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On Characters Connecting With The Audience

It was February of 2001.  I was watching Outlaw Star for the first time.  Gene, the lead character, was struggling to perform a spacewalk to repair his ship; as he was experiencing traumatic flashbacks of his father’s murder (who was killed by space pirates during a spacewalk). Story-wise, I was lost,  but the episode was interesting enough to hook me into the series.  The episode ended and the ED starts to play.   A single guitar chord rung out multiple times, followed by a woman’s vocals:

‘Oto no nai mahiru
Kaze ha tada akarui
Sukoshi nemutasou ni
Hanabira ga yureta

Nani ge nai kono omoi
Nee, hito ha donna kotoba de yondeiru no’

While I didn’t understand Japanese at the time, I was taken away by the sadness of not only the song itself but the sorrow in the singer’s voice.  I didn’t need to understand Japanese to understand the pain of the woman singing.  Fast forward to episode 21. After arguing with Gene, Melfina runs off to an empty, rocky landscape to clear her head and indulge in some short-term peace and quiet.  As she stands on a short cliff overlooking the barren, rocky field, Melfina starts to sing:


‘I don’t know what words I can say
The wind has a way to talk to me
Flowers sleep, a silent lullaby
I pray for reply
I’m ready

Quiet days calm me
Oh, serenity
Someone please tell me
Oh what is it they say?
Maybe I will known one day’

Melfina was singing the first ED in English (although not a direct translation).  With the song in English, non-Japanese speaking Western fans were given a personal insight into her character and pain.  As an artificial creation (or bio-android), Melfina struggles with and questions her existence (as explored throughout her character arc).  The normal people that she encountered will never understand how she feels. They will never relate to her pain and struggle.

Melfina will never have anyone that she can relate her sorrow.

Some of you reading this may experience this feeling of unrelatable sorrow.   You may be going through some things that many will never experience — and therefore, they can’t connect with you.  Let’s take African-Americans for example.  We can never truly express our pain and suffering to other races; as they never experienced the trauma and hardships of being Black in America.  Outside of race, let’s use people who struggle with mental health.  People with mental health problems find it difficult to explain to those without any mental problems on how they feel.  When they attempt to do so, they’re usually met with “Oh, it’s just all in your head” or “Well, at least you’re better off than others.”

It’s frustrating.

As a story-telling medium, anime must convey realistic emotions with its characters that the viewers can connect with.  Combining elements such as visual, music, sound,  and plot, the artist can craft ways for the viewer to become invested in a character they find interesting.  The artist must be clever enough to manipulate our emotional connection with a character subtlety.  Art must speak to a person by using a direct link to make it feel real.  The right buttons must be press. This is why some fans of Dragon Ball find themselves connecting with Son Gohan.  They may find themselves as a fan of his character because they can relate to his studious, bookworm nature.

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Let’s take this a step further.  Chances are, if you’re a fan of the anime and manga series Watamote, you will find strong correlations with the socially awkward otaku  Tomoko and her levels of anxiety and yourself.  Tomoko, as much as she wants to be popular, can’t with her anxiety holding her back.  While a simple task of ordering food at McDonald’s is easy for most of us, for some, interacting with a cashier is a brutal, painful challenge.  It’s a draining task of combating your nerves and trying to stop yourself from overthinking (that the cashier is judging and mocking you).  As you attempt to speak, your voice is low, quiet, and shacky.  You’re looking down at your feet because the thought of making eye contact terrifies you.

The following thoughts flood your mind:

‘Is she judging me?’

‘I hope she won’t make fun of me.’

‘She probably thinks I’m too stupid to order food.


‘They’re going to make fun of me in the back.’
(Spoilers: they do. Take it from somebody who worked in the food industry for years.)

You know that scene where Tomoko struggles to order food? I’m sure some of you can understand and relate  Tomoko’s situation during that scene.  It’s not a fun place to be in: interacting with others praying to God that they won’t judge and/or belittle you.  Again, like with Melfina, Tomoko’s awkwardness and anxiety work with her character and you –  the viewer – connecting with her because it’s rooted in realism.

In Bakemonogatari, lead heroine Hitagi Senjougahara is a self-described tsundere with severe trust issues.  She closes herself off from most if not, all people (sans her father) due to her mom – whom she trusted – setting her up to be raped by members of the ult she was involved with.  Her parents divorced soon after and  because of it, Senjougahara feels that she’s a burden on their family.   Following that, she ran into six con men who claimed they could solve her issue (her weightlessness and burden). She was ripped off by each man, furthering her mistrust in others. With these acts of betrayal and rip-offs, Hitagi does not open herself up to anyone: fearing that they will take advantage of her.  It wouldn’t be until years later when, with the help of Ararargi (series’s main character) not taking advantage of her trust, she was able to trust and open herself to others.

 

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In life, there are some who wall them self off from others –  because of trust issues.  It’s hard for them to open themselves to others. It can take people years for them to start trusting others again. Even if they do find someone to trust, they still have their guard up until they can feel like they can truly trust them.  Hitagi’s oddity of the crab makes sense once you break things down.  Crabs have hardened shells and sharp claws to defend themselves from predators.  Crabs attack anyone who attempts to get near with claws.  Remember: Hitagi did attack Araragi with a pair of staples (a symbolism of a crab’s claws) and was still defensive around him as she thought he would run his mouth about her oddity to others.  She did warm up to him and lower her guard over time.

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Anime is a storytelling medium.  As such, it’s the job of the creators to give us the emotional connection to characters. Through clever crafting due to the creator, it’s possible for a fan to feel a direct connection with a character; especially if said character acts similar to that one person.  If you spent your teen (or later) years feeling socially awkward and struggling with anxiety like Tomoko Kukori, chances are that you’re going to find that personal connection with her. That’s how art and character connection work – with realistic characteristics from said character.

Everyone, thank you for taking the time to read this article.  If you like what I wrote, please give me a link, leave a comment, and feel free to share.  Tell me, which characters have you connected with and what, to you, makes a character relatable.

 

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30 Day Anime Challenge: Day 15 – Favorite Slice of Life Anime (Watamote)

Watashi ga Motenai no wa fuck this long ass  title (lit. No Matter How I Look at It, It’s Your Fault I’m Not Popular) is Studio Silver Link’s 2013 animated adaption of the same long ass titled manga by mangka Nico Tanigawa.  It stars Tomoko Kuroki; a socially awkward, unpopular fujoshi (female otaku [lit. rotten girl]) loner who loves spending time browsing (and shitposting) on the internet , playing  eroge visual novels, hating her life, and hating on people doing better than her.

You see, Tomoko hates people.  Well, popular people. This is ironic, given her drive to become popular.

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No you won’t.

Tomoko considers herself to be superior compared to her normies peers, thus  she believes that  she’s entitled to have popularity.  She demands it…but she applies minimal effort towards gaining it.  She  blames others for her failures and lack of popularity.  Throughout the series, Tomoko tries different (cringe worthy) methods to become popular.  She tries to act like the cool silent character in fiction. Doesn’t work. She thinks  playing hentai games will make her look cute.  It only makes her a pervert. She even uses a vacuum cleaner to to give herself hickeys to impress her little cousin.  That only results in her mom slapping her across her face.

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If you mom ever gave you this look you knew  what was going to happen next.

All her attempts of popularity end in failure.  The only thing it does for her is increase her depression.  Speaking of mental health disorders, Tomoko clearly suffers from anxiety, which hinders her quest for popularity.

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Now, I don’t have social anxiety myself.  I can’t imagine how crippling such a disorder is. However, you can tell that Tomoko suffers from it.  Simple things ,such as ordering food or buying a book, is an ordeal for the young girl.  Even muttering a simple “goodbye” to a teacher takes a lot for Tomoko.  Maybe her yearning to become popular is a way to overcome her social anxiety, but her mental health is blocks her from holding even the simplest conversation.

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Even saying a simple “goodbye” is a milestone for her

Perhaps, it’s anxiety’s fault that she isn’t popular.

‘I’m the best at playing alone, playing alone, playing alone
Who, who, who, who, who is at fault? (Who is at fault?)
Lonely, lonely, I laugh alone
What… it’s not my fault!’

-No Matter How I Look at It, It’s not My Fault (Watamote ED 1)

 

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30 Day Anime Challenge Day 6: Favorite Anime Ending Theme

I’ve been looking forward to Days 5 and 6  of this list. I love music.  I love anime.  This will be a challenge indeed. There are far too many endings songs I love that I can not possibly just choose one as my favorite.  I’m going to do ten songs, five opening and five ending themes for each day and let you in on why I love them so much.

 

5.An Evil Angel and a Righteous Devil
Dragon Ball Super ED 8
Performed by The Collectors

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With the Tournament of Power Arc introducing a new ending theme this week (Haruka by Lacco’s Tower), I thought it would be a great idea to start off this list with the Arc’s first ending theme.  An Evil Angel and a Righteous Devil is my personal favorite of the Dragon Ball Super ending themes due to the political tone and themes of the lyrics and music video (choosing a side, deception,  the tragedy of war, etc.), something I  would never expect from a Shonen series such as Dragon Ball.

I’ve already given an in-depth analysis on the song  in an earlier post, so please check out the link provided.

‘Angels and devils: even if the devils were really angels
Righteousness and evil would still hold no meaning
Winning or losing doesn’t benefit anyone –
Everyone is simply hurt, crying at the end’

Number Four:
Dou Kangaete mo Watashi wa Warukunai (lit. No Matter How  I Look at It, I’m not Popular)
Watamote Ed 1
Performed by Izumi Kitta (voice actress of series heroine Tomoko Kuroki)

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Great  songs are the ones that are personal.  It’s even better if find parallels in the lyrics to your own life  or if the performance of the song matches the spirit of the song’s central theme.   The first ending theme of   “Watamote” captures this as voice actress Izumi Kitta’s  performs  as Tomoko the series socially awkward main character I coudn’t help but find a sense of similarity by   listening to Tomoko sing about her  inability to commute with “normies”, wasting her life online, and her loneliness.

I also couldn’t help but laugh as in reflection of my old  days of being a shut-in weeaboo back in middle and high school – feeling superior to my normie peers.

…god i was such a special snowflake trash back in the day.

‘After all the time I’ve spent online
My voice won’t even come out after all this time
In rain or shine, it doesn’t change
Is that right?! It’s not my fault!’

Number Three
Hiru no Tsuki (lit. Daytime Moon)
Outlaw Star ED 1
Performed by Arai Akino

‘This serene feeling…
Tell me, what’s the word people use for it?’

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“This serene feeling”.   It’s the feeling I had towards  Hiru no Tsuki ever since I was a child watching Outlaw Star.  Despite being ignorant to the Japanese language and the context of Hiru no Tsuki  back then,  I always felt this peaceful, yet sorrowful presence in Akino’s performance and in the song itself.  11-year-old Benjamin couldn’t quite tell exactly  what or why the reason  for the feeling back then but he knew that there was more to Outlaw Star than just the simple story of  ragtag crew traveling through space finding treasure and collecting money.

Hiru no Tsuki fueled the feeling.

Emily Brown and Ayako Kawasumi’s  (American and Japanese voice actresses of Melfina) performance of Hiru no Tsuki in Episode 21 (Grave of the Dragon) drove the sorrowful emotion point home with Melfina singing acapella – possibly reflecting on her longing to understand the purpose and reason on why does she exist; despite her artificial creation.

The pain in her heart.

Will the time come? When you will know the pain in my heart?
Then you’d be able to be gentler than you are now.

 

Number Two
Ride on Shooting Star
Fooly Cooly ED
Performed by The Pillows

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Ride on Shooting Star doesn’t make sense.  You can not make sense of it, no matter how much you want it to.  It’s confusing. It’s crazy.  It’s nonsense.  It’s perfect for FLCL!

Think about it: Fooly Cooly is a crazy and outlandish anime series.  You know what else is crazy and confusing?  Puberty – and the changes that it brings.  Unexplained changes and experiences you did not  understand at all as a teenager.  What’s one of Fooly Cooly’s creative themes?  Dealing with puberty and not knowing how to deal with it.  That’s why Ride on Shooting Star is perfect as the series’s ending theme.   It doesn’t need to make sense and that’s why it’s perfect.

‘Ride on shooting star
With the voice of my heart, like a shotgun
I kept on singing’

Number One
The Real Folk Blues
Cowboy Bebop ED
Performed by Mai Yamane and The Seatbelts

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‘THE REAL FOLK BLUES
I just want to know real sadness
Sitting in the muddy river, this life isn’t so bad either
If it ends once.’

The lyrical music of Cowboy Bebop is of  an expansion of the series’s story beyond simple background atmosphere.  Cowboy Bebop is heavily influences by music so it shouldn’t be a shock  how the music in the series work in synergy  for the narrtive  of Cowboy Bebop with songs such as “Rain”,  “Blue”, and  ending theme song “The Real Folk Blues”.

Spike’s tale is that of a depressing, saddening one.  While there are many things about Spike and his past that we may never know, we do know and are aware of the sad realities of it. One could consider The Real Folk Blues  as additional information on Spike,  with lines in the song such as “The despair that grew out of hope
And this chance with a trap laid in it “ and  “How long must I live to be healed?”.

Well, I hope you’ve enjoyed my top five anime ending themes!   What are some of your favorites?  Please tell me in the comments below and see ya later!