to MC’s poem and did things to your own poem that I can’t go into full details because this isn’t an adult WordPress site (more on that later)
5. You made Natsuki cry.
5B. You said that nobody would cry  or miss her if Natsuki killed herself.
6. You told Monika to kill herself.

Bitch. You’re fuckin’ crazy.

If I was the MC, I’d tell her she is, but that would run the risk of being stabbed to death by her. Yanderes don’t like being called what they are.  As the two talk about how much of a fake, slimy snake Monika is guess who pop up a totally heard MC and Yuri’s conversation (because these two idiots didn’t just go further down the hall away from the club to talk shit)? Monika! Personally,  I was hoping Monika would grab Yuri by her hair and start beating the shit outta her (for talking that shit behind her) but I didn’t make the game.  Look: if you’re gonna talk shit about somebody, make sure they can’t hear you.

 

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Kids: This is how people wind up on World Star Hip Hop fight compilations.

 

Some shit happen that I don’t remember so let’s pretend something happen between that scene and the next poem review scene.  Natsuki comes up to MC with her “poem”.  Strange, given she hates the poems I make the MC write (because I’m not a weeaboo like her) but MC accepted anyway.  Here, we’re are given a look at Natsuki’s softer side.  Instead of a poem, Natsuki gives dude a note about Yuri’s strange behavior.  It’s revealed that Natsuki secretly cares for Yuri and it hurts her to see Yuri acting abnormally.  She wants to help and befriend Yuri but fears Yuri will snap on her (due to their conflicting history).

I’m not shock by this.  Yea, Natsuki is a tsundere and that was tsundere do.  However, Natsuki’s concerns for Yuri make sense if you compare the two. They’re relentless about their passions. They’re often misunderstood.  They will fight to the bitter end in what they believe in.  The two tend to hide their issues from others.  They will only reveal their true, softer side to those who they can trust.

I can totally see them being close, if not, best friends.

 

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Natsuki and Yuri reading manga together.

 

But they won’t. Because Just Fuckin’ Monika.  After Natsuki snitched on herself that she actually cares about people, the game starts glitching madly. The text box is spam with the words “Just Monika” over and over until the game “reset” to the title screen.  Then, I’m greeted with more “Just Monika” text.

The game resumed per “normal”.  MC gave his poem to Yuri and she reads over. Yuri starts to praise it.  She loves it.  Loves it so much that she tells MC that she’s gonna take it home and fuck herself while reading it.  For real, the fuck is wrong with Yuri?  After gushing (probably literally) over MC’s poem, she gives him her poem – which is covered in her blood and what I can only guess is either urine or dried up female ejaculatory fluids. And said poem is endowed it with her scent.

I am pretty sure Yuri may have sexually harassed the MC.

Following that, Monika speaks to MC about spending the weekend with her instead of the other girls.  Yuri (obviously) didn’t like that idea and goes off on Monika. Yuri calls the kettle black and accuses Monika of being jealous. Then she asks her if she taking her anger and jealously out on the club because she hates herself and if so, she should kill herself (to benefit her mental health).

Boys and girls, this is why Yuri has no friends.

Once that died down, Natsuki and Monika leave school and Yuri is all alone with the MC.  Great.  The crazy bitch has the boy she wants all by himself.  The yandere with the knife collection is alone with the MC. Again, the crazy ass, nutty ass, yandere ass knife lover is alone with the boy she crushin’ on hardcore.  What could go wrong?

Yuri confesses to the MC that she’s in love with him. Clearly.  Then she reveals that she stole his pen and fucked herself with it.  Okay.  That’s creepy, but still ain’t that bad.  Next, she was like “You love me too, right?  You accept my love?”.  I’m presented a choice to tell her if I do or not.  I said yes: only because I am a fucking idiot who have a thing for smart, quiet, shy girls.  And I also have a thing for anime girls with purple hair. Yuri gets excited.  Super excited.  So excited that she starts to breathe heavy, laughs, and whips out her knife to stab herself to death.

At was at that moment, I  knew, I fucked up.  Continued in Act 3.

 

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I’m Angry (Fan Fic/Poem)

I’m angry
Angry because he hurt me again
He hit me before school began
I should tell my friend
But she has her own problems
To worry about my problems
So I guess I’ll be angry

I’m angry
Angry because he ate all my food
I ask him why, but he got in a mood
I should tell my friend
Maybe she can make me feel good
But why would she waste her time on me
I should just be quiet and let her be
So I guess I’ll be angry
I’m angry
Angry because he yelled at me
Told me to shut my mouth
Or he’ll shut it for me
I should tell my friend
Maybe if I do,
It will finally end
But I doubt I can
So I guess I’ll be angry

 

I’m angry
I’m angry because it won’t stop
I’m angry because I’m scared
I’m angry because it hurts
I’m angry because I’m such a coward
So I guess I’ll be angry

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AFTERWORD:

This is perhaps the only fan poem I’ll do in my lifetime. Got bored today on my day off and I have nothing better to do but to write this for a DDLC fan group and do weeaboo shit. Maybe I’ll write and share an original poem one day.

Art Source:
https://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=68015564

 

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Yuki’s Doki Doki Literature Club Adventures: Act 2 Part 1 (Freewrite)

Warning: Minor and major spoilers for Act 2. If you read this and get mad at me for spoiling things you ’re stupid.  This may or may not had been written under the influence of alcohol.

First off, rest in peace Sayori you was a real one. I’ll save you or download a mod where you don’t die after I’ve completed my first run through.

 

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1999-2017

 

 

Actually nah, not really. You can stay dead.

 

 

After a crazy day at work I decided to go to the liquor store near my house for another large can of Miller Beer (and some Jim Beam shot bottles), head to a park near my crib, rolled up a blunt, and smoke it while drinking (the beer) to get my mind right for Act 2.  After that, I headed home and opened up my DDLC folder.  Upon opening it I’m greeted with a file: “hxppy thxughts.png”.  For a second, I thought I had downloaded while drunk/high (given I like to download weird fanart and hentai when I’m high/drunk), and place the image in the DDLC folder out of pure laziness.  Then I remember that as you process in the game you unlock secret shit.

Ah well.

I booted up a new game.  The MC made a wisecrack about some genki girl running down the street with bread in her mouth (replacing Sayori). I kinda laughed since this game does make fun of tired anime and visual novel tropes.  However, I did stop laughing once the girl’s sprite started glitching.  I was more annoyed than shocked through.

The game continued per normal as Act 1; expect Hanako 2.0 is the Vice President.  Monika and Moe Fang Tsundere Otaku Girl (forgot her name) reprised their roles.  Actually, I lied.  The game doesn’t truly continue as normal.  Natsuki started doing that Za Warudo shit off Jojo while Yuri’s sprite and the background went into a Dutch Angle; making me think I was playing one of my early 2000s  ero-games.  Yuri said something like how it’s amazing a writer can take advantage of your lack of imagination and throw you out of a loop.

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Thanks Yuri.  I thought it was the weed and beer that made me thought I was seeing things and not the game fucking with my head.

Following that, Yuri said something like how the world is full of evil people and how we all worthless at the end.  Cool. After the first round of Poem Writing in act 2, I managed to romance Yuri.  I was informed earlier that Yuri is a yandere and that she does some crazy shit with knives.  Not something like tying up a little girl to a cross and stabbing her to death crazy shit, but somewhere close.

For some reason (for my notes possibly) I took a screenshot of the game from my FRAPS – or so I thought.  I pressed “S” on my keyboard thinking I mapped the screenshot hotkey there.  My game froze up for a bit and a message popped up: “Screenshot saved to blah blah blah folder”.

“Hold up, does the game know I’m recording and taking screenshots now?” I started to freak out.  Yea, the Sayori suicide thing was a bit fucked up.  The glitches and jump scare got me a little bit.  But the game knowing I’m taking screenshots?  That’s too much man.   Then I remember: This game was made with that Ren’py engine.  The screenshot key is automatically mapped to S.

This game isn’t fucking with me I’m just drunk.

Anyways, I resumed gameplay as normal.  Everyone starts to read their poems.  Natsuki and Yuri start to form a beautiful friendship/rivalry/a future yuri hentai scene over their poems by cussing each other out and starting a fight.  Natsuki hurls some insults towards Yuri; calling her an edgy bitch and a cutter.  Yuri claps back, telling Natsuki that she needs to stop acting cute.  Me personally, I’m just waiting for Monika to pull out her phone, start recording, and yelling “World Staaaaarrrrrr!”.

Shit if I was the MC, I would instigate the fight further and egg both girls on until one of them snaps and beat the other girl’s ass.

 

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How friendships start

 

 

And it looks like I could actually make them fight. The game made me choose between the Yuri and Natsuki.  I went for Yuri of course.  But the game was like “Nah”. Then I was like “Fuck you I’m picking best girl Yuri.” Despite my wish to do so, the camera kept zooming in towards the Natsuki choice. I tried a few more times until Monika popped up and was like “Nigga you gonna pick Natsuki.”

 

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“Sup.”

 

 

Monika steps in between the player and the girls and things chilled out.  And by chill out, I guess Yuri made a crack about Natsuki’s dad abusing her – causing Natsuki to burst out in tears and leaving the school.  Yuri, you should be proud of yourself for making fun of Natsuki’s suffering.  I’m kinda glad you did kill yourself.

Yea, Hanako 2.0 winds up stabbing herself to death at the end of Act 2.  I’ll come back to that later though.  I wanna talk about on how the fuck Yuri found Dagger of Time from The Prince of Persia.  Because I think she’s cutting herself with it.

After the fight scene, Yuri decides to make tea for her and the MC. Lovely. Tea is great. I love tea.  I’m always down for some tea.  Yuri runs off for some water or some shit. I wasn’t paying attention.  The MC notices Yuri hasn’t come back and decides to go after her out of concern.
Yea, I don’t blame dude.  Yuri’s both a cutter and a yandere.  I’ve seen enough shit tier anime featuring yanderes to know that you shouldn’t trust them with food products.  Yuri could have been cutting her wrists to put blood in the tea. But yea, dude catches her cutting herself with her knife.  As dude tries to talk to her, the screen gets distorted and time’s reversed.  Rather than being spooked, I started laughin’ again.

“Yuri has the Dagger of Time and she cuts herself with it!” I said to myself.  Not really, it was just Monika fucking around.  She explains how when she gets overly excited she starts cutting herself – and how she may do it for sexual reasons.

 

Yuri’s fucking weird. This game is fucking weird. Monika is the fucking villain and the game doesn’t hide it well.   More in part 2.

 

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“They pen ain’t mightia than my pistol.” – Viper The Rapper

 

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Is Monika From Doki Doki Literature Club Machiavellian? (VIDEO)

Doki Doki Political Club!

But real shit is Monika Machiavellian? She did use power and fear to control the game. She also tricked Sayori and Yuri to kill themselves just so she can get closer to the main character. In addition, she used fear to get her way by fucking with the player’s head AND deleting Sayori before Sayori became self-aware. What ya think?