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Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and the Blade of Light Switch Port: My Raw Random Thoughts

Editor’s Note:  

This is a collection of notes I’ve written down in my notebook about my thoughts of the Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and the Blade of Light Nintendo Switch port that due for release on December 4th, 2020. Given the nature of sudden shadow drop of the reveal as well as me working on an article for a news website, I did not have time to properly organize this post like my past articles.  I did my best to fix more grammatical errors, but if there are any lingering please forgive them.

NINTENDO’S BULLSHIT LIMITED RELEASE PRACTICES

Once again, Nintendo has pulled their Limited Release practice with another of their beloved franchise:  Fire Emblem.  On October 22nd, 2020, Nintendo shadow dropped a trailer of their latest retro re-release: Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and the Blade of Light.  If you want to learn  more about the release, you can check out this link because I do not have the time to explain every little detail about the digital release and the physical special edition collector’s package at the moment.

As with  Super Mario 3D All-Stars, Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and the Blade of Light will have a limited release time window starting from December 4th, 2020 to March 31st, 2021. It is unclear why Nintendo chosen March 31st, 2021 to end production of both Super Mario 3D All-Stars and Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and the Blade of Light, but people have theorize that the March 31st 2021 deadline relates to Nintendo’s ending of their fiscal year on the same date.

Some believe with the March 31st, 2021 date, this will give investors and stock holders a chance to analyze the market to see if there are enough customers to justify doing normal runs of video game re-releases or to continue with the trend of limited run releases.  Others view this as an ill-will form of  pseudo scarcity: purposely creating a limited amount of copies of Super Mario 3D All-Stars and the collector’s edition of Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and the Blade of Light to claim that they sold out of copies where they can easier make more or keep the digital copies of both games online.

With that said, we as not only fans of Fire Emblem and Mario, but as customers must be vocal in our demands with Nintendo being more open and transparent about their Limited Run practices. 

We have the right  to know if  March 31st, 20201 means that Nintendo will no longer produce digital and physical copies of Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and the Blade of Light and Super Mario 3D All-Stars ever again, or if there will only be digital releases Super Mario 3D All-Stars through the Nintendo eShop/Switch Online.  The same apply with the new Shadow Dragon English release.  This in turns creates a scalper culture of sorts.

Now, I have nothing against scalpers and hustlers who purchase 2-4 copies of Super Mario 3D-All Stars to resell at a premium. I won’t have any issue with Fire Emblem fans doing the same with the collector’s edition.   We live in a capitalist society and we are free to make money by almost any means (as long as nobody is getting hurt, killed, trafficked, abused, etc.).

Hell, even I plan on doing some short term flipping with these limited run items myself so I can take advantage of all these feeble-minded  Fire Emblem and Mario fans  with their fear of missing out.  What I do have a problem is with Nintendo enabling people to do these moves rather than producing more games for “quality control” of their products.

Nintendo, listen: creating pseudo scarcity doesn’t make for a thrilling gaming experience.  It only creates a situation for morons with fears of missing out to do fuck shit with your limited releases because they’re mentality weak men and women.

SAMMY SMARTASS KNOW IT ALLS

If you go on twitter right now, you will see people who I like to call “Sammy Smartass” ranting about how it’s pointless to purchase a digital copy of Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and the Blade of Light.  In their pointless, uneducated opinion, because we live in the a world of advanced technology where smartphones can play the Famicom version of Shadow Dragon and the Blade of Light or the remake of FE1 through the way of Mystery of the Emblem or the re-remake of FE1 through the way of NEW Shadow Dragon and Sword of Light via emulation.

I will say to you that is yes, little Sammy Smartass, people could (keyword: could) play FE1 through emulation.  Hell, we can even go as far as to say that they can buy a physical copy of Fire Emblem: New Shadow Dragon with a DS or 3DS console.  However, there are a few issues with your “counterpoint”, Sammy Smartass.

First, the average consumer may not be into playing a game through an emulator on a computer, phone, or console separate from the game’s original console.  Sure, you have some outlier normies who may know how to download and operate an emulator and a rom file of  any Nintendo Entertainment System or Famicom game on their phone or computer without destroying their device (because they know a safe rom and emulator hosting website).

But  again, that’s an outlier.

Now, I know what you’re going to say next, Sammy Smartass. “Yuki!  Emulating a Famicom console is much easier than say emulating a Nintendo 64 console.  A five year old can put a Famicom console emulator on his iPhone in less than 3 minutes.”

Correct. 

But again, the five year old  ain’t the average consumer.  And emulating Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and Blade of Light isn’t an average task when you consider having to find a stable, complete (perfectly translated) English patch to even enjoy the game (as FE1 is text heavy).  

Following that, you have people and their legality fears.  Keep in mind that downloading roms of official Nintendo games is still illegal unless you own a copy of said game physically. 

While the Nintendo Ninjas aren’t going to go to every person house that download roms of their games and slit their throats in front of their children or parents, some consumers are going to have that fear in the back of their minds. Because of that fear, they won’t mess around with emulation.

Speaking of fear, some rom and emulation websites are littered with viruses, spyware, adware, Fire Emblem hentai porn, whatever. If you don’t know what you’re doing, you can easily run into one of these shady rom websites with those things on said website and destroy your computer/smartphone. 

Best case situation you just get flooded with hentai ads and your computer and/or smartphone will be safe. However, nobody wants to explain to their boss or parent why Marianne off Three Houses  is giving her favorite horse Dorte a handjob in a hentai website ad on a rom website because they wanted to play Genealogy of the Holy War that badly on the work or family computer.

“But Yuki! If they are scared of viruses and their boss walking on them looking at a hentai ad of Marianne jerking off Dorte and making her face a baby horse daycare center on a rom website, why don’t they just buy an original copy of FE1 and a Famicom console? Better yet, they could either buy a copy of FE1’s two remakes, Fire Emblem: New Shadow Dragon on the Nintendo DS AND a (3)DS or buy a copy of Fire Emblem: Mystery of the Emblem on the Super Famicom with a Super Famicom console.  The remakes are clearly superior!”

Sammy Smartass, please listen; because you’re have become more retarded than your friend Ricardo the Ritardo.

Nobody, unless they are a hardcore collector, a hardcore Fire Emblem fan, or a gaming historian, is going to go out and buy an original Famicom – an obsolete console from the 80s, an original copy of Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and Sword of Light that came out in 1990. Nor will they go out and buy a copy of the 1993 video game Fire Emblem: Mystery of the Emblem for another obsolete console, the Super Famicom.

Now, you may have an argument with New Shadow Dragon on the DS as the Nintendo 3DS, despite Nintendo stopping production of that console as of 2020 (the year of this blog post), is readily available at online and brick-and-mortar retail stores. 

However, let’s do some math and logical thinking:

A brand new New Nintendo 3DS XL runs at average about S145.99 on Amazon. Fire Emblem: New Shadow Dragon ranges from S21.99 for the game alone to about $120 if you want the game new and sealed. $145.00 + $120.00 = $165.00 before shipping and taxes.  For an extra $50.99 or so, you can buy Nintendo’s current console, Nintendo Switch Lite (a modern console that still being supported) and Shadow Dragon and Blade of Light as opposed to a remake of the first game and an console that has been discontinued and won’t have any games made for it again.  

You can apply the same logic with buying a Famicom or Super Famicom alongside FE1 and FE3.

Therefore, with all of that stated,  the average consumer who isn’t your outlier normie co-worker or 5 year old cousin is going to want ease of access to FE1; even if it means paying $5.99 on the Nintendo eShop. They would rather pay the money for an official localization copy of FE1 than go through unnecessary extra steps to enjoy a simple old Famicom game from 1990 that nobody besides weeaboos who enjoy their little precious weeaboo chess game with RPG elements.

Also, it’s natural for people to look at the origins of the things they love.  Just like with new Spider-Man fans want to read Amazing Fantasy #15 to see the origins of Peter Parker’s alter ego, people are going to want to play the game where Marth first came from. 

Humans are curious after all.

 ON COLELCTOR EDITION SCAPLERS AND SPECUCLATORS

With a fantastic collector’s edition package for Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and the Blade of Light, nobody in their right mind should be shocked that collectors and speculators are drawn to this product.  Like with all things in the realm of limited edition video game collectables, Nintendo limited run practice with the latest re-release of Shadow Dragon has drawn criticism from not only the Fire Emblem community (who may not know how capitalism works), but form the general gaming community as well.

Limited produce copies/pseudo scarcity means speculators and scalpers are going to purchase as many copies of the special collector’s edition as they can and re-sell said copies online for a profit.  Naturally, this causes fans that may not be lucky enough to get the collector’s edition to become piss off at these online hustlers re-selling the package at a premium price. 

I must say to you guys is that don’t hate the hustle.  Hate Nintendo for their bullshit practices.

If you do plan on flipping the special edition package of Shadow Dragon and the Blade of Light on Switch, you must study the market, think logically and realistically, and plan your flip out on paper.  Go on ebay and see how often and daily pervious Fire Emblem special edition packages have been sold. Check the average prices that reseller are charging for each special edition.  This will tell you if there’s a market out there for those who are willing to buy a special edition package of Fire Emblem

With thinking logically and being a realistic about flipping the Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and the Blade of Light special edition, you must ask yourself a few questions:

  1. Is it possible that Nintendo will come out with a reprint of the special edition package months after the March 31st 2021 cutoff date; therefore, lowering the value of my sealed copy of said game?
  2. How long am I willing to hold on to my copy to make a profit?
  3. Is there a cut-off date for me to use the digital code that comes with the special edition?
  4. Who can I realistic sell this to?
  5. What can I realistically get for this game in terms of making a quick profit?
  6. Why do I want to re-sell this special edition copy of Shadow Dragon for profit?
  7. What will I do with the money once I sell at a profit?
  8. Will this collector’s edition increase or decrease in value over the next 2-5 years?

If you can answer each of these questions truthfully and remove all emotions, you will do well in re-flipping the special edition.  Now, if you’re one of these Sammy Smartasses from earlier who think holding on to the special edition version of Shadow Dragon for the long term (15+ years) as a viable investment, please do not waste space in your closet through the way of 5 copies of the special edition package.

WHAT THIS COULD MEAN FOR OTHER JAPANESE ONLY FIRE EMBLEM/NINTENDO GAMES?

If the official English localization of Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and the Blade of Light is a success, this will open doors for other Japanese-only Fire Emblem games to be officially translated by Nintendo with major quality of life changes.  Just imagine if Western Fire Emblem fans could finally experience Shozou Kaga’s masterpiece Fire Emblem: Genealogy of the Holy War with Nintendo providing quality of life changes as well as fix all the issues that Genealogy of the Holy War is plagued with.  If Nintendo sees that fans want this, there will be more releases in the manner of Shadow Dragon.  We could get an official English localization of Famicom Tantei Club: a Nintendo visual novel on the Famicom Disk System.  Mother 3 may get an official translation.  Hell, Nintendo did it before with Earthbound Zero/Mother 1

Who knows?  There’s so many possibility to think with these Nintendo Japanese-only English re-releases. So, let us hope that Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and the Blade of the Light have that much success.

Just please Nintendo, stop with these Limited Run release shit.

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Dear Black Nerds: Stop Crying To Non-Black Owned Companies About Not Being Represented (A Drunk Rant)

Disclaimer: This rant was written under the influence of alcohol.  Please enjoy!
And if anything I said offends you: Good!

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Concept art of new Overwatch hero Ashe featuring one of her as a Black woman.

I’m going to be real: When I saw Blerd nerds getting in their feelings and crying about how the new Overwatch hero Ashe, wasn’t a black female,  I  laughed. Really, I did. I found great joy in seeing Black nerds bitching at Blizzard Entertainment for not featuring a black female hero ever since the game debuted in 2016.  I filled my quiet, empty house with vicious, head-splitting cackling as I skimmed through the everlasting rants of  Black nerd Twitter’s as they expressed their disappointment in Blizzard.

This does, however, begs the question: why should it be the job of Blizzard (or any other non-black owned media and entertainment company) to represent Black people and to create black characters for us?  They’re not entitled to do so.  So stop fuckin’ cryin’ and beggin’ them to do so.

I’m ain’t sorry.

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Ashe of Overwatch

Now, don’t get me wrong: Black representation (as long as it’s positive)  in media is not only a great thing, but it’s incredibly important for us.  This is especially true when it comes to young black children (as children are highly influenced by what they see in media). Black children need positive, heroic black figures and characters to look up to during their developmental stages.  But again,  this duty shouldn’t lie on the shoulders of non-white owned companies who never will experience the struggles of being Black. They shouldn’t have to carry this burden.

Do you know must carry this burden for Black people? It’s real easy to  figure this one out.

This burden must be carried by black people.

Black creatives.
Black entertainers.
Black artists.
Black producers.
Black companies.

There’s no other way around this.

If we Black folks want to see our people in the media, then it’s up to us to gather our creative forces together and build. Build something worthwhile for our people to celebrate and showcase our race in media.  We have the tools online to do so. We have social media and blogs/websites builders to spread our art to our community.

Look, we need to stop depending on other races to do the job for us.  I get it: Black people are used to being dependant on programs (Section 8, food stamps/E.B.T, welfare, trickle-down economics, etc.), but we — the true originators of  Earth — gotta stop that lazy, sit on our asses and wait for bullshit!  It’s a huge waste of time.

Do you want to know what happens when we let other races represent us while we sit on our asses? This is what happens. Ready?

They draw us in an offensive manner with overexaggerated racial features:
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We’re showcased as criminals:
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We’re reduced to tap-dancing, coonin’ servant roles:

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Now, do you understand why we must represent our people and not get emotional when others don’t?

If you want black heroes to represent black people in video games (and other forms of media), then do it yourself. You don’t need to wait on white people to give you one. There are thousands and thousands of creative black people who are bringing us black characters in a positive light (such as Black Sands Entertainment with their comic series Kids 2 Kings). We have black people in tech who can code and program.  I’m sure they can make a game for you that features a black hero.

For real, Black people can get together with their skills, form their own video game company, and make their own games.  And sure, some of you uncreative, section 8 living, single mother having, dusty niggas who ain’t about shit and ain’t gonna do shit with your lives can say “Well, that’s a cop-out! We need to hold these companies accountable for not putting black people in their games”.

I agree with you! It’s a cop-out!  We should cop- out from mainstream society and do our own shit rather than wait for somebody to give us something.  We don’t need to wait for somebody else to do it for us and cry when they don’t do it.

Crying to these companies don’t produce results.
It only produces useless tears.

Tears that don’t do anything for anyone but for people like me to make fun of you for shedding.

Now, if you excuse me, I’m going to download some Ashe Rule 34 and wish she was real so she could step on me.

-Yuki The Snowman

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“Comfort Misha” (Or How Did Ya Not Realize That Misha Was Trying to F**K?)

Katawa Shoujo is an old game.  Great game, but it’s old.  As with most old games, people rarely speak about it as time passes (sans hardcore fans).   The hardcore fans it alive through discussion groups on Facebook. Browsing through the Katawa Shoujo Fan Club Facebook group, I found a fanart/fake screenshot of Misha parodying some shit off Doki Doki Literature Club.  The parody reference the infamous “Comfort Misha” scene with the whole ordeal of one of the Doki Doki girls catching you trying to play another girl’s route.

Reading the comments, people were reflecting on how they did not realize that comforting Misha meant that she was trying to sleep with Hisao. Such a choice they regretted (since it led them to Shizune’s bad ending). I’m not even gonna lie to y’all: I was laughing at how their ignorance and borderline stupidity.

Let’s be real: Misha came up to Hisao’s room late at night – knowing full well that he’s her best friend’s  (Shizune) boyfriend.   That’s already suspicious. Next, no woman is going to come up to a man’s house or dorm or whatever late at night just to “talk”. Why couldn’t Misha wait until the next morning to talk, but whatever.  So, after Misha went up to Hisao’s room, she had the nerve lie up in his bed (while he was in it), get real close to him, kiss him and bury her head in his chest.

Yep.  She just wanted to “talk”.

At this point, you’ll say some shit like “Yeah no, ‘comfort Misha’ means sleep with her”.  I know I was.  I was like “Yea, this bitch trying to get some dick from Hisao”.  There’s no way you couldn’t figure that out. I can understand if  English isn’t your second language and you don’t understand subtle clues in that language.   But for those who can understand English with all of its subtle hints in the language, how did you miss all of this?  Even if you were never been in a friendly relationship with a woman prior to Katawa Shoujo, Misha’s action should have set off some red flags.

You’re pretty clueless. I’m not sorry.

Now, with that said, if you chose “Comfort Misha” as your first choice knowing full well it meant having sex with her, you’re the type of person that cheat on their boyfriend or girlfriend with their best friend.

Just saying.

(Also don’t blame Hisao for stickin his dick in Misha.  You were the one who selected that option.)

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VIDEO: STUPID JERK LET’S TALK SOME REAL DEEP $#!T!!! (Persona 4’s Marie and being real)

 

In the third episode of Persona 4 Golden The Animation Marie questions her friends on what does it means to be your true, real self. As I’m watching the cast give their answers (taking from being comfortable with your hobbies, living your life the way you want to, etc.), this made me think: What does it mean to be real? I think to be real means doing whatever you please — regardless of what others may think (as long as you’re ethical about it and not on some illegal shit).

Being real also means facing yourself and admitting you may have some weakness and issues to work on. So, what does being real means to you? (also unless you’re a hardcore Persona 4 don’t watch P4GA its typical A1 Pictures garbage. The music, fanservice, Yukiko, and Marie are the only good things about the anime)

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FREEWRITE: Dragon Ball Fighterz MUST Be Successful

Arc System Works’s (ASW) Dragon Ball Fighterz must  be successful in order to lay down the path of future anime fighting games based off other anime/manga series. Currently most “fighting games” based off anime series (Naruto: Ultimate Ninja Storm and Dragon Ball Z Xenoverse) are average, bland, noncompetitive, 3-D arena, smash “X” on the PS4 pad over and over for punches and kicks,  100+ plus characters but only five are actually being used, bullshit tripe that are not  and should not get any type of respect from the fighting game community (FGC).

Dragon Ball Fighterz  appears to lack the problem mentioned above. Basing this off word-of-mouth and seeing gameplay videos from e3, the Dragon Ball Fighterz play  like your traditional 2D  anime fighting game with mechanics influenced by Guilty Gear (make sense given ASW are creating the game) such as dusting (ground-to-air comboing) and combo linking (linking from normals to specials to supers to ultras), creating an in-depth and high learning curve.  Further more, this leads us to an expansive meta game unlike in Xenoverse.  It’s safe to say that  Dragon Ball Fighterz will be far more advance, deeper (perhaps superior), and complex compared to Xenoverse 1 and 2.

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To be completely honest, it’s  what a Dragon Ball fighting game needs: complexity.  Yes, it can be and should be simple and easy to pick up for casual and new players, but hard to master for the more advance and competitive player.  You know, the same players who are willing to put in 8-12 hours a day, just to master a main and sub character for tournaments and money matches. The ones who are willing to spend an entire day learning each little detailed of the gameplay and characters to dominate the FGC scence.  If Dragon Ball Fighterz can do that and  receive  a highly positive feedback from both Dragon Ball and fighting games fans alike, just imagine what other anime and manga series could benefit from the potential success.

Naruto I would say would have the greatest benefit from Dragon Ball Fighterz success.  No more of that arena bullshit like Ultimate Ninja Storm.  In fact, what if we could apply the cool accepts of that series and put it on a 2D fighting game with the Naruto brand?  One Piece fighting game, but it plays like Blazeblu?  And ya already know ya boy loves Sailor Moon.  I would love it if  Arc System Works did a Sailor Moon anime fighting game with not only just the Sailor Scouts, but their enemies and series villains too!

But we can not have any of those pipe dream fighting games if Dragon Ball Fighterz tank or do not get community support, feedback, or success.

So please, please support Dragon Ball Fighterz when it’s released.  Please provide Arc System Works with feedback to help improve the game once the closed beta drops.  We must support Dragon Ball Fighterz and ensure it’ll become a success.   The future of any other anime/manga based fighting games rest on Dragon Ball Fighterz.

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A Quickie on Why Great Character Design Matter

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Tae Takemi (Persona 5)

Great character design is important for any animated show.  Character design gives subtle context clues on how a character will be portray in either his or her role and personality throughout the series.   Small details can draw a viewer to a character, possibility relating to said character on a deeper level.

On a Shin Megami Tensei/Persona group I’m a member of, there was a “Who’s your Persona 5 Waifu?” topic (I’m trash I know).

I chose Tae and Chihaya based on the information their character design gave me, despite not yet playing Persona 5. I love Tae’s darker, edgier alternate style while I enjoy Chihaya’s more laid back, mellow, and carefree design.

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Chihaya Mifune (Persona 5)

Plus their subcultures that the two portrayed (Tae’s alternate style and Chihaya’s hippie style) are consider “weird” and “strange” by modern standards and I’m a man who is attractive by the weird. There’s that to factor in.

Let’s take Tae’s design (plus I don’t have much time to analyze Chihaya before work):

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The immediate visual clue we see in her design is her lab coat and clip board in her left hand.  This gives a hint to the viewer that there is a great chance that she is involved with the medical or science field.
If we were to analyze her details further, we can see that she sports a stubbed chocker,  dark eyeliner, a necklace with a metal capsule attached, a kinda low-top dress (dunno what they’re call I ain’t a fashion guru) that is high above her knees, a red belt with metal open circles, and platform sandals with exposing straps.  Her hair is unkempt and short, colored with a combination of dark blue and black with jagged edges and blunt bangs.

From this, we can assume that Tae is into the alternate scene. The dark hair, eyeliner, and choker can support my claims.  We can also guess that  she may have a sharp, blunt, and aggressive personality.   All details that  lured me into her character design.    She is also liberal in her fashion despite working in a professional field such as the medical industry.

To think I could figure this woman out from just analyzing her character art and I haven’t Persona 5 yet. I’m proud of myself!

…if I am wrong please correct me about this theory and analyze on Tae.

Character design is important and done right can easily lure a viewer to a character that fits their niche(s). Small visual details and clues can tell much more about a character than words and prior information could provide.
REFERENCE:

Super Eyepatch Wolf – What Makes a Great Character Design

Pretty much influenced me to write this post. 

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Playing Favorites: Character Relation

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Shadow Kanji (Persona 4 – 2008)

 

 

Question:  Have you ever wonder why a certain character is your favorite?  The answer can be as simple as you think they’re cool and awesome or  deep such as you have a relatable personal connection to that character.

I believe everyone has that one (or more) character that they can relate to.  You probably relate to the character because of similar personality traits.

We like to see ourselves in characters we favor most.  We appreciate these characters because they remind us of ourselves.  This is how I am with my favorites. I love my favorites because I see myself in them.

Kanji Tatsumi from the 2008 video game Persona 4 is somebody I love.  I can relate to his issues.

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Kanji  has a complex with his identity as a man.  He enjoys sewing, knitting, and cute things.

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Generally speaking, those hobbies are stereotyped as feminine and thus, he has a complex about his masculinity and sexuality.

Years prior to Persona 4, Kanji was bullied for his hobbies.  He was taunted with homophobic slurs and other forms of name calling by his classmates.  This fucked him up mentality.

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Young Kanji (Persona 4 manga – 2012)

 

Kanji develops a tough guy facade to combat (and mask) his insecuirties. He bleaches his hair blonde, starts weight lifting, pierces his ears, and wear attire to reflect his “manliness”.

It’s a bullshit front to hide his unresolved issues.

Kanji would eventually accept himself. He gains confidence  embracing his “feminine” hobbies and learn to be open with his passion (it’s a story best saved for a more in-depth analysis post in the future).

Kanji’s struggle with his identity and self-acceptance was a reminder of my teen years.  My enjoyment of  nerdy hobbies such as video games and anime resulted in  being bullied and called an “oreo” (black on the outside, white on the inside) and being accused of “acting white”.

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An “Oreo” or whatever.  Stupid ass term.

 

Shit was goofy and baseless but it impacted me mentality growing up.

I knew I was black.   I knew I wasn’t trying to be white.  However, being fuck with and bullied for my hobbies by my black peers fucked my head up.

I developed a fear of expressing my nerdiness openly. I was afraid that people would judge me for being black and nerdy. Didn’t help that I  had  low self esteem pile on as well.

It took going to college to get over this fear.  In college, I found other black peers who openly enjoy nerdy things and being conformable with both their racial and nerd identity.

I was inspired to do the same.  To say fuck the judgement niggas and do me. To embrace myself.  I became my true self and felt accepted.

Today, I am not only just confident in myself but also I am happy.  Happy that I finally could be me and be understood without fear. Happy that I was able to accept who I am.
Kanji’s issues with his identity and accepting who he was reminded me of my younger days: A young kid dealing with his own issues with it and coming to terms with  loving myself.

It was a struggle of self-conscious issues and fear of rejection but I learned to overcome those fears.

When it comes to relating to an anime character I would say  Hotaru Tomoe from Pretty Solider Sailor Moon is one of my top choice.

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Hotaru Tomoe (Sailor Moon Infinity – 1994)

 

I’m a huge fanboy of the Hotaru/Saturn character. While it is dope that she can blow up a planet or even a  galaxy with her powers, my love for the character comes from finding parallels in her core personality in Sailor Moon Super (SMS) and me growing up.

Hotaru in SMS  is introduced as a shy, quiet, socially awkward, bullied and weird girl who doesn’t have any friends (prior to meeting Chibi-Usa and the Inner Sailor Scouts).   She keeps to herself and doesn’t  interact with othrrs due to her  fears of being shun, bullied and teased by others.
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Hotaru’s fears resulted from being mocked and rejected by her peers because of her general weirdness (her healing powers and random, but violent, mood swings from being possessed by Mistress 9) so it’s understanding why she did not open up to anyone before befriending Chibi-Usa.

Hotaru first encountered Chibi-Usa,who had hurt herself chasing her hat. Seeing her hurt, Hotaru offer to heal  Chibi-Usa’s wound.

Chibi-Usa was amazed by her power. Hotaru was surprised that Chibi-Usa didn’t freak out or thought of her as weird or creepy as others thought of her powers in the past.

 

(Granted Chibi-Usa IS a superpowered time traveling princess like Future Trunks from Dragon Ball Z. Healing factor ain’t shit to her but I am getting off topic).

The two became best friends from that day forth.  Hotaru didn’t dwell on how different she was from her new friend because she was just happy to be accepted for who she was. She was able to open up to somebody.

 

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“That’s my best friend, that’s my best friend, flexin”

Growing up, I was bullied a lot for my weirdness and awkward nature. I’m also rather  shy and quiet (expect when I am drunk. I am not quiet nor shy when drunk).

It takes a while for me to open up to people due to my own fears from the past (the fear isn’t as bad as it used to be in my youth). If I do open up to somebody its because I vavule that person deeply and I feel like they will accept me.

I get overwhelm with joy each time I can connect with somebody despite how different I feel about myself.  It is a great feeling to be accept despite what fears may hold me back.

To conclude,  I believe everyone has at least one  character they love because of one or many similar triat.  Being able to connect with a character is a wonderful feeling because you see yourself in him or her.

I was able to see myself in Kanji from Persona 4 and Hotaru from Sailor Moon S because I shared similar traits those characters had.  They became some of my favorite characters in their respected medium because of the parallels I had with their personality.

 

(I am never fucking editing on a phone ever again)