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Work/Grind While They Sleep (Freewrite)

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Recently, I came across my new phase; “Work While They Sleep, Grind While They Party”.   To break it down to even simpler terms,  take advantage of your rivals and competition’s  partying and sleeping ways.  Work your ass off while these sleep and party.  Get a head start of the game before the others.

A couple of my posts (such as my Sailor Moon Infinity analysis and my recent analysis of Hitagi Sengahara’s mental health analysis), were done at night, for about 2-5 hours a night.  Other were done at night and the next morning, with me taking a 6-7 hour sleep form between those time, and before I head to work.

I like this phase.  It’s a movation tool to work harder to reach my goals.  Moviation for me to work on my passion so I donot have to work for anyone else in my life.

Yea it sucks to sacrifice nights of partying, and hours of sleep, but I rather spend the nights working on my blog, posts, and learning about the anime industry  I want to make a name out myself.  A legacy even.  .

Don’t get me wrong: partying with yout friends every once-in-a-awhile is cool.  You shouldn’t isolate yourself from the crew.  Sometimes, you need a night to relax and enjoy yourself.  Just don’t makie it an hobby.

Work while they grind.  Learn while they sleep.  It’ll be worth it for your futre.

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Hitagi Senjougahara: Trauma, Trust Issues, and Defense Mechanisms (Truth in Fiction)

TRIGGER WARNING: Rape, molestation, and child abuse mentioned.  If you’re bothered by these things, please please please, for the sake of your mental health, do not read on.  Thank you.

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A traumatic incident can screw up one’s mind.  It creates defense mechanisms, anxiety, and trust issues.  Hitagi Senjougahara, main heroine of the anime and light novel series “Monogatari”,  experienced such things.  To repay a debt owed to a cult, Hitagai’s mother  set her up to be molested and rape by a high ranking cultist. Hitagi resisted, hitting the cultist with a spiked shoe.  Afterwards, her dad filed for divorce, and Hitagi haven’t  spoke to her mom since.

Overtime, Hitagi grew distance, hostile, and untrusting of others.

‘And now you’re kinda cold to the people you met
Cause of something that was done to you by some creep.’
Whodini: Friends (1984 hip-hop single).

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Throughout the “Hitagi Crab” arc ,  we learn of the condition and causality of Hitagi’s literal weightlessness, as well as her hostile nature.  After Araragi (series’s main hero) saves her from an otherwise fatal fall, he discovers that she’s weightless. In fear that he might run his mouth about her state, Hitagi attacks him. She shoves a mini stapler inside his mouth, stapling his check.

After removing the lodged staple from his check, Araragi reveals his healing factor.  Hitagi was shock that there was somebody like her (in terms of weirdness).  Araragi offers to help her regain her weight, taken by a god crab spirit.

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As Araragi and Hitagi bike to Oshino’s (friend of and occult advisor to Araragi) residence, the two engaged in an interesting conversation.  Hitagi refers herself as a tsundere (otaku slang for a character who’s hostile and cold initially, but grows softer and warm towards close ones overtime).  This fits her well. Hitagi is cold, distanced, and hostile due to her mental trauma and physical condition. With Araragi’s reveling  his powers, understanding her situation, and knowing someone who could help her, Hitagi gradually warms up.

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There are two points I want to explore here:

Prior to meeting Oshino, Araragi asks Hitagi if he could hold on to her school supplies (which double as her weaponry). She responds “You set me up, right?”, pauses, and surrender her goods.  At the second point, upom meeting Oshino, Hitagi asks if he could save her.  Oshino responds with that only she could save herself. Hitagi snaps on him, stating that  five people prior told her the same thing, only to try to scam her.  She then asks Oshino if he was a scammer himself, which he only laughs off her (somewhat baseless) fears.

This made me wonder: are her worries defense mechanisms?  If so, you can’t blame her. Victims of traumatic experiences tend to be more defensive and aggressive towards others.   Traumatic experiences can changed one’s point of view, as Oshino pointed out to Hitagi about hers.

‘If I trust a person so easily, I don’t know how many times I would’ve been tricked.”
-Hitagi Senjouhara

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Fasting forward to episode 2’s ritual scene, Oshino asks Hitagi a series of questions.  The first few are basic: school life, date of birth, and favorite author. All to each she answered unhesitating.  When asked about her most painful memory of her life however, Hitagi freezes up, taking a sharp breath.  Regaining herself, Hitagi painfully recalls the attempted sexual assault.   She brings up that  her mother was punished because she fought back against the cultist.

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Her parents divorced soon after.   Hitagi felt guilt for her resistance, blaming herself  for breaking the family apart (of course, it wasn’t her fault). She felt anger towards  her mom;  she did not save her. Oshino tells her that these were her feelings, feelings that she can’t transfer to others.

Feelings that she must carry the burden on her shoulders.

In their conversation, Oshino uses the word “omoi”, which can either mean “Feelings” or Weight” (depending on the kanji).  What I like about the word usage is the  symbolism of the meaning. The feelings caused by horrific, traumatic experiences are a heavy weight to carry.   You go through life blaming yourself when you should not, closing yourself off from others and being on edge; unsure if people will hurt you physically, or emotionally.

A weight that you can never get rid of;  just only overcome  it with proper help and support.

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At the end of the ritual, Hitagi  confronts  the crab god whom stripped her weight.  Hitagi freaks out.  Her breathing is heavy, eyes widen.  Her body is frozen in fear , muscles tensed.  Hitagi asks if anyone else can see the crab, which the others reply with that they cannot.

Hitagi shuts down right as the crab attacks.  Oshino rescues Hitagi and destroy the spirit.  He explains the crab is the result of her  mental state.  Finally, after thanking him, she breaks down and starts to cry uncontrollably.

Hitagi’s freezing, fears, tense body language, breathing heavily, avoidance of the crab, and crying made me think:  was she having a PTSD flashback of the attempted rape? Yeah I mean, the crab is a supernatural force for storytellin, but her response to not confront it, in addition to her being asked about her most painful life experience, can be debated in favor of this theory.

When triggered, victims of traumatic events experienced symptoms such as heavy breathing, feelings of tightness, emotional break downs, and avoidance of anything that reminds them of the incident to name a few examples.

After Hitagi regain her composure, Oshino tells her that despite how much she longs for her family to return, and her desires to remove the pain, those things will never happen.  She must learn how to overcome it and grow stronger.  At the end, she gained a new friend (and eventually boyfriend) in Araragi and  gain her “weight” back as well.

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Ohhh…tired of the strain and the pain’
‘There’s so much pain…’
-2pac: Pain  (1994 rap single)

Special thanks and shout out to my homeboy Mr. Y giving me advice and tips and checking if my info on mental health was correct.  Check out his blog here:

https://wordpress.com/read/feeds/61835112

Further reading:

http://www.mentalhealthamerica.net/conditions/post-traumatic-stress-disorder
https://psychcentral.com/lib/15-common-defense-mechanisms/
http://traumaabusetreatment.com/trust-issues-after-trauma
http://childhoodtraumarecovery.com/2013/06/20/childhood-trauma-defence-mechanisms-resulting-from-stress/
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/somatic-psychology/201107/effects-trauma-estrangement-family

Screenshots Source:
http://blog.seiha.org/index.php?s=bakemonogatari

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Raven’s Meditation: Truth in Fiction (Freeewrite)

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I’m gonna to reveal to you guys how slow I am.

Until recently, I never understood why Raven meditate to control her emotions (and powers). As we know in the show (and comics I assume), her powers are linked to her emotional state. If her emotions go haywire, her powers will get the best of her, pretty much fucking things up.

People with emotional problems such as anger management issues (something I’m sadly an expert in) can control their emotions by meditating; relaxing their mind and body. With the help of mediation, you can calm yourself down (as well as deep breathing, counting slowly to 10, and focusing your anger on something postive, etc).

In short, Raven’s meditation to control herself is an reflection on how there is truth in fiction.  She controls her emotions.  She doesn’t allow her emotions to control her.

But real shit I’m fucking slow lol

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Haters Are Goofy (Barely Edited Freewrite)

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Haters are goofy.

Being in the creative field (and my ever-growing internet popularity), gaining and encountering hate is a natural (but fun) thing.  It’s the order of life , something that will  only end when humanity ends.   As somebody who doesn’t get mad, jealous, or hateful towards successful people, I never got the joy of hating off somebody else’s success or passion.  I find inspiration in those who are doing better than I am.  It just means I need to keep pushing to reach their level.

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A grown ass woman  in her 30s with a 6-digit salary career  about to hate on a 12-year-old kid.  That’s fucking sad.

Recently, I’ve been gaining some hate from both internet niggas, and a member of my own blood family.  Although I’m not (completely) mad at these haters, I find their hate funny.  These fools that are hating on me are doing way better in their lives compared to my own life.  They have careers, wives/girlfriends, their own cars and houses while I’m struggling.

And yet, they take the time out of their own apparently “successful” and “happy” lives to talk down on me.  The family member hater has a newfound hobby of reminding me of my past failures and is belittling me about my current situation. Funny thing, this dude won’t offer me advice or support to get out of this situation (granted this dude had an arrest warrant out for him last year, and he screwed over his roommates  rent money the year before, so take that how you want to)

Guess it’s easier to put down others than to lift them up (a depressing issue in the Black community).

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Their hate got me wondering though: I must be doing something right with my passion and drive to better myself.  The haters don’t like that.  They rather see me be stuck forever, than me to make progress in life.  They fear the fact that one day, I’ll prove their bullshit wrong.

Fear and paranoid is a bitch ha ha ha.  But real shit, haters are goofy.

‘I’m just enjoying my mother fuckin’ life that’s all.  I advise you to do the same.’

Katt Williams

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When you finally stunt on that hater.
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The Narrative Themes of Sailor Moon S/Infinity (Analysis)

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I’m a huge fan of the Infinity arc of Sailor Moon. I  love it. It’s my favorite arc of the franchise and was my first exposure to the series.  The soundtrack is amazing, the characters are lovable, and there are a slew of amazing scenes.  It is just a wonderful addition to the lore of the Sailor Moon series.

However, I think one thing that some people may have overlooked about this arc is the theatrical and narrative themes.  I believe that if one were to analyze and break down the arc’s themes, they could gain a better appreciation for it.

Join me as I go in-depth in the themes of the Infinity Arc.  I hope that after reading this article, you’ll gain greater love for arguably the best arc of the series.

PART 1

Science and Technology

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‘Yeah, but your scientists were so preoccupied with whether or not they could, they didn’t stop to think if they should.’

Ian Malcom – “Jurassic Park”

The theme of science and technology is one of the best things of the arc.  It’s a refreshing addition to the lore of the series.   While prior villains Queen Beryl and Wiseman were versed in magical arts, Infinity Arc villain Professor Tomoe used science and technology to combat against the Sailor Scouts’.

From genetically engineering superhumans such as the Witches 5 (manga and Crystal anime), transforming his own  daughter  into a cyborg, implanting himself with an alien egg, and constantly performing experiments, Tomoe had various tools of in his arsenal in relation to science.  I mean hell, the man was even blacklisted from the scientific community for his illegal and unethical experiments (manga and Crystal).

The brilliant Tomoe wasn’t alone in using science against the Scouts.  His assistant, Eudial had her own tool set as well.

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Toasty!!

Eudial (of the Witches 5) fought the Scouts using her own tools such as poison gas, a shotgun that exacted a victim’s Pure Heart, a flame thrower that even surpass the strength of the Sailor Scouts,  and perhaps her most dangerous tool; her wits and mind.

While she wasn’t a total genius like her superior, her  wisdom could not be ignored.  The woman even wrote a computer program that hunted down possible owners of pure hearts and the Holy Talismans. In addition, she built a super computer made from peach cans.  Hell, she even worked on dimension transporter device in her downtime.

Granted, she did realize there were fatal flaws with the device. Something that her hater I mean partner Mimete learned the hard way.  Boy did she learn the hard way.

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It was at this moment that she knew, she fucked up.

I can’t forget the more science fiction elements of Sailor Moon S.  The invasion of the Daimons  felt like something out of sci-fi movie; strange aliens from a foreign galaxy attempting to take the  world over,  using humans as their host.  Or whatever cheesy plot they thought of.

Even Mistress 9’s theme sounds like a track from a sci-fi film:

I wonder, was Naoko Takeuchi and the Toei writing staff were on a sci-fi kick during the development of the Infinity manga and anime arc? The sci-fi aesthesis are way obvious.   Cyberpunk and sci-fi culture were dominating and influential in the anime and manga culture of the early 90s. I would not be shocked if Naoko and Toei were influenced by the cyberpunk culuture for the arc.  In any case, the sci-fi elements were a breath of fresh air after compared to two anime season and manga arcs of magic and fantasy.  It brought something new to the series.

PART 2

Father and Daughter

Father, you left me but I never left you
I needed you, you didn’t need me
So I, I just gotta tell you
Goodbye, goodbye

– John Lennon “Mother”

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The father and daughter  narrative isn’t anything new in the series. You have Usagi and her pops, Kenji. Then we have Chibi-Usa, and her dad, Mamoru (and of course, Chibi-Usa’s dark persona Black Lady with  her Electra Complex with Mamoru).

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When he finally lets you call him “daddy”.

Those examples of fathers-and-daughters are stable. However, with the introduction of Hotaru,it broke the mold of the stable father/daughter relationship in Sailor Moon (excluding Rei and her dad, but that’s for another alcohol fuled writing)

The manga and the original anime continuity depict Hotaru and Souichi’s relationship in polar opposites.  To put it nicely, Souichi was a piece of shit to Hotaru in the manga.  The selfish asshole viewed his daughter’s injuries resulted from a fire in his lab as a blessing. Taking advantage of the newfound “blessings”, Souichi fitted Hotaru with cybernetic implants, as well as genetically modified her by infusing the kid with the egg of Daimon Mistress 9 (given to him by Master Pharaoh 90).  Souichi’s selfish actions, and his desire for revenge ruined not only Hotaru’s body, but her life as well.

Hotaru had some well… daddy issues.  She went off on her dad, frustrated with him for allowing Kaorinite  in their house.  She also moped about her dad being consistently away, focused on his research rather than her. Thus, Hotaru felt lonely.

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Just an average day in the Tomoe household.

It doesn’t help Souichi’s case that he only cared about Hotaru to awaken Mistress 9.  In addition, he only saw Hotaru as a science experiment, a perfect hybrid of cybernetic, genetic, and alien technology.   Yea, the dude saved his daughter’s life.  Yet, he only did it to make her into a living puppet.

Sometimes, family ain’t shit.

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There’s something else Kaori likes to suck up from her dad but this is a Christian run blog. There are h-doujins of these two online if you’re into that.

 

Back when I was a child 

Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me’

-Luther Vandross “Dance with my Father”

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When “Take Your Daughter to Work Day” goes horribly wrong.

When it comes to their relationship in the first anime, Hotaru and Souichi were close.  The two loved each other dearly.  Souichi gave up his freewill to Germatoid , in order to Hotaru’s life, who lost it in a lab explosion.  Souichi was supportive of Hotaru, always there for her and made the girl his number one priority.

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Despite not being his fault, Souichi regretted ruining Hotaru’s life.  In his defenese,  he wasn’t unaware that Germtoid made her a vessel for Mistress 9. Souichi even risked his own life to protect Hotaru, taking blows from Mistress 9 and attempted to restore his kid (Even though Mistress 9 used Hotaru’s voice to trick him and Sailor Moon).

While I’m on the subject on Mistress 9, I love the more sinister side of Hotaru and Souichi’s relationship; Germatoid and Mistress 9. Although indirect, they did have some interactions while under the possession of their alien overlords.

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It’s strange to think how opposite their relationship were when comparing the anime and manga. Souichi was willing to save Hotaru, even if it meant becoming a servant to Germatoid. While he was noble for doing so, it did spite him, as Hotaru would become Mistress 9’s vessel.  Souichi had enormous remorse for allowing Hotaru to be possessed, despite he knew it wasn’t his fault. Unfortunately his manga counterpart did not share that guilt.  He felt prideful about his actions, thinking of Hotaru as just a project and not his daughter.

PART 3

Conflict and Division

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Sailor Moon: Civil War

Why can’t we be friends?
Why can’t we be friends?
Why can’t we be friends?
Why can’t we be friends
?

-WAR “Why Can’t We Be Friends”

Most fictional team up will have their time of division and conflict.  The nWo splitting between the nWo Black/White and nWo  Black/Red,  the Avengers splitting up between Team Iron Man and Team Captain America,  and Spider-Man and Venom’s team splitting during the events of Maximum Carnage.   It’s bound to happen.

With the introduction of the Outer Scouts, and their goal of saving the world by any means, including sacrificing the wielders of the Pure Heart Crystal, the Inner Scouts will face their biggest problem yet: Inner conflict and division.   It doesn’t help that the problem increased  with Hotaru revealed as the Messiah of Destruction, but more on that later.

I love the clash between the two teams. Right from the jump, the Outers didn’t play with Usagi’s optimistic, idealistic views.  Hell, they flat out told her to stop being childish and selfish; bigger things were at stake.

Episode 21 of Infinity arc, “The Death of Uranus Neptune?!” expands on this:

Usagi is desperately pleading Haruka and Michiru to join forces with the Inner Scouts.   You can feel her emotions as she wants the pair to unite with her team.  Usagi wants nothing more but to unify her friends.  Despite Usagi positive attitude, Haruka snatches Usagi’s transformation brooch and  gives the girl a chilling warning:

“Don’t ever show yourself in front of us ever again…Sailor Moon.  Or else.”

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Haruka and Michiru ain’t playing games, even if it meant threatening to kill Usagi to save the world.

Speaking of killing, The Outers had no issue with wanting to kill a sickly 12-year-old child, Hotaru Tomoe, whom was confirmed to be the Messiah of Silence, Sailor Saturn.  The second Saturn awakens in Hotaru, the trio went on the attack, not caring if this was a damn kid.  They wanted her dead, for the sake of the great good.

By the way, Hotaru is the best friend of Chibi-Usa, who just happens to be the future daughter of  Usagi.  One of the Outer Senshi is Setsuna/Pluto, who just happens to be a second mother to Chibi-Usa.

So this whole “Kill Hotaru” thing was going to be fun for all parties involved, right?  Two group of allies and friends split into two opposing teams.  You have one team aiming to save the person because it wasn’t their fault that they are a puppet for the bad guy.  Then, you have the other team wanted to kill the person regardless.

Hell, even our heroes weren’t the only ones with team work issues. The Witches 5 (anime) weren’t too keen on sticking together. Mimete and Eudial had their beef with one another.  In Eudial’s defense,  Mimete was a complete and jealous idiot who wasn’t  shit.  Their beef escalated to life-ending heights, with Mimete destroying the break system in Eudial’s station wagon, leading her to a watery death.

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Mimete’s petty shit starting would catch up to her, leading to her own death at the hands of another member of the Witches 5, Tellu.  You see, Mimete thought she was slick, calling up Tellu and pretending to be Professor Tomoe (using a voice changer), reliving Tellu of her duties.  All so she could could take Tellu’s spot in the upcoming mission.

Tellu wasn’t playing that shit.  Boy, she wasn’t playing that shit.

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Man, it’s such a damn shame that even the bad guys, who are supposed to work together in order to defeat the good guys, are beefing.

Teamwork makes the dream work but not with these fools…

 

PART 4

Messiahs

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‘The time has come
O Messiah.  O Messiahs.’
Dragon Ball Z Soundtrack “Day of Destiny – Spirit vs. Spirit”

Messiah of Creation.  Messiah of Destruction. They’re like ying and yang; one can’t exist without the other.  Sailor Moon is the fabled as the messiah; the one whom will bring hope and salvation against the taboo messiah of destruction and death; Sailor Saturn.

We are introduced to the Messiah of Destruction in Rei’s horrifying premonition.   The world is frozen, painted in red.  Rei, (the only person who isn’t frozen), spots a destruction force of light and energy approaching.  It’s dreadful.  As Rei is violently pushed back by the energy, a light shines behind her.  She turns to it and in despair ask is it the Messiah.

The light ignores her cry.  Rei can only watch as the darkness consumes her allies the world. Never get your hopes up, children.

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As the series progress, additional information of the Messiah of Destruction are presented.  In episode 30 of S, we are revisited by Rei’s nightmare.  This time,  there’s a feminine figure with a scythe (hmm…), standing on a cliff menacingly, illumined in a bright white light.  Rei’s vision ends with the figure violently descending towards Rei, bringing her scythe down on the girl ending with blood splatter.

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Rei awakens, recalling the dream.  She notices the figure has a recognizable face, but quite can’t put her finger on who it is.  It’s totally not Hotaru as Sailor Saturn who’s the malevolent messiah.   Trust me; I have never misled people on the internet.

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Not Hotaru.

As for the true Messiah, she is hinted as Sailor Moon. After Neptune’s death, and the revelation of the two being the Talimans wielders, Uranus questions the Messiah.  She asks their deaths were divine punishment for their crimes of their mission.   In her despair, she envisioned the messiah, whom in actuality is an untransformed Usagi.

Usagi envisioned as the messiah is fitting.  Time and time again, Usagi is willing to put her own life on the line for both the world, and her loved ones.  Usagi even risked her life to save Uranus, the same person who threatened her earlier in the episode.

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When the Outers tried to kill Hotaru, Usagi pushed the girl out of the way of a combine energy blast that may had otherwise killed her.  Usagi defends her new friend, stating that it’s not her fault that she is Saturn, and that she shouldn’t have to die.

Usagi still had the drive to protect Hotaru, even after her transformation to Mistress 9. Usagi took an energy blast from Pharaoh 90 head on, (who attempted to kill Mistress 9).  Before that, Usagi attempted to restore Hotaru back to normal by giving her the Holy Grail.  Granted, it was a trick from Mistress 9 (who was using Hotaru’s voice) to manipulate Usagi into giving her the Grail.

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Finally, Usagi tried to save Hotaru (as Saturn), who jumped into the core of Pharoh 90 to kill him and save the world.  Despite being warned by Saturn that she may not survive inside Pharoh 90, Usagi still went in. While Usagi “failed” to save Hotaru, who had  died using her destruction powers,   Usagi managed to recover a reincarnated, newly born Hotaru.

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By the way, did you notice that both Saturn and Moon were introduced as messiahs at right around the same time? It’s like both the Toei writing staff and Takeuchi knew how to directed these two  to meet at the end of the arc. It gives a sense of duality with Saturn, being the Messiah of Destruction, the one who would end the world, and Sailor Moon, the Messiah of Creation, the one who will save it.  Of course however,  Sailor Saturn became the savoir of the world, sacrificing her life in the progress.

‘If you have feelings for other people…anyone can be a messiah.”

-Hotaru Tomoe
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PART 5

Sacrifice

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‘Logic dictates that the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few…or the one’

-Spock
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The narrative theme of sacrifice returns in Sailor Moon Infinity and boy, do they shove it down our throats.  From Uranus and Neptune’s willingness to sacrifice the live of pure heart owners, to the two losing their own lives to ensure the world’s protection, to Profressor Tomoe surrendering  his freewill to save Hotaru in the anime, to  Hotaru herself  giving up her life to save the world, sacrifice plays a huge role in Infinity.

As previously mentioned, Uranus and Neptune’s prime objective was to track down the Holy Talismans, sealed within three Pure Hearts.   The Three Holy Talismans (The Mirror, The Sword, and The Garnet Orb) were tools to summoning The Holy Grail (or Sailor Saturn in the manga/Crystal anime).  Once summoned, the true Messiah will use the Grail’s everlasting power to stop the threating silence and Messiah of Destruction.  However, in order to unseal the Holy Talismans, the Pure Heart owners had to be sacrificed.

As time went on, Uranus and Neptune were revealed to be the wielders of two Talismans (by Eudial). Upon her death, Neptune ‘s Pure Heart transformed to the Deep Aqua Mirror. Once Uranus realized she too held a Pure Heart, she took her own life to exact it, in hopes that Usagi will use the Talismans to summon the Holy Grail and save the world.

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(Of course Uranus and Neptune were brought back to life, so their sacrifices were somewhat meaningless.)

After concluding that Hotaru was Sailor Saturn, the Outer  Scouts decided they needed to kill her in order to prevent the world’s destruction from Saturn.  Take an innocent girl’s life to save countless others.

It’s heavy, isn’t it?

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I do find this funny:  the Outer Scouts wanted to sacrifice Hotaru  life.  The Inner Scouts were all gung-ho against it.  Despite the conflicted groups’ back-and-forth aguring,  Hotaru ‘s life was still sacrificed.  Just not in the way anyone expected.  After Hotaru accepts that she is Sailor Saturn, she jumps into the core of Pharaoh 90, and destroys him, killing herself in the progress, but saving the world and her friends (and of course her father in the first anime).

While sacrifice was always a theme prior and after, I love how it’s portrayed in the Infinity Arc.  It wasn’t just about Usagi, or the other Scouts putting their own lives on the line. Others may have their own life sacrifice if needed be.   Eventually, one life was taken to save the lives of countless others.  This arc did brought up the ethics of sacrifice. It is like to to say is if really okay to (unwilling) sacrifice one person’s life to save the lives of others.

Conclusion

Sailor Moon S/Infinity is my most beloved and favorite of the series.  The narrative themes oof this arc made it interesting and analyzing the themes makes it a renewing experience.  The Science and Technology theme was refreshing in a magic based series. The paralles of the father-daughter relationship of Hotaru and Souichi from the anime and manga were conflciting,  The Outer Senshi brought in something that the Inner Scouts never dealt with in the past: division and in-fighting.  The Messiahs gave the arc a near  religious side to the series.  Finally,  the sacrifice theme presented the issue of is it ethic to take a life of a person to others.

On the surface Sailor Moon S appears to be that of a simple shoujo magical girl series but once you dig into the narrative themes with an analytical mindset you’ll uncover that there are hidden meanings behind this excellent arc.
I hope with this in-depth look of the themes of S you have gained a better apperication for the season as much as I have.  Thank you for taking the time out of your life to read this article.

Thanks to everyone who supported and believed in me.  Thank you so much.

Images Sources:
https://prettysoldierproject.com

 

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A Short Weeaboo Guide to Convention Planning (and Survival)

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With the 2017 convention season starting (and me still angry with people whom won’t shower at these things), I figure that I’ll be nice and give some helpful advice to survive the convention year.   These tips and advice come from my own personal experience such as budgeting, taking care of me, and saving money.  I hope you’ll apply these tips for your convention plans.

The Hotel

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An example of chilling in the hotel during downtime. 

Generally, the convention’s social media page(s) and website will post booking information such as the start date of booking for hotel(s) blocks (reversed sections of the hotel for the event staff, guests, and attendees) .  Once the reservation dates are revealed, mark your calendar. The night before hotel reservation begins,  set an alarm up to an hour early than the time the hotel will accept reservation.  Have your credit/debit card information ready.  If you’re a rewards member of the hotel company (I.E. Hilton HHonors), have that information ready as well.  You may gain points or a discount for being a rewards member.

If booking by phone, please note that everyone and their moms are going to do the same.  You may get put on hold, and there is a chance you may not get the room.  Please, please, PLEASE, do not go off on the operator if this happens.  It’s not their fault.  Be kind to them.

Some hotels may require an one night deposit upon reservation.  This is to prevent last minute cancellation and people hustling and flipping the room(s) to others at a higher price than the average (although the latter is still possible.  Make every dollar.). You best be fully committed.

The Badge

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My Anime Central 2016 badge (do not post images of your ACEN 2017 badges on social media. They’ll banned you from the convention.)

Now that you’ve booked with the hotel, it’s time to pre-register for the badge!   If possible, buy the badge as early as possible when pricing is at its cheapest.  It’s a smart investment.

Think about it: Would you rather invest that $45 on the badge right now, when it is at its cheapest and not worry about saving up, or would you want to stand in line for hours, and pay $75 for the at-the-door prices?  That was $75 for extra food, a cool ass Mystic Gohan figurine at the dealers room, or at least two top shelf liquor for a room party.

If you cannot afford the badge right then and now, stack up and budget for the next tier price.  If the next tier price is $50 in about two months and a week, put aside $10 aside each paycheck for five pay periods, or $25 aside for two pay periods.  Then, once you got your money straight, buy the badge.

Seriously, you do not want to buy at the door.  You’ll lose more money and time that way.

The 3-6-1 Rule

Three meals a day.  Six hours of sleep.  One bath a day.  You think something as simple as taking care of your hygiene, eating, and sleep are easy tasks.  Indeed they are! However, you have those few who don’t follow this rule (especially the bathing part).   To those who will follow these rules, I’ll break it down for ya.
3 Meals a Day: It’s that simple.  Have a healthy breakfast to provide energy until lunch time. Toast, yogurt, eggs, nuts, grains, etc.   If your hotel offer free breakfast, take advantage of that, even if its food you do not enjoy.  Your favorite food is free food.

For lunch, I tend to go with something between a light and heavy meal. A sandwich with chips and another side is a nice go-to lunch meal. It’s not a bank breaker and it doesn’t leave me feeling tired or sluggish because I ate more than I could handle.  Dinner is where you want to eat something heavy, especially if you’re going to be going to a room party with alcohol, the rave, or doing many night time convention things.  I recommend pizza, pasta, fried chicken, etc.  Do not eat too heavily though.

Another helpful tip: Snack between meals such as fruits, nuts,  and those fancy multi-grain bars.  Drink plenty of water as well.  The key is to have energy and  not feel like shit because you haven’t eaten at all.  Ramen and pockey does not qualify as meals.

Yes another helpful tip: If your hotel has  a full kitchen (stove, oven, fridge, etc.) and you know how to cook, cook your own meals.  It’s a money saving tactic and you’ll have leftovers throughout the day.

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Six hours of sleep: Please, get some rest.  You should sleep for about 8 hours a day, but 6 hours isn’t too bad.  If you’re running a panel or event, get as much rest as you can.  There is no shame in resting up and missing out on a few things at the convention to keep  alert and active.

Sleep Tip: Powernaps are wonderful.  If need be, take at least 30-45 minutes every couple of hours  to powernap.  If you’re doing something major such as hosting or partying, try to get at least 1-2 hours of sleep.  Your body and energy levels will thank you.

 

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Nebraskon’s mascot has the right idea! (This blog does not condone the act of vandalism) 

1 Bath/Shower a Day: There is absolutely no goddamn reason for you not to  shower or bathe before going out in public.  A convention is not exempted.  Nobody is trying to smell your nasty ass because you did not want to shower and use hygiene products.  If you’re a cosplayer, plan on changing clothes, or sweat a lot, please take a shower before and after an outfit change.

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The best Fate/Zero girl takes bath.  Why don’t you?

It’s 2017 and we are still debating if people should shower and take care of their hygiene.  Yay for human evolution.

Showering Tip: Beer showers are fun.  And an early sign you might be an alcoholic. Go me!

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Having a beer while taking a shower/bath is relaxing as hell. I suggest that you’ll do this, my 21+ drinking followers! 

But seriously, fuckin’ take a shower and use deodorant.

Budgeting

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Unlimited Budget Works

Ah the fun part for us adults: budgeting for the convention.   In general, the plan is to stack up save up, and split funds for the event.   No one’s budget will be alike from the other guy.  This is normal.   Here’s an example of my budget for  Wizard World St. Louis:

Badge:  $50
Hotel: $217 ($73 for my share between three people)
Food: $60
Misc: $200 (Not required.  For things such as dealer room, liquor/mixers for room party, “vices”, etc.)
Total: $383 ($183 if I removed the miscellaneous items)
Paydays until Wizard: 2

Friend owes me $66.  Use that for the badge
Save $51.14 per check.  Since I’m using the money I’m owed for the badge, this isn’t a huge blow to the budget. Take another $51.14 from income taxes.
Simple budget, yes.  Admittedly, my math may not be right and I’m too lazy to whip out my calculator to get the correct total amount.  You get the picture here.  Just manage your money correctly and save up.

If you’re splitting hotel costs, pay up.  Nobody likes a mooch.

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You don’t wanna end up in this situation if you have yet to pay for your share of a room.

Let me say this: If you cannot afford to go to a convention, don’t go.  If you have needs such as bills to be paid, medical expenses, etc., take care of that first. Skip out on the convention if your money isn’t right.  It’s not worth going broke or screwing up your money just to go to a convention.

The convention ain’t going anywhere soon.  Wait until your money is right and go to the next convention.

‘Let me tell you something: You gotta find the balance between having fun and having funds.’
Nino Brown (American rapper)
I hope my tips will help you in this convention season.  If you have anything else to add please feel free to state them in the comments section!

Have a fun and safe time at the convention(s) you’re going to this year!

 

Art Sources:

YURI!!! On Ice Art:
http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=60232886

Haruhi cosplay:

http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=3265564
Yuyuko and Son Goku eating:
http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=25590837
Best girl bathing:
http://bo.xrea.cc/fate/

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Asian Ghost. White Body. (Freewrite) (MAJOR GitS SPOILERS)

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Matoko: Asian Ghost. Mira: The White Shell.  In the movie, it’s revealed that Mira (or The Major) was in fact, Matoko, before the mind-to-body transfer.  Matoko was an Asian runaway girl who was kidnapped by Hanka units, along with several other runaway children of Japanese  heritage.  After destroying her body, extracting her mind, and injecting it with false memories give her motivation to fight terrorists, Matoko was given the body of that of a white woman.

Prior to that reveal however, Mira runs into an older Asian lady.  The lady welcomes Mira in her house, offering tea.  As the lady and Mira speaks, the lady remarks that Mria’s body language and verbal tones reminds her of her dead daughter, Matoko.  It’s incredibly eerie to the woman.
Hmm…

Anyway, While I’m happy  Matoko wasn’t “white washed” (completely), the scene made me think: Was this all social commentary on the white washing of iconic ethic characters?  You have  Matoko, an Asian woman inside the cybernetic body of a white woman.

Matoko/The Major, an Asian  anime character (we assumed), is portrayed by Scarlett Johansson, an white actress.

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Manga Matoko.  My personal favorite design of The Major.

In a sense, it’s meta. Film Matoko is Asian but why is she in a white body?  Why are iconic anime characters of Japanese descent are being portrayed by  White actors in Hollywood.
It’s probably not that deep or meta.  Hell, perhaps they changed things around to cover up any edvidances of white washing.  Perhaps this was just all apart of the plan.

These were just merely thoughts I played around with at 2 in the morning when I had nothing better to do but to overthink an action film based on a comic book.

 

DISCLAIMER: I’m Black.  Not Asian.  I don’t speak for Asian-Americans, Asians, or all people of color.  White washing is an issue in American films.  I am not okay with it. We all have different views on this shit.
(Gotta get that shit outta the way before people SJWs tumblrinas get mad or 4channers think I’ll support their bullshit I already got people mad at me on Facebook lmfao)

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Neptune and Uranus Aren’t Lovers! (Or How I Thought That Was a Fanmade Rumor)

 

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Just two loving cousins.  Yep.  Nothing else.

So, a funny story on how I discovered that these two weren’t  cousins,  but unrelated lovers.  Gotta love 90s anime  dubbing censorship.

Back around in late 2001, I legit thought Uranus and Neptune being lesbians was a fanmade rumor.  To me, they were just cousins whom interactions  were  just a bit wee too close to be cousins. While browsing the now defunct SailorMoon.org message boards, there were a post about how Neptune and Urnaus weren’t cousins, but a LGBT couple.

 

Due to prior trust issues with the anime community from finding out that  Dragon Ball AF was a fan made project (Thanks Kanzenshuu!), I didn’t  believe they were lesbians.  I refused to believe they were gay as hell! The internet is full of liars and nerds who want to make up bullshit for their sick nasty, OTP incest fanfiction! I decided to dig deeper, discovering sources from fansites such as Sailor Moon Uncensored and Suburban Senshi (one of the longest running Sailor Moon fansites).

It took me nearly an entire day of using 56k dial up services to accept the fact that they were unrelated lovers and not everything is a fan made rumor. Their hand holding scene should had been my first clue.  But I was an innocent 11-year-old kid at the time.

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This was my first clue and it went over my head.  Fuck you Cloverway.

 

 

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Please Bathe or Shower at Anime Conventions

Bait/Zero – Unlimited Clickbait Works

For the convention season,  please take a shower or bath before you head to an anime/comic/sci-fi con.  Nobody is trying to smell your nasty, unwashed, unclean ass because you refuse to take care of basic personal hygiene.  Body odor is not cute and nobody isn’t trying to get sick because your ass do not wanna hop in the shower for 15 minutes and put on some deodorant.  

Trust me, I legit had asthma attacks from overpowering B.O. from unwashed nerds at cons.  It ain’t fun.  

It is 2017 and i should not tell people this but this is the state of the convention community as of this writing.  Hell there’s even a debate on the Anime Boston Facebook group on if people should shower before heading to a convention. An convention group.  Having a debate.  On if you should shower or not. 

Let that stink in.

Art source:

https://touch.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=34307721

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I Don’t Get The Three Episode Rule (Freewrite)

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I never got the “There Episodes Rule” of the anime community.  The “logic” behind this rule is that you should give a series three episodes  to see if it gets good, or worthy enough to continue. 

I personally believe that a show should be good and make a great impression on the first episode.  The first episode should at least have a few things in it that should match your taste so you don’t have to wait for a show to get good.

If I don’t think a show is good on the first episode, I ain’t gonna waste my time on the series.  I have way too many shows on my backlog to get through to worry about shows I’m gonna dropped of the first episode.

Pic related: Attack on Titan,  a show I wasted nine episodes on waiting for it to get good lol.

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Sailor Moon Fighting Games: Wasted Potential (Freewrite)

The more I play the shitty ass Sailor Moon fighting game, the more pissed I get at how this game was pretty much wasted potential.  It had so much going for it.  

 I’m dicking around in training mode of this trash ass, broken ass game playing as Neptune (she plays like Street Fighter’s Ken).  As I’m playing her I’m discovering footies, spacing, crossups, and dash cancels, shit commonly found in fighting games today.  Or back then.  Whatever.

  “Why? Why is the game so ass? This game has so many deep shit you find in other games like this.  What the fuck happen Angel?” I said to myself, utterly disappointed 

Sailor Saturn has two pokes, making her like Karin from Street Fighter if Karin was emo, carried a giant spear, and had borderline daddy issues. Saturn is the fuckin’ space  and footies queen of the game. You can also play her as a keep away/zoning type with her projectiles and Silent Glaive. Too bad Saturn is so broken and unfair that she’s banned. 

(Granted Super S, where she is playable, is an incredibly trash game that is not an enjoyable experience like the anime so that doesn’t even matter lmfao)

Sailor Uranus’s exclusive forward dash can be use as a tool for an unbreakable infinite combo if linked right.  If you get this off somebody they’re gonna rage quit.

Sailor Moon’s exclusive super jump dash thingly can be use to chase down zoners and keep-away players.  Mini-Moon has a double jump that can be used to get out of a bad situation such as a projectile war.

Like seriously, how can a SNES fighting game that was made in 1996 that has so many tools but be so goddamn ass?  

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Yoooo I Need Help

Yooo so I need some help! 

I’m currently  working on my next major writing project on the narrative themes of Sailor Moon S. I’m stuck on figuring out the messiah theme in Sailor Moon S/Infinity.  

I’m confused on who was considered to be the true Messiah: Saturn, who is the Messiah of Silence (who also did saved the world at the cost of her life) or Sailor Moon, who was the fabled Messiah Uranus and Neptune spoke of throughout the arc.

Thanks ya!!

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A Quickie on Why Great Character Design Matter

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Tae Takemi (Persona 5)

Great character design is important for any animated show.  Character design gives subtle context clues on how a character will be portray in either his or her role and personality throughout the series.   Small details can draw a viewer to a character, possibility relating to said character on a deeper level.

On a Shin Megami Tensei/Persona group I’m a member of, there was a “Who’s your Persona 5 Waifu?” topic (I’m trash I know).

I chose Tae and Chihaya based on the information their character design gave me, despite not yet playing Persona 5. I love Tae’s darker, edgier alternate style while I enjoy Chihaya’s more laid back, mellow, and carefree design.

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Chihaya Mifune (Persona 5)

Plus their subcultures that the two portrayed (Tae’s alternate style and Chihaya’s hippie style) are consider “weird” and “strange” by modern standards and I’m a man who is attractive by the weird. There’s that to factor in.

Let’s take Tae’s design (plus I don’t have much time to analyze Chihaya before work):

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The immediate visual clue we see in her design is her lab coat and clip board in her left hand.  This gives a hint to the viewer that there is a great chance that she is involved with the medical or science field.
If we were to analyze her details further, we can see that she sports a stubbed chocker,  dark eyeliner, a necklace with a metal capsule attached, a kinda low-top dress (dunno what they’re call I ain’t a fashion guru) that is high above her knees, a red belt with metal open circles, and platform sandals with exposing straps.  Her hair is unkempt and short, colored with a combination of dark blue and black with jagged edges and blunt bangs.

From this, we can assume that Tae is into the alternate scene. The dark hair, eyeliner, and choker can support my claims.  We can also guess that  she may have a sharp, blunt, and aggressive personality.   All details that  lured me into her character design.    She is also liberal in her fashion despite working in a professional field such as the medical industry.

To think I could figure this woman out from just analyzing her character art and I haven’t Persona 5 yet. I’m proud of myself!

…if I am wrong please correct me about this theory and analyze on Tae.

Character design is important and done right can easily lure a viewer to a character that fits their niche(s). Small visual details and clues can tell much more about a character than words and prior information could provide.
REFERENCE:

Super Eyepatch Wolf – What Makes a Great Character Design

Pretty much influenced me to write this post. 

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Weird Waifus and Fictional Crushes

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I need this image for the clickbait views.

So the other day I created a thread on a Facebook group entitled “Who Is Your Favorite Gym Leader from Pokemon.”  I chosen Sabrina (Natsume for you Nippon-go speaking hardcore/weeaboo fans) from the first generation series (Red/Blue/Yellow)

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Sabrina is pretty damn interesting. I love that she has some cool ass psychic powers; a trait that set her apart from the rest of the gym leaders.  She was also pretty out there with her emotionless state, up until a suicide bombin’ Haunter made her laugh her ass off.

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Man, seeing her laugh was heart-warming. And then Haunter get put on a terrorist watch list.

I imagine she loves fucked up black humor comedy.  She seems like the type.

As I’m hunting down  fan art of the psychic Pokemon leader (and a few NSFW fan art) , in addition of fanart of the Hex Maniac trainer class (who happens to be my favorite trainer class in the series), it dawned on me: I like weird characters.  Not only that, a lot of my fictional crushes/waifus over the years are of the weird and creepy archetype.

Let’s break it down:

You guys know I’m a huge Hotaru/Sailor Saturn fanboy.  She was one of my very first fictional crushes as a kid (or waifu.  Whatever sad weird otaku shit we be callin’ this shit now).  I thought her weirdness and creepiness was amazing, something that made her different from the rest of the cast.

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I hate this character.

When the first Teen Titan cartoon dropped years ago, my two favorite female characters were Raven and Jinx.  I wasn’t a huge fan of neither Starfire or Terra.  Raven and Jinx were superior compare to the two mentioned.  Again, these two  were weird, creepy ass girls who I was attractive to because of their character design.

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When I was getting into the GBA Fire Emblem games, I invested a lot of time, items and in-game money (as well as stats changing cheat codes lol) into the dark mage Sophia to make her my most powerful magic user.       Fuck whatever the elitist FE fanboys said about her being garbage!  I’m was going to make Sophia the best on my file! Plus she was shy, quiet, and had purple aesthetes, so added bonuses! I am very biased.

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She is utter garbage without babying her holy shit

 

Further down in my weebish otaku adult life, I would fall in love and fanboy over characters such as Stocking from Panty and Stocking With Garterbelt, Tharja from Fire Emblem Awakening, and Tae from Persona 5.  The characters I named have this errie, dark gothic  and alternate aesthesis to their design nature.

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Stocking (Panty and Stocking)
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Thraja (Fire Emblem: Awakening)

Hell, now that I think about it, I’m attractive to weird women.  It is natural given I’m a part of the nerd subculture and nerds in general are weird.  Fuck, I weird myself.  I write blogs about anime culture.  I’m writing about crushing on fictional cartoon and video games characters who will never exist.  That’s goddamn weird as hell.

But really, I honest to god think me liking weird, alternate women may parallel to my fictional crushes over the year.  I am also charmed by nerdy women as well but that goes hand-and-glove with weird woman.  If I were to go into details why however,  I would be just repeating myself but with nerdy girls replacing weird ones.  Same shit.  Different toilet.

Weird people are awesome.   And attractive.

 

 

 

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Digibro – Oh Shit…

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“Holy shit!  This is gonna be good!  My lord, this is gonna start some shit within the community!  Can’t wait to get home to watch this shit!”

Just shitalkin other anime youtubers for like half an hour, oh god what have I done’.

As soon as I saw the title of the ever controversial Digibro’s video, I knew I had to hurry up with my work, get home, and watch it.  I could had play the video on my phone while at work, but something of this caliber needed to be experienced a larger screen to be  great detail.

Plus I can’t drink at the job so there’s that.

“Oh fuck, who pissed off this nigga this time? Who is he gonna go in on this time?”
Digibro’s rant videos are like special events for me.   There just this feeling that know there’s gonna be some backlash and butthurt off of his  drunkenly brutal honestly.  It’s a fun time for the anime community.

 

Right off the bat he’s going off on niggas with bravdo.  My dude is straight up telling these cats that  they suck and their videos are garbage.  He ain’t being subtle with disdain either.  He’s name droppin’ like crazy; Mother’s Basement.  AnimeEverday RCAnime.  The Canibal Effect.  My dude  Digi out here callin’ folks out on their “flaws”,
negative” points of their content, and overall “lack” of quailty  This dude doesn’t’ care  and I love it.

He’s like the weeaboo Tupac.

(It is dishearting to hear him talk shit about anime youtubers I do enjoy. I can’t even lie because the people he name dropped do have great content. )

“Oh shit! Oh shit! Oh shit!  Is he trying to start beef with these guys?  Does he want the rest of the community to hate him?  I mean, he already got haters so why not more?  More haters and drama make the world go round!  Haters are motivation!”

As I predicted, the community was shaken up by this.  For the past 72 hours since his rant,  people on both sides have given their views and expressed their feelings.  Some are understanding upset by his words while others are supportive of his rally call to improve the community.  I’m in the middle but I’m learning towards supporting him.

Personally, I don’t think he should have called niggas out and their works like how he did.  But sometimes, you just have to be that guy.  The bad guy; like Scarface.   I mean forreal the liquor was flowin’ in him and certain substance make you tell the truth without a filter.

I do feel Digibro on his stance on the community.  Some people aren’t reaching out to one another and helping folks come up and improve.  People are putting out the same old bullshit and there ain’t much diversity.  It sucks.

Maybe I’m somebody who is way too optimistic for my own good  but I love it when people help each other. We need more diverse content from all range. I want to see this community improve and grow.  I may not be as harsh and brutal about it as Digibro was in his video, but I’ll be direct and blunt.

If I see a flaw in one’s works, I’m going to try to help that person out because I like seeing people improve.   I feel that people should strive to do better in their craft.  I don’t mind it myself when others tell me the areas I need that I need to improve on.  I welcome it.

Also, tell me that I suck and that I’ll never get better.  Not because you wanna feel better about your miserable life but because I’ll prove you wrong one day, work my ass off fixing my flaws, and come up.  Thus so when I come up and fix my weaknesses I can make you angry that I stop sucking. ❤

But that’s just my good ol’ pride talking shit!

What I’m trying to gain from Digibro’s controversial video is the sense of the community helping one another.  We all in this together ya know?  We all want to be successful and we want others as well.  I mean fuck, my homeboys and I are almost always on each other asses on our goals and passion, checkin’ one another and telling each other if they’re doing something wrong, how to correct it.

But that’s just me.

‘The question everybody wants to know is why they got this nigga started?’

-Reporter (Tupac – Bomb First)

The video:

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Naka-Kon: Days 2&3

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Day 2: Saturday
I think I should write small details about the events as they go on during the convention, not at 11 at night on Sunday after the convention is over and memories of what I did are slowly fading thanks to age, alcohol, and other shit.

 

After prepping up, I dragged myself to the convention’s game room.  As a walk there I encounter a few friends who were rather pissed at me (okay, not really pissed but apparently upset).  I had invited them to a room party I was hosting Friday late night/super early Saturday morning.  Nobody whom I invited show up, so I was like “fuck it, I’m going to bed.”

Or so I thought.
Homegirl told me that her and her friends did indeed did show up to my room around 3ish. However, I was knocked the fuck out.  On the realest shit; I thought I was dreaming so I didn’t bother to check on what was going on.

(I’m upset they didn’t wake my black ass up ha ha ha)

Anyway, we decided to walk around the dealer room to window shop because we’re poor adults.  Yay!   Homeboy decides to live stream us for Facebook, give the world a glimpse at what we do at these things.

‘Dammit.  Why don’t I do this live streaming thing for cons?” I asked myself.  Maybe I’m not confident in my voice and speaking.  I’m better at writing my thoughts down and expressing through written word.  Honestly I need to start live streaming my convention adventures.

That’ll be a great idea.  Yes that will.

After a lap around the dealer room, I decided to dip out on my friends and head to the game room.  Holy shit has Naka’s game room went downhill in quality and selection.  There were maybe less than 15 set-ups in this small ass room.  Wow. Great.

In the past, Naka’s game room was like at least three rooms long and had a diverse selection of video games to.  The game room I saw on Saturday was a shell of its’ former self.

The place was lackluster. Naka-Kon, what happened to ya game room?

Normally at a con’s game room, I hit up any Street Fighter set up. SF2-5, EX, SFvX, anything Street Fighter.  I love that series.   To my shock, Street Fighter was nowhere to be seen in the game room.  That’s a red flag.  I do not trust any game room that doesn’t have Street Fighter.

In the absence of Street Fighter 5 I chose to play Blaze Blu: Central Fiction, a game I have little knowledge of . But I love me some animu weeaboo fighting games so BBCF had to do, even if I’m completely free in that game.

 

While waiting for my turn, I wrote  notes of each player and the characters they  were using.  Best study and analysis what character does so I won’t be completely free, right?
Sadly, even with my notes,  I was still getting’ bodied by folks who were light-years ahead of me.  Oh well. That how that shit goes when you barely play a game.

Following my oh-so-great performance in BB:CF (0-5), I left and went back to my hotel in preparation for later plans with friends and room partying.   My room crew was dicking around talking wrestling shit and showing off their toy belts such as the WWE World Tag Team, U.S.  Title, and the World Heavyweight (winged eagle version) Title belts.

 

I want a title belt to have to myself.  Perhaps I should invest in a replica WWF Intercontinental belt.  I should aim to become the Intercontinental Champion of conventions!)

My goofy ass friend lost his autograph ticket dicking around with the belts.  He thought it had slip into another friend’s bag that his championship belt was in.  Tore the room up for this thing until my boy gave up and went to seek if he could get a new ticket.  Found that damn thing in the snow lol.  Dumbass nigga drop it outside lol but hey it happens to the best of us.  I’m not perfect myself.
After that,  I took a power nap.  Gotta be well rested for the parties and pics of cool cosplays…Even though I only did one of those things.  Take a wild guest!

Alright! Made a guess?  If you  that  I only took a power nap and didn’t take pics of cosplayers because of my shyness and some social fears, you’re correct!
For some reason, I lack pictures of cosplayers from my first con of the year.  This could be link to the fact the first con takes me a while for me to warm up.  My confidence to ask for pictures of cosplay isn’t up to what I want compared to say cons later in the year when I have an average of 25-100 pictures a convention.  On the other hand, I think I might suck at reading faces of people and assume they don’t want to have their pic taken or interact with anyone, so I don’t ask for their pics.

This doesn’t help at all when I find people cosplaying from obscure series or characters.

Example: I wanted to take a pic of a Celice (Fire Emblem: Genealogy of the Holy War) cosplayer at the con because holy fucking shit!  I have never seen anyone cosplay from the older Fire Emblem games.  Genealogy of the Holy War doesn’t get enough love in the Western FE fanbase.  Seeing a fellow FE4 fan cosplaying Celice made me incredibly happy inside. Sadly, my courage wasn’t on the same level and my fears prevented me to ask for that picture.

Godammit Benjamin.  Godammit. Why are you like this?

 

Fasting forward into the night (because again, my dumbass should have taken notes), party planning time!  I felt like a grown ass man.  Hosting my own room parties rather than going to them.  Becoming the source for a party for fellow drunken socially awkward anime fans!

One thing I am learning about hosting a room party: You will not start out huge.  Even if you’re promoting yourself and your party, you may not get much folks to come through. Hell, you may only host 3-10 people at the time.

That is okay.

I bet you that the biggest party’s hosts and hostsess who have 20-30 people in their room at one time in their hotel suite started out small, with only maybe 3-5 people.  They had to work their ass off networking and building a rep, but they managed to become popular as fuck through hard work and knowing people and having hosting skills.

 

I’m saying this because my homeboys and I were trying to promote our room party to folks, trying to get them to come to no anvil and success.  We don’t have a rep at Naka nor the powerful social network.

Not yet at least but I’m confident we will in due time.  Things take time.  You try to rush this shit and you’ll become discourage and unsuccessful.

A little back story to make this clear:

We were invited to a room party that was lacking liquor.  My Friends and I decided that it would be best to grab our booze as a donation to the party.  People were happy at the idea, including the hostess.  Sadly as we were getting our shit her party was shut down and everyone went their own way.

Homeboy and his crew were seeking people to link up with us and continued the party but no luck.  I had to tell them “Hey, let’s take this lost and go back to our room.  There’s no shame if things are not going the way you want ‘em to.”

Besides, it’s the first con of the year.  There will be more chances to throw room parties and network with other hosts.

Success is a slow but rewarding process. Don’t rush it.  Don’t become discouraged.

 

Day 3: The Final Day

Ahh Day 3.  The most boring, least eventful day of most conventions.  Everyone is hung over, tired, and worrying about if they caught somebody from the random dude or chick they fucked the night before.  Wrap it up folks.

May I say that we need to end Daylight Savings?  Like what’s the point of that crap?  That shit did not do me any favors for the party hosting and sleep.  Bad enough I only get 5-7 hours of sleep at these things compared to my 7-9 hours of sleep on my normal days.  But daylight savings fuck and everyone else up hardcore.

 

Time to clean up and destroy any evidence of partying, which the hotel probably knew we party but didn’t care cuz we clean up after ourselves and kept our noise down to a respectful level.

Seriously, if you are respectful about your partying and don’t be loud, hotels won’t bother you.  Anyway, after we checked out I decided to give the game room one more chance given I promise my friend I would beat his ass in some fighters.

Let us go back to earlier.  Remember when I said I couldn’t find Street Fighter 5 at the game room?  Well, next to Naka’s console game room is the free-to-play arcade room.  I am going to guess that you guys know where this is going.

Street Fighter 5 was in the arcade room, complete with a custom cabinet from Tokyo Attack. Finally!  A way to give in to my Street Fighter 5 addiction and abuse Karin’s magnificent poking and spacing game!

Only one problem: Arcade uses sticks.  I play on a pad. I suck using sticks. Boy this was going to be fun.

 

I must say, despite not playing SFV in about two weeks and being handicapped on a stick, I did pretty well for myself   I managed to pull off a few of Karin’s bread-and-butter combos with the stick.  Then again, I did drop an awful lot of combos with her and did some increadbliy noobish mistakes like fuckin’ jumpin’ into R. Mika’s Yamamoto summon rather than blocking it.

Take the bad with the good.

 

Finally, after 3 hours of Street Fighter 5 and networking with new players, it was time for my friends and I to hit the road back to St. Louis and plan for our next convention trips.  Naka-Kon was incredibilly lackluster this year.  Many of the panels did not appealed to me or my niches and I did play myself by not going to the one panel I found interesting but I was also drunk and dind’t want to make a fool out of myself.

I am planning to come back next year and hopefully have more success compare to last year.