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Yuki’s Path to Doki Doki Literature Club’s Good Ending – Round 1: Sayori

You know, I truly believe that you can earn your happy ending in life – but only if you work and grind your ass off for it.  Video games (with multiple endings) drive this point home hard.  If you truly want that happy ending, then you have to go through hell to obtain it.  Doki Doki Literature Club is no expectation.  In order to get the game’s true/golden ending, we gotta go through hell first.  Well, okay we already went through hell once.  Let’s do it again.

‘Paradise starts in hell.’
-Tim Grover

To start, I’m going to tackle Sayori’s route first.  There’s a CG I have yet to obtain (at the time of this writing) from her route.   Plus, her cheerful attitude grown on me.  The too pure cinnamon bun thing, ya know?  Also, gonna name myself after my PC (“OWNER) to see if Monika detects that lol.

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I’m still mad at this bullshit.

Let me say this: Thank god for the skip text option.  Because fuck; I ain’t spending another two hours of my life reading all that bullshit in her route.  For some situations, I did read some of her lines and what others have to say about Sayori.  It’s strange: when you consume media for the first time, you do not pick up on the subtle clues the creator(s) hid within the art.  It’s only when you consume and experience it multiple times is when you start to pick up on the things that were once hidden.  Seeing how Sayori wanted to cheer everyone up to hide her depression and pain not only made sense, it was heartbreaking.

Monika mentioned that it was surprising to read Sayori’s poems on the topic of sadness as it was opposite to her normal cheerful personality.  Saying the obvious (Sayori conceals her depression from the club) is stupid so I won’t go into those details.  It does make you think about the people in your lives who are always happy and want to cheer everyone up.

Are they truly happy, or is their happiness a mask to hide their pain to make people not worry about them?

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“I could sleep forever.” That was the first clue.

Skipping through the dialogue I came across one of the two most important choices I need to make for this route: Would I rather walk back home with Sayori or Yuri.  In my original walkthrough, I selected Yuri (personal bias).  That was one of the catalyze that worsen Sayori’s depression.  In retrospect, I can understand how that fucked with Sayori’s head. I am not a mental health expert or anything, but seeing how Sayori reacted to that, I can only guess that she felt that she was a burden to the MC as well as her feeling worthless.  She probably started to overthink the situation and believed MC was pushing her away to hang out with Yuri (or any other club member).  Again, I do not know if that how depression works.

 

If anyone could be kind enough to correct me let me know.

I went with the “I’d still walk with Sayori” option.  I think I’m doing well.  I hope.  The third round of poem writing seems to get harder. The dark and depressing words seem to relate to Yuri more than Sayori, but I still got reactions from Sayori.  I’m starting to think the game knows I’m save scumming lol.    The day after, the club starts to prep for the festival.  Sayori is sitting alone as normal with her head bury in her desk.

At this point, you can sense that her depression is hitting harder as she once again does her façade of trying to make her crew not worry about her.  Perhaps it is because I am more in tune with my emotional/creative side of my brain, but I can’t help but feel bad about her and think about my friends who are battling depression.  Honestly, that shit breaks my heart and I feel helpless when I can’t help my friends feel better about themselves because of how cruel mental health illnesses are.

Maybe that’s why her character has grown on me on this second playthrough. Ha.

You know you’re dedicated to getting a good end when you panic and freak out thinking you fucked up.  When the MC goes to  Sayori house to check up on her, I started to think “Oh shit I made a mistake this is the suicide scene!”.  Then I remember that scene came a little bit later in the game so I still have time to do my save scum shit.  But nah, the first time MC goes over to Sayori’s house, she reveals that she has lifelong depression.

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This could be fate or just by chance, but I had my hip-hop instrumental playlist playing in the background.  The next song in the cycle was 2pac’s Pain from the movie Above The Rim. Fitting.  Sayori dealt with (mental) pain all her life.  We’re now seeing her tell her best friend about it.  There’s a sample from one of the Star Trek movies that are used in Pain.  I think it goes: “‘I couldn’t help but noticed your pain!’” “’My pain?’” “’It runs deep – share it with me!’”

(If I could get away with it, I would make a music mod of DDLC that uses 90s hip-hop music.  Pain would be perfect for Sayori revealing her depression to MC).

‘Why do we die at an early age?
‘Why there’s so much pain?’
‘Tired of the strain and the pain’

Yea.  Those lines work well with DDLC.

For preparations for the festival, I selected Natsuki to help me out .  I have yet to have any interactions with me from my first run through so I thought it would be best to check her shit out.  But since this is a Sayori-centric path, I’m gonna save my notes/thoughts on Natsuki for her path.  I do like Natsuki’s softer side though and she seems mellower than what she puts out on the surface.   Mellow Natsuki best Natsuki.

(I will like to say that the instrumental of Drake’s “Pound Cake” goes well with the baking scene between MC and Natsuki. Yes. Puns were intended.)

Now, finally, I arrived at the single most important point of this path; Telling Sayori if I love her or if I should put her in the friend zone.  In a normal run-through (without a guide), either decision led to Sayori’s suicide.  In that regard, telling Sayori you love her only to have her kill herself the next day hurts harder than simply telling her that she is your best friend.  Pretty fucked honestly.  In any case, I manage to unlock two CGs I needed for this path for the golden ending so I’m gonna dip out.

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Next: Natsuki.

 

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Yuki’s Doki Literature Club Adventures: Act 4 – Bad Ending (Freewrite)

‘This game will not have a happy ending.’
-Bernkastel, Umineko no Naku Koro ni

Major Spoilers: I lied.  Sayori is the final boss.
Warning: You should already know by now I play this game and write about it drunk.

I was warned that DDLC wouldn’t have a happy ending.  I shouldn’t sweat it too much; given I’m a fan of Umineko no Naku Koro ni: A 07th Expansion visual novel that too didn’t end happily.  The first half of my favorite Fire Emblem game, Fire Emblem 4: Genealogy of the Holy War, also didn’t end well.  And my favorite Persona game, Persona 3, had a depressing ending.  (Jesus fuck, maybe I’m secretly sad that’s why I like downer endings) Did I spoil myself on the bad ending for DDLC?  Yes.  But, I think by spoiling it, it drove me to finish the game (to see how sad and depressing the game ending is).  To tell the truth, I love it when consumer media concludes with a downer ending.  The happy ending thing is played out.  Fuck that happier ever happy shit.

Sometimes, you need a reminder of how brutal and unfair life can be.

 

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The movie been out for almost a month.  Don’t bitch about this spoiler.

 

After killing Monika I restarted the game.  It started as normal, expect Monika isn’t on the title screen.  Yay!  The wicked bitch is dead!  The game resume starting with act 1 like nothing happened expect the recently revived Sayori is now the president….Shes’ gonna be self-aware like Monika, isn’t she?

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In any case, MC  — rather, the player – joins the Literature Club.  Given Sayori’s position on the screen, she is the club’s president.  Yuri is on her left, so I’m assuming she retains her vice-president role.  The BGM is the title screen music.  Ya know, with the piano playing the melody.  Didn’t Monika play the piano?  Hold up…

Sayori gets all happy that the MC has joined her club.  You know, it’s kinda depressing:  Sayori is happy  Everyone is acting normal like they didn’t go through the chaos from Monika. Yet, we the players knew what these girls went through.  We know what is to come.  And there’s nothing we can do about it.

Sucks, doesn’t it?

As the girls celebrate the formation of the club, I couldn’t help but notice how more friendly Natsuki and Yuri are towards each other.  In Act 2 they were at each other throats, belittling one another and judging their hobbies.  In Act 4 however, they seem to respect one another, with Yuri wanting to learn more about manga and Natsuki wanting to learn about novel through Yuri.  What did I say in my Act 2 Part 2 writings?  Natsuki and Yuri could get along and become close friends – best friends even.

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(To tell the truth, I’d love to see a mod or a non-h doujin with  Natsuki and Yuri as they form a powerful bond. Natsuki could help Yuri overcome her fears, become more confident with herself, and fight her bullies. Yuri could help Natsuki learning about the arts.)

As MC and Sayori speak about how fun the club will become, Sayori thanks me (not MC), for getting rid of Monika.  I start to freak out as I’m still drunk from writing my Act 3 shit and the music becomes creepy and distorted.  Doesn’t help that  I’m wearing earbuds that are programmed to be bass boasted.

I made a terrible mistake, haven’t I?

I’m prepping myself for any jump scares or freaky shit so I may become sober as we get deep into this post.  Which probably is a catch 22 because Sayori revealed that she knew Monika did all the horrible things she did to the girls and the player.  She talks about how MCI made her the happiest girl in the world…hold up, didn’t Monika said some shit like this as well?  Please don’t tell me I gotta deal with another murderous nutjob girl who trying to get with the MC. I already had enough of that bullshit for one play through.

 

Sigh…do I have to delete another yandere bitch?   To quote a 90s Nickelodeon co-star “Awww here it goes!”

I’m sure the game knows I don’t wanna go through this bullshit again because the first choice of this act is “No.” Thank you game, I appreciate you.  Sayori’s spelling out “FOREVER” was creeping me the fuck out.   Hold up,  the game isn’t saving me…it’s Monika.

 

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Even this game was like “Yea no let’s not go through any more bullshit.”

 

 

Monika starts to hakai Sayori, the club, and the entire game.   After that, she starts to sing the game’s ending theme and the credits roll.  Apparently, I’m missing a few CG shots (given I have yet to tackle the Natsuki route and I didn’t fucking save scum).  Sigh…fuckin’ bad endings.

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Continued in Yuki’s Revenge Against This Fuckin’ Entry Level VN.

 

 

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Yuki’s Doki Doki Literature Club Adventures Act 3 (Freewrite)

Warning: Major spoilers for the finale of Act 2 and 3. Yuri dies.  Natsuki’s dad uses her as a punching bag. Sayori comes back to life. Monika is the final boss.  Gory imagery of your dead  visual novel waifu decaying below.  Adult themes.  Written under the influence of alcohol.

To my fellow Yuri fans; we got shitted on.  Boy, we got shitted on.  Bad enough she got brainwashed by Monika and was driven to “suicide”  by her  Bad enough we gotta see her bloody body.  But did Dan really have to make us watch her body decay for three days (in game)?  Real nigga shit, for 5-10 minutes we see Yuri body fuckin’ decay while Monika basically taunts us talkin’ about how happy she is to have friends in her club and shit.  I mean, me personally, my fucked up  in the head ass would made Yuri body bloated and do the whole rigor mortis super realistically with the CG art, so I can’t really talk shit. But still, I didn’t wanna see that shit.

…okay I actually didn’t see most of the decaying scene.  I got bored and decided to roll up a blunt cuz that shit was taking too long.

I do have  a few  questions though.  How the fuck did MC survive 2-3 days without food or water while he was trapped in the classroom with Yuri’s body?  How did this nigga not go insane?  He watched his homegirl kill herself and rot in front of his eyes.  I’m sure anyone would had gone crazy seeing that shit. Also why didn’t he call anyone up and tell them what happened?  I understand he was in shock but after a while you would figure he could made a few phone calls.

Eh, it’s video game logic let me not think about it too much.

The weekend came and gone and MC is still trapped in the school with Yuri’s body.  I wonder if he started to eat parts of her body to live.  I mean, when you need to survive and there’s no other source of food… Okay, that’s  fucked up.  Natsuki come up to the club room to prep for the festivial with the reminidng  living  crew.  She spots MC and is surprise that he arrived earlier than her.  A few days earlier but still early.    As Natsuki is about to prep (for the festival) she sees Yuri’s body and starts to freak out.  She also starts to vomit because…yeah, rotting dead body.

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Now, I ain’t a forensic nigga, but wouldn’t you think Natsuki would had smelt Yuri’s body before she got into the classroom?  She goes in the clasrom carefree and doesn’t smell anything until she hits the classroom.  I ain’t gonna look that shit up cuz I don’t want Google to think I’m some serial killer or anything but still, science and everything.   Natsuki starts to run away and Monika enters the classroom.  She wonders why Natsuki was screaming and runnin’, sees Yuri’s body and put two and two together.  Instead of freaking out and/or asking questions Monika simply says “Well, that’s a shame.”

Monika is a fuckin’ psychopath.   Or sociopath.  Whatever. I ain’t a psychologist.

Monika admits that she was screwing around with the game’s script and by doing so, she forgot to let MC escape the room.  Thanks.  Your jealously and murderous intent caused this man to have irrssevial psychological damage. Good job.  As Monika conitutne to brag about her failure she erased Natsuki and the remains of Yuri like she’s a Dragon Ball Super God of Destruction.  You know, I wanna see Monika dressed like a God of Destruction.  She’ll be a perfect fit for Universe 3 given it’s an universe heavily focoued on the advancement of technology (with her being an AI program).

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Monika talks about how it’s the last time she’ll get to fuck around with the script or something and things get weird.  The game glitches out.  The classroom changes to this sinster shit in outer space or something I don’t know I’m too drunk to describe it.  Monika is happy to see me – not the MC – me.  I tried to save the game but Monika doesn’t allow it because she ain’t going anywhere.  Joy.

Is this consider the  end game?  Did I beat the game?  I was hoping so cuz I had to work in a few hours (at the time I played this act) and I didn’t wanna deal with this jealous murderous chick and her trying to get into my personal life.  First, she asked if my name was really “YourName”.  In my head, I’m thinking “no you goofy bitch I was trying to see if the game would pick up on me dicking around and naming myself ‘Your Name” when it asked me to enter your name.  Then she asked if I go by “Owner”.
 

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Chill I ain’t into that kinda shit.

 

Monika, look.  I get you’re in love with the player/me. I get that you may have some kinks like any other normal person. But  I am not into pet play or that owner shit.  If you’re trying to find a someone to entertain your fetishes I ain’t the one cuz that’s some white people shit. I mean it’s cool to like guys older than you. I myself have a thing for older women.  Older women who won’t fuckin’ kill people out of jealously, mind you.

Then I remember that my my laptop is named “Owner”. Whelp!

Monika starts to admit that she made the other girls go crazy in  an attempt to get in the player’s pants.  She brags about making Sayori’s depression worse in order to make the poor girl commit suicide.  Monika didn’t mean to, but shit happens. I understand.  But real shit that’s fucked up.  She also brags aboutt  corrupting Yuri’s obbessive personality.  Therefore, it lead her to kill herself. The girls starts to bitch about how lonely she is (you’re a murderer I can see why nobody wanna be around you) and how much it sucked that the other girls were programmed to fall in love with me while she just sit and watched.

Okay.  Real nigga shit: If you were Monika and you know you were an AI who could  control their fate, wouldn’t you just went ahead and make yourself known in the first place? Make yourself the perfect girl for the player. So perfect that he would have to choose you over the other girls.

Oh wait, Monika’s a fuckin’ idiot nevermind.

 

I almost feel bad for Monika.  Almost.  She didn’t chose to be born a program.  She didn’t choose to live in an artifical world.  Then again, she is also manipulative as fuck so I don’t truly feel sorry for her.  She show me a poem she wrote about an happy ending which would had been sweet and cute but you know: the whole trapped in the room of inifinty thing.   Monika then asks if I know any artists who could draw her in some casual clothes (given she only wear her school clothes).

Well, there are artist out there but they usually draw Monika without any clothes. You can go search for that I ain’t gonna help you out,

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After showing me her poem and her talkin’ she ask that she should look into each other eyes since we have nothing better do to in her world.  That’s really fuckin’ boring.  For real, I ain’t gonna fuckin’ stare at a fuckin’ piece of anime art for horus on end.

Apperently if you wait a while Monika reveals a few things about herself (she loves animals), the girls (such as Yuri sneaking wine into the school through her purse), and  the world she lives in. But like I said, I had money to make and I doubt my boss would be happy that I cameo work late over a fuckin’ video game so I had to delete Monika.

So I did.  I closed the game, deleted Monika and restarted it.  Monika gets all mad and everything like I did something wrong (because erasing her was a worse crime than her murdering three innocent people).  She confessed that she loved me and will always love me.  To show her love, she brought the other girls back to life.  Yay.

Me personally?  I don’t love Monika.  Fuck Monika.

“She said ‘do you love me?’ I tell her ‘only partly’ I only love my bed and my momma, I’m sorry.”

-Drake, God’s Plan

Continued in Act 4.

 

AFTERWORD

Me: “Man, fuck Monika!”
Also me:
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Yuki’s Doki Doki Literature Club Adventures: Act 2 Part 2 (Freewrite)

Warning: Major spoilers for Act 2.  Gory imagery of your dead, entry-level visual novel waifu below.  Adult themes. Written while under the influence of alcohol.

I dunno if I mentioned this yet, but Yuri is my favorite character in DDLC.  I can to relate to her issues (overthinking, worrying about what others think about me, etc).   I used to find it hard to open myself to others due to my own problems of being bullied for being weird (took me years to overcome this). I can talk  about the things I love with strong passion for hours.  I get happy when I find people who appreciate me and my work.

Now, with that out of the way, can I say that Yuri is fucking crazy as fuck?   Did this bitch forgot to take her meds before coming to school?  Why does she need to carry a pocket knife around school for?   Why did she felt the need to bring up Natsuki’s abuse; all because she wouldn’t win an argument against her?  And if she couldn’t be even lower, she tells Monika to kill herself to reveal her stress.

Bitch got issues.

 

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I don’t think that’s how that works, Yuri.

 

Today’s Yuki Adventures in DDLC won’t have much substance. Been lackin’ due to work.  Therefore, this post is based off my ever fading memories (thanks to alcohol and weed).  There won’t be as much excitement as my past DDLC adventure posts.

I left off with Monika telling MC that Yuri likes to cut herself (to deal with her emotions) and that I saw something he shouldn’t see.  Now, my thing is this: If Monika knows Yuri cuts herself, why doesn’t she help her friend out?  Tell her to seek a therapist or somethin’ fam. Ah well.  After that, Monika theorizes that Yuri may be cutting herself for sexual pleasure.
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Alright, Yuri is into some things.  I remember my homegirl telling me that Yuri is freaky.  But I didn’t know she was that freaky. Knifeplay is one thing (since you [usually] have to use a dull knife for such acts – don’t ask how I know I just know).  But cutting yourself to get off?  Yea, no that’s crazy.

Yuri, stop it. Get some help.

Monika concludes with that I should spend more time with her because she’s sane.   Monika, sane people don’t call themselves sane.  They especially don’t tell their friends to delete their other friends.   Oh yea, Monika wanted me to delete Yuri and that it’ll be a difficult decision.  Nah, what’s difficult is dealing with a crazy girl who’s plotting against her friends because she can’t get her crush to fuck her.  That, and actually deciding if I wanna delete Yuri just to see if I unlocked a path.  Of course, the game has a habit of deleting your saved files (because being annoyed that you lost your files when you need to take notes for your blog is true psychological horror…) so I decided against Monika’s wishes.

Monika rants about how much she cares about the MC/me/whatever I don’t care anymore and how we’re the only real people in the club (lazy foreshadowing).  She’s not doing a great job at hiding the fact she’s the villain and wants to kill her digital friends.  She may have many talents, but hiding her intentions ain’t one of them.

 

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Nah, you’re faker than them Jordans you find at those dirty ass flea markets.

 

Yuri pops up and pulls MC to the side to ask him some stupid questions.  First, she asks him if he noticed Monika’s recent strange behavior.  I wanted to say “Yes, you fucking idiot she’s been plottin’ against all y’all since day 1 she is actin’ strange!” but I doubt she could hear me (despite DDLC’s genius level fourth wall breaking gameplay).  But yes Yuri, to answer your question Monika has been acting strangely lately.  Next, she asked if she’s not crazy or anything.

Well, Yuri, here some things thing:
1. You did lick and suck the MC’s finger clean of blood (after  he cut himself on your knife).
2. You’re into knives. Not only that, you get off to the danger of knives.
3. When you were reading with the MC, you started to breath heavy.
4. You touched yourself to MC’s poem and did things to your own poem that I can’t go into full details because this isn’t an adult WordPress site (more on that later)
5. You made Natsuki cry.
5B. You said that nobody would cry  or miss her if Natsuki killed herself.
6. You told Monika to kill herself.

Bitch. You’re fuckin’ crazy.

If I was the MC, I’d tell her she is, but that would run the risk of being stabbed to death by her. Yanderes don’t like being called what they are.  As the two talk about how much of a fake, slimy snake Monika is guess who pop up a totally heard MC and Yuri’s conversation (because these two idiots didn’t just go further down the hall away from the club to talk shit)? Monika! Personally,  I was hoping Monika would grab Yuri by her hair and start beating the shit outta her (for talking that shit behind her) but I didn’t make the game.  Look: if you’re gonna talk shit about somebody, make sure they can’t hear you.

 

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Kids: This is how people wind up on World Star Hip Hop fight compilations.

 

Some shit happen that I don’t remember so let’s pretend something happen between that scene and the next poem review scene.  Natsuki comes up to MC with her “poem”.  Strange, given she hates the poems I make the MC write (because I’m not a weeaboo like her) but MC accepted anyway.  Here, we’re are given a look at Natsuki’s softer side.  Instead of a poem, Natsuki gives dude a note about Yuri’s strange behavior.  It’s revealed that Natsuki secretly cares for Yuri and it hurts her to see Yuri acting abnormally.  She wants to help and befriend Yuri but fears Yuri will snap on her (due to their conflicting history).

I’m not shock by this.  Yea, Natsuki is a tsundere and that was tsundere do.  However, Natsuki’s concerns for Yuri make sense if you compare the two. They’re relentless about their passions. They’re often misunderstood.  They will fight to the bitter end in what they believe in.  The two tend to hide their issues from others.  They will only reveal their true, softer side to those who they can trust.

I can totally see them being close, if not, best friends.

 

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Natsuki and Yuri reading manga together.

 

But they won’t. Because Just Fuckin’ Monika.  After Natsuki snitched on herself that she actually cares about people, the game starts glitching madly. The text box is spam with the words “Just Monika” over and over until the game “reset” to the title screen.  Then, I’m greeted with more “Just Monika” text.

The game resumed per “normal”.  MC gave his poem to Yuri and she reads over. Yuri starts to praise it.  She loves it.  Loves it so much that she tells MC that she’s gonna take it home and fuck herself while reading it.  For real, the fuck is wrong with Yuri?  After gushing (probably literally) over MC’s poem, she gives him her poem – which is covered in her blood and what I can only guess is either urine or dried up female ejaculatory fluids. And said poem is endowed it with her scent.

I am pretty sure Yuri may have sexually harassed the MC.

Following that, Monika speaks to MC about spending the weekend with her instead of the other girls.  Yuri (obviously) didn’t like that idea and goes off on Monika. Yuri calls the kettle black and accuses Monika of being jealous. Then she asks her if she taking her anger and jealously out on the club because she hates herself and if so, she should kill herself (to benefit her mental health).

Boys and girls, this is why Yuri has no friends.

Once that died down, Natsuki and Monika leave school and Yuri is all alone with the MC.  Great.  The crazy bitch has the boy she wants all by himself.  The yandere with the knife collection is alone with the MC. Again, the crazy ass, nutty ass, yandere ass knife lover is alone with the boy she crushin’ on hardcore.  What could go wrong?

Yuri confesses to the MC that she’s in love with him. Clearly.  Then she reveals that she stole his pen and fucked herself with it.  Okay.  That’s creepy, but still ain’t that bad.  Next, she was like “You love me too, right?  You accept my love?”.  I’m presented a choice to tell her if I do or not.  I said yes: only because I am a fucking idiot who have a thing for smart, quiet, shy girls.  And I also have a thing for anime girls with purple hair. Yuri gets excited.  Super excited.  So excited that she starts to breathe heavy, laughs, and whips out her knife to stab herself to death.

At was at that moment, I  knew, I fucked up.  Continued in Act 3.

 

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My Favorite Things (Fan Poem)

*My Favorite Things*

Today I want to share a few of my favorite things.
I must warn you, I am enthusiastic about my loves.
An overt fanatic even.

What are my favorite things you may ask?

Well, I am infatuated with books.
The epic tales of brave, flamboyant heroes overcoming impossible odds.
Unexplainable horrors of the unknown violating your psyche.
Immense, multiple worlds anyone can journey through.
I don’t think about the tales I emerged myself in too much.
I just let the tales lead me.
Characters exhibiting their own unique personality
Mirroring the characters of our own world.
I love to sink into them naturally – exploring the world the author invited me to.

That’s why books are just a few of my favorite things.

Are you still curious about my loves? My favorite things?
Good.
I feel comfortable with me telling you about them.
Don’t worry; my loves aren’t too outlandish, hopefully.

What else do I love?
I adore tea.
Black. Green. Herbal.
An abundance of selections for your needs.
Need relaxation? Chamomile.
Want an energy boost? Eary Gray.
Tea for all occasions, for all needs.

That’s why I love tea.

May I tell you one more thing I love?
Oh, but if I do tell, it might drive you away
Scare you even.
But I can’t contain myself – I must tell you!

I love knives.

The alluring danger from their unforgiving sharp edge.
The beauty of the silver blade, irresistible.
I want to resist the urge of touching my skin with them.
But I can’t!
My heart’s beat assaults my chest, my slow breath deepens the blade kisses my skin.
Fresh cuts joining scars from kisses long since passed.
Blood dip, sliding along my skin.
I fill the silence of my room with a blissful, perverted sigh.

Oh! I’m sorry. Was that too much for you?
Perhaps one of my loves was too intense for you after all.
I hope you don’t find me strange or obsessive towards my loves.
I just wanted to share with you
Just a few of my favorite things with you…

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AFTERWORD:
Free form poetry isn’t hard. What’s hard is writing that shit for a character you only have a few things in common with.  Might do poems focused on Monika and Sayori next I dunno.

Also, i can’t believe I originally played DDLC to make fun of the fans and the game but it inspired me to get back into writing poems lmfao

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I’m Angry (Fan Fic/Poem)

I’m angry
Angry because he hurt me again
He hit me before school began
I should tell my friend
But she has her own problems
To worry about my problems
So I guess I’ll be angry

I’m angry
Angry because he ate all my food
I ask him why, but he got in a mood
I should tell my friend
Maybe she can make me feel good
But why would she waste her time on me
I should just be quiet and let her be
So I guess I’ll be angry
I’m angry
Angry because he yelled at me
Told me to shut my mouth
Or he’ll shut it for me
I should tell my friend
Maybe if I do,
It will finally end
But I doubt I can
So I guess I’ll be angry

 

I’m angry
I’m angry because it won’t stop
I’m angry because I’m scared
I’m angry because it hurts
I’m angry because I’m such a coward
So I guess I’ll be angry

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AFTERWORD:

This is perhaps the only fan poem I’ll do in my lifetime. Got bored today on my day off and I have nothing better to do but to write this for a DDLC fan group and do weeaboo shit. Maybe I’ll write and share an original poem one day.

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Yuki’s Doki Doki Literature Club Adventures: Act 2 Part 1 (Freewrite)

Warning: Minor and major spoilers for Act 2. If you read this and get mad at me for spoiling things you ’re stupid.  This may or may not had been written under the influence of alcohol.

First off, rest in peace Sayori you was a real one. I’ll save you or download a mod where you don’t die after I’ve completed my first run through.

 

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1999-2017

 

 

Actually nah, not really. You can stay dead.

 

 

After a crazy day at work I decided to go to the liquor store near my house for another large can of Miller Beer (and some Jim Beam shot bottles), head to a park near my crib, rolled up a blunt, and smoke it while drinking (the beer) to get my mind right for Act 2.  After that, I headed home and opened up my DDLC folder.  Upon opening it I’m greeted with a file: “hxppy thxughts.png”.  For a second, I thought I had downloaded while drunk/high (given I like to download weird fanart and hentai when I’m high/drunk), and place the image in the DDLC folder out of pure laziness.  Then I remember that as you process in the game you unlock secret shit.

Ah well.

I booted up a new game.  The MC made a wisecrack about some genki girl running down the street with bread in her mouth (replacing Sayori). I kinda laughed since this game does make fun of tired anime and visual novel tropes.  However, I did stop laughing once the girl’s sprite started glitching.  I was more annoyed than shocked through.

The game continued per normal as Act 1; expect Hanako 2.0 is the Vice President.  Monika and Moe Fang Tsundere Otaku Girl (forgot her name) reprised their roles.  Actually, I lied.  The game doesn’t truly continue as normal.  Natsuki started doing that Za Warudo shit off Jojo while Yuri’s sprite and the background went into a Dutch Angle; making me think I was playing one of my early 2000s  ero-games.  Yuri said something like how it’s amazing a writer can take advantage of your lack of imagination and throw you out of a loop.

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Thanks Yuri.  I thought it was the weed and beer that made me thought I was seeing things and not the game fucking with my head.

Following that, Yuri said something like how the world is full of evil people and how we all worthless at the end.  Cool. After the first round of Poem Writing in act 2, I managed to romance Yuri.  I was informed earlier that Yuri is a yandere and that she does some crazy shit with knives.  Not something like tying up a little girl to a cross and stabbing her to death crazy shit, but somewhere close.

For some reason (for my notes possibly) I took a screenshot of the game from my FRAPS – or so I thought.  I pressed “S” on my keyboard thinking I mapped the screenshot hotkey there.  My game froze up for a bit and a message popped up: “Screenshot saved to blah blah blah folder”.

“Hold up, does the game know I’m recording and taking screenshots now?” I started to freak out.  Yea, the Sayori suicide thing was a bit fucked up.  The glitches and jump scare got me a little bit.  But the game knowing I’m taking screenshots?  That’s too much man.   Then I remember: This game was made with that Ren’py engine.  The screenshot key is automatically mapped to S.

This game isn’t fucking with me I’m just drunk.

Anyways, I resumed gameplay as normal.  Everyone starts to read their poems.  Natsuki and Yuri start to form a beautiful friendship/rivalry/a future yuri hentai scene over their poems by cussing each other out and starting a fight.  Natsuki hurls some insults towards Yuri; calling her an edgy bitch and a cutter.  Yuri claps back, telling Natsuki that she needs to stop acting cute.  Me personally, I’m just waiting for Monika to pull out her phone, start recording, and yelling “World Staaaaarrrrrr!”.

Shit if I was the MC, I would instigate the fight further and egg both girls on until one of them snaps and beat the other girl’s ass.

 

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How friendships start

 

 

And it looks like I could actually make them fight. The game made me choose between the Yuri and Natsuki.  I went for Yuri of course.  But the game was like “Nah”. Then I was like “Fuck you I’m picking best girl Yuri.” Despite my wish to do so, the camera kept zooming in towards the Natsuki choice. I tried a few more times until Monika popped up and was like “Nigga you gonna pick Natsuki.”

 

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“Sup.”

 

 

Monika steps in between the player and the girls and things chilled out.  And by chill out, I guess Yuri made a crack about Natsuki’s dad abusing her – causing Natsuki to burst out in tears and leaving the school.  Yuri, you should be proud of yourself for making fun of Natsuki’s suffering.  I’m kinda glad you did kill yourself.

Yea, Hanako 2.0 winds up stabbing herself to death at the end of Act 2.  I’ll come back to that later though.  I wanna talk about on how the fuck Yuri found Dagger of Time from The Prince of Persia.  Because I think she’s cutting herself with it.

After the fight scene, Yuri decides to make tea for her and the MC. Lovely. Tea is great. I love tea.  I’m always down for some tea.  Yuri runs off for some water or some shit. I wasn’t paying attention.  The MC notices Yuri hasn’t come back and decides to go after her out of concern.
Yea, I don’t blame dude.  Yuri’s both a cutter and a yandere.  I’ve seen enough shit tier anime featuring yanderes to know that you shouldn’t trust them with food products.  Yuri could have been cutting her wrists to put blood in the tea. But yea, dude catches her cutting herself with her knife.  As dude tries to talk to her, the screen gets distorted and time’s reversed.  Rather than being spooked, I started laughin’ again.

“Yuri has the Dagger of Time and she cuts herself with it!” I said to myself.  Not really, it was just Monika fucking around.  She explains how when she gets overly excited she starts cutting herself – and how she may do it for sexual reasons.

 

Yuri’s fucking weird. This game is fucking weird. Monika is the fucking villain and the game doesn’t hide it well.   More in part 2.

 

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“They pen ain’t mightia than my pistol.” – Viper The Rapper

 

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Is Monika From Doki Doki Literature Club Machiavellian? (VIDEO)

Doki Doki Political Club!

But real shit is Monika Machiavellian? She did use power and fear to control the game. She also tricked Sayori and Yuri to kill themselves just so she can get closer to the main character. In addition, she used fear to get her way by fucking with the player’s head AND deleting Sayori before Sayori became self-aware. What ya think?

 

 

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Yuki’s Doki Doki Literature Club Adventrues: Act 1 (Freewrite)

Warning: Major Act 1 spoilers.  Major game spoilers below for certain characters.  Don’t read this and then get mad at me because I spoiled shit.

Last week, I decided to download Doki Doki Literature Club (DDLC) after six months of being bombard with memes, spoilers, and discussion across social media about the game.   With my friends filling me in on the game’s meta creepiness and horror, I figured it would be smart for me to buy some alcohol,  hit up my weedman for some loud, and get my mind right before playing DDLC.  In addition, I downloaded some Monika hentai off Danbooru and Rule 34; placing the hentai in the game’s folder. My homeboy told me that she can pull up your internet history. Apparently, she also reveals that she knows that you have porn of her.

If this game gonna fuck with my head,  I’m gonna fuck with its head.

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After drinking a 32 ounce of cheap ass Miller Beer, a glass wine, and smoking a blunt,  I booted up DDLC. The game warned me that I may not have a good time playing it. Of course, the game is wrong because I always have fun tearing overhyped shit apart.  Next, I had to give my character a name. First, I went with “RealNigga”; a reflection of me being the realest nigga in the otaku community (a title nobody will ever take from me). However, I changed it to “YourName” just to see if the game picks up on me being a smart ass.  Plus, I wanted to see if Monika said something about that (since she knows your PC name and gets angry with you for not stating your “real” name).

The game begins.  I’m greeted with the generic happy-go-lucky childhood friend Sayori aka “Hangtime” (and I’m not talking about NBA Hangtime for the Nintendo 64).  I decided not to romance her for obvious reasons.  Next, the game proceeds to the literature club where I meet the rest of the cast of the game. First, best shy girl Yuri. Yuri is just Hanako and Lily from Katawa Shoujo (who somehow learned how to do the Fusion Dance from Dragon Ball Z).  Following Yuri, there’s the low-key otaku Natsuki who’s a tsundere. I hate most tsundere characters, but Natsuki gets a pass due to reasons I’ll explore in a future post (maybe). Finally, Just Monika Lewinsky – the club president and game’s true villain or some shit.

Oh yea spoilers my bad.

With the girls presented this was my gameplan: romance Yuri and Monika at the same time. The other girls can go fuck themselves. Yuri has wisdom and knowledge.  I love wisdom and knowledge.  Monika has power and influence – two things I want in life.  Sayori will become ceiling decoration by the end of act 1. Natsuki (although a good character), doesn’t appeal to me just yet.  Moving forward, I did my first poem writing mini-game bullshit thing.  Being the crafty man that I am, I selected the words that I knew would get me to Yuri’s Act 1 route.

Look, I have a storied history of liking shy, quiet, weird people who are secretly interesting, smart, sophisticated, what have you.  I used to be super shy, weird, and quiet so I relate to those characters heavily.

Plus, purple is my favorite color. Yuri has purple hair and eyes.  I am a biased man.

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After befriending Yuri I realized that the game must have programmed Sayori to become aware of this relationship. Sayori started saying things like “Would you walk with Yuri back home over me?” and “It won’t be long until you need me anymore, you know.” It worsens when Sayori admitted that she had life-long depression and suicidal thoughts. It was then where I said to myself “Oh fuck…” and realized I made a horrible mistake.

The two glasses of wine, the beer, and the blunt I consumed didn’t help this either.

 

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“Now if there’s a smile on my face
It’s only there trying to fool the public…”

 

The next day (in-game), the MC and Yuri did some club project bullshit.  Yuri came over to MC’s house to work on club promotion.  Yuri (clearly trying to get some dick) gave the MC a sample of her aromatherapy talent.  Following that, she shows her knife off to the MC (who winds up cutting himself with it).  With Yuri freaking out she decided to put the dude’s finger in her mouth and lick his wound.  Then MC returned the favor, licking her finger and she started to blush.

Hmm…

So after that, the two decided to end their day.   The MC walked her out of the crib and by pure luck, Sayori catches their asses.  Sayori admits she was going to the house to confirm her fears – which were proven right.  I dunno what’s worse: The main chick catching you with the side chick coming out of your house, or your female childhood best friend – who you know has a crush on your – seeing you with another girl. I myself never been in either situation. All my female childhood friends are probably dead, racist, or have forgotten about me.  And I don’t have the balls to do the main chick/side chick shit. I can’t explain that shit to you.

Either way, pretty sure that worsen Sayori’s depression – which I will learn the hard way.

The next school day, I’m greeted by Monika.  She informs me that Sayori hasn’t shown up to school and states that I kinda left her hanging that morning. Monika, that’s fucking dark. Funny. But dark. But real shit I knew what was happening next.  I drank another glass of wine to prep myself.  Monika gives me Sayori’s final poem to read simply titled Get Out of my Head. I admit the title wasn’t subtle but I was getting scared playing the game. After school, the MC heads over to Sayori’s house.

 

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Nah bitch, you did.  I read the spoilers.

 

I’m assuming you’re already hip to the Sayori’s suicide spoilers so fuck the details. If you’re not well you’re goofy for reading this far even with the spoiler warning. Anyway, as the MC was freaking out seeing his homegirl’s hanging body he says something like “This isn’t a game where I can reset and try something different.”

A smirk flashed across my face.  I pointed to my laptop’s screen and simply said “Bet.”  I made a second save file just in case if the game branches off to a new path (if you attempt to quit or escape Sayori’s room). My plan wasn’t to start over per se but to experiment with the different things you can do with the game.  So I saved, quit, and launched the game.

The game starts up, but I’m greeted with glitchy ass music and a gltich image of Monika (replacing Sayori).  I couldn’t access my load files.  In fact, they were all deleted.  “Fuck.  Maybe I was supposed to read that entire scene after all.”

That’s what I get for trying to play the metagame against a game that’s programmed to fuck with you using meta.

 

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Unless you mod it of course. 

 

AFTERWORD:
Doki Doki Literature Club is amazing.  Go play it.  Just don’t do in under the influence of drugs and alcohol if you’re easily scared.  The music sucks tho. Not sorry. Project M died for this.