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Yuki’s Path to DDLC’s Good End: Round 2: Natsuki (Freewrite)

Disclaimer: Possible spelling and grammar error below I’m just knocking this out of my way so I can work on this Hi-Score Girl review.

Round 1: https://yukithesnowman.com/2018/05/15/yukis-path-to-doki-doki-literature-clubs-good-ending-round-1-sayori/

Continuing from where I left off, I was able to obtain the CGs for Sayori’s route in order to unlock the true ending.  Re-playing her route gave me a new insight into her accurate portrayal of people suffering from depression (such as feeling numb, hopelessness, lack of desire, etc.) made me appreciate her character. I want to see more educated takes of characters struggling with mental health in fiction –because done right, it can hit hard.

Since I’ve “completed ” Sayori’s route, I’m going after Natsuki’s next.  I haven’t done her route since my first run through, which is perfect given I need to go through her route before replaying Yuri’s.  Going through Yuri’s route in Act 1 requires me to witness Sayori’s death scene; therefore ruining my plans to get the game’s true ending.

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For cut down on time, any previous read dialogues are being skipped unless I find something interesting and worthy of being talked about.

I like Natsuki. She’s slowly becoming a favorite character of mines. I’ve said this many times, but I hate the tsundere trope in anime – unless a writer puts realism to the trope (as we see with Natsuki).  She’s a “tsundere” but her aggressive, angry nature is a resulted of her being physically and emotionally abused by her father. It’s common for victims of child abuse to struggle with anger issues and develop an inferiority complex. Obviously, Natsuki hides her insecure nature (from the abuse) by acting tough and hard-hearted (but of course, she secretly cares about other people and don’t wanna see them down or hurt).

Playing Act 1 again, I couldn’t help but laugh at MC’s awareness of overused anime archetypes as Natsuki did her little “tsundere” bullshit such as “It’s isn’t like I did this for you” and hiding her love for cute things through acting hard and tough.  It almost made me forget that DDLC was a psychological horror VN.  Almost.  With that said, I can’t help but find some parts of my personality in her (as weird as it might sound).  There are some things I do enjoy that I’m kinda shy to admit (some moe’ blob anime like Lucky Star, classical music, reading about heart-warming stories , and shedding a tear or two at emotional scenes in anime to name a few).

…that’s as far as my softer side y’all gonna get from me.

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The first night of the poem homework for Natsuki went smoothly.  And by smoothly, I cheated and save scummed because I accidentally got a few reactons from Yuri and Sayori that completely override my goal to have MC romance Natsuki.  Eh. I dunno what cute shit fictional girls like. Or real ones at that.  I suck at the romance thing.

After starting over I got MC to interact with Natsuki,.  There’s a hint for shadowing/mockery here as Natsuki talks about her favorite manga,“Parfait Girl” MC makes fun of the cover, which offends Natsuki telling him the old adage of never judging a book by its cover and how things may have more layers than it appears. A subtle jab at the true nature of the game.

I can’t help to think how Natsuki’s character mirrors that of the otaku. Otakus are quick to defend their passions – may they be anime, manga, gaming, etc.. Sometimes, they find inspiration in them (such as with Natsuki becoming a baker and a cook from reading her manga) and opening up to those who also share their passion. Natsuki struggles to share her love of manga with her friends. Every attempt has been met with ridicule by them (since they believe she’s still childish for not growing out of her manga phase).

I’m sure you guys had to deal with this in the past (maybe even today as adults for the older people reading this).  With nerd culture growing ever popular by the day the stereotype of nerds and anime fans being childish and immature is dying. The stigma is still there, but it wasn’t as bad as it was decades ago.

I was able to have MC make Natsuki fluttered with the poem with him writing something that matches her style.  Guess she’s not used to people appreciating and sharing her passion.  I know that feeling.  Doesn’t excuse her from acting goofy about it but I get it.  As Natsuki share her poem with Monika Monika tells MC how Natsuki’s writing style is similar to late author Shel Silverstein: “childish”, but with adult themes and straight to the point by using fewer words than necessary.  I like that lowkey.  I believe that you can say more by saying less and the more you talk and ramble, the less interesting you are to people.

Make people think about what you say and keep them in wonder by saying less.

Everything goes per normal so let’s skip ahead to Natsuki and Yuri’s fight.  Stated in an earlier post (I think, it’s been a while and I don’t feel like searching for it), I went to Yuri because she’s my favorite character and I like her character archetype, but for this one, I went for Natsuki.   She gets happy, proud that somebody like her childish, but blunt writing style.  Real shit,  I get her.  It gets annoying when people talk down about your style (without any advice to improve it, mind you).  When somebody sees the beauty of your style, it reminds you that it is not bad.

You do get a little egotistical, however.

Following the second poem writing,  there’s a funny scene where Natsuki  is struggling to get her manga collection from the top shelf of the clubroom’s closet.   Natsuki, dealing with her short complex, tries to reach for them but fails.  MC tries to help out, but couldn’t, as he was put in an awkward situation – either hold the step ladder  that Natsuki had (while innocently looking up her skirt), or let her fall in which she hits head hard against something, crack it open, bleed out and die; thus ending her route and the game .  The two fall down and shit scatters, with one of her manga being damaged.

(…okay so she didn’t fall to her death.)

Natsuki gets upset, snaps off on MC, but then starts to  cry, saying things like “I’m just having bad day” and “every day, it just gets harder”.  Subtle hints to Natsuki’s homelife and being abused by her dad.  Of course, you won’t catch it on your first run (unless you read the spoilers).  You assume that Natsuki acting childish or overreacting, not knowing that her acting out is a result of her stressful home life.  Over time, it’s going to take a toll on any child dealing with abuse.

There was an interesting theory I came across on a DDLC Facebook group months back that not only Natsuki’s dad belittles her for reading manga, it’s possible that he may have destroyed a few from her collections.   It’s not uncommon for abusive parents to destroy their children’s personal items. I have friends who during childhood, their parents would break their things as a form of “punishment”.

Natsuki could be hiding her manga at the clubroom to avoid any further damage from her dad.  Monika fucking with her collection adding to how horrible her home life is only fueled by Natsuki’s paranoia that she may lose her manga – her way out of reality for a little bit. Really wish Dan did more with Natsuki character.  There are layers about her that need to be explored.

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Continued in  Round 2 Part 2.

(before I go I gotta say some of you Natsuki fans need Jesus)

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FREEWRITE: Bosses and Fearing Nothing

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“Rock’s here!  You miss it earlier, he was on a rampage nitpicking every little thing. ” My coworker informs me on our regional manager “Rock” was on  going off on everyone (sans me given I just arrived).

Oh.

“Damn, that bad huh?”  I replied nonchalantly.  I wasn’t concern about “Rock” (name changed cuz I’m not trying to get fired yet), or fearing  his arrival.  I was warned about his visit earlier in the week.  The prior warning gave me time to do my mental training and  job preparations.  Furthermore, I’ve been working both harder and smarter to improve my section and my work ethics (although admittedly I’ve been slacking in some areas).

As fucked up as this sounds, I’m laughing at everyone’s fears (in the inside, of course I would get fired if I did  that externally). At this point, we ‘re informed about Rock’s expectations.  Yea, it’s annoying that dude is in town, but that we expected it.  Adapt or die.

In my time researching (and now owning an actual copy of) the 48 Laws of Power, analyzing the mindset of superiors, being interested on how business are run, and my own desires of being a boss, I figured this out: The only reason why we were trippin’ off Rock’s arrival is because he’s a boss.  Bosses make their worker’s “fear” them. It’s how power works (at times).

Yet, given I’m evolving my own mindset of becoming a boss, and knowing that Rock has to answer to  ahis own bosses despite being a boss, what is there to fear from him?

As long as we’re doing our shit on the daily, and feeling confident in towards our work ethics,  we shouldn’t  worried about this dude.  And on the flip side, he shouldn’t worried if we’re doing what he expect us to do when he come through.  It’s that sense of security; we can put each other’s minds at ease if we perform to our expectations, and beyond.

Hell, I’ve been had this mindset since my second job (working at the Missouri Botanical Garden’s restaurant).  When news of the CEO’s arrival, everyone sans a few cooks and I were in fear.  We both knew what the CEO expected from us, and given that we respected his position of power, I made sure when dude came to our kitchen, and I had it as clean and neat for him.

Plus, my former bosses informed the GMs on my hard work, so my on the line (guard ya rep no matter what ya’ll).  If the CEO would have seen a kitchen a mess, it would not only look bad on me, but my bosses and GMs who told him about my work.  I don’t wanna make people look like liars off my bullshit.

 

I’m not fearful of Rock, but rather respectful of him and his position. As a boss he has to make sure we’re doing our work so he can feel secure about his position.  Because trust me, if he let our bullshit slid, that would be on his head with bosses and that wouldn’ be great on our end.  Plus I interactived with the dude a few times in the past, he seems like he’s chill if he’s not on boss mode, so there’s that.

 

I guess I think differently from my fellow coworkers and the average worker.

 

(I know this is different from my usually writings but I haven’t wrote anything in a while due to my own laziness, and this idea was in my head all day.  Plus, I need to sharpen my writing skills).

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“I Wanna Be Like Dr. Tomoe When I Grow Up!”

Yesterday  during my lunch break at work, I was listening to Grant Cardone’s (American author and CEO)  interview on his 2016 book “Be Obsessed or Be Average” (great book I  highly recommend if you have giant dreams).  During it, he brought up a childhood dream (an obsession even) of on becoming like fictional  movie spy James Bond when he grew up (having the hot women, flashy cars, infinite cash flow, etc.).  Cardone’s reflection of his childhood dreams and goals reminded myself of my own innocent dream of becoming like Dr. Tomoe; villain of Sailor Moon S.

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Yes, that Dr. Tomoe. The crazed cracklin’, evil science experimenting, nutjob ass dude with the clichéd evil badguy laugh.  That is the Dr. Tomoe I’m talking about.  As a child,  I wanted to be like him as a kid (I was a weird kid).    Why?  Well, here some reasons why!

Going back to  a previous post, my very first episode of Sailor Moon had the infamous fake orgasms  Twister game with Mimete and the reminding Witches 5. We see Professor Tomoe enjoying (albeit creepily) his all-female staff playing Twister in short shirts, lab coats, and high heels.  Tomoe enters the room and the women welcome him warmly.  After debriefing Minmete on her next mission, Tomoe continue the game of Twister with the other women, taking pleasure in being surrounded by smart and sexy science lady nerds .

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“I wanna be like Dr. Tomoe when I grow up!” I declared!  What ten-year-old male doesn’t wanna grow up to have a secret lab filled with sexy science nerds, man?

“He has women in high heels and lab coats playing Twister with him. I want that in life. Also I wonder if he’s fucking all of them behind their backs.  I would do that too if I was him.”

Oh ten-year-old me was full of hopes and dreams.  Oh Ben.  You were so innocent back then!  But really, that one definite scene  inspired me to work and learn hard, so that one day I could be like that creepy blackface paint like science man on the new anime.

To have the beautiful women working for me and  my business. Ten-year-old wanted that.  Today? I still want that.  Create humanoid  monsters from alien eggs to take over the world. Ten year old wanted that shit. Me today? I would get locked up for unethical science experiments and terrorism.

As ten-year-old me continued to watch Sailor Moon S, I was impress by Profressor Tomoe and what he had.   I was quickly inspired by the man, with him becoming one of my favorite characters in the series. The business. The school he founded.  The money and giant house.  And the women.

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Kaorinite.  Tomoe’s  beautiful (and incredibly crazy) lab assistance.  I mean, no wonder he hand selected her to be his personal assistance.  I mean she’s straight up beautiful, smart as fuck, has big ol nice ass cow tits, and probably has a S-rank  blowjob game in bed (hey I’m just saying).

For her character arc in the beginning of the S, to  her first death, and finally her second death at the hands of Mistress 9, Kaorinite was by Tomoe side.  My dude Tomoe had a fine ass chick by him at nearly all times.  She must had been that special because he brought her back to life after her first death at the hands of the Sailor Scouts.

I want a Kaorinite in my life (sans all the crazy homicidal shit and her abusiveness towards children [poor Hotaru]) Like,  a fine ass sexy woman by my side when I become a successful person.  Introduce her to at a party  or an event and everyone starts looking at her.  Have  their breath taken away from not only her beauty and grace, but her presence and wisdom.  Have people hate on me because I have her and she doesn’t not.

Finally, the last factor that made me go “I Wanna Be Like Dr. Tomoe” was his powerful  relationship with his daughter, Hotaru.

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Despite being incredibly busy with his personal work, Tomoe made time to spend time with Hotaru.  It’s clear that they’re close as Hotaru happily introduced Chibi-Usa to him (but that’s for another post).  At the final few episodes of the S arc, Professor Tomoe is risking his life to save and protect Hotaru (after she transformed into Mistress 9 See, that’s a real ass father.  Taking time off  time to take care of daughter. Then we have his willingness to protect her at all costs, by any means.

Granted, personally I don’t want kids anytime soon (or ever), but if I ever had a kid, I would done the same he did with his kid.  Take the time from my own shit to be around them. To protect them at all cost.

As a kid I had this innocent, but wild dream to be like a fictional cartoon anime character.  I want what he had: beautiful women (the Witches 5 and Kaorinite), the money and own business,  the nice mansion, and family.  Am I working on that childish dream today as an adult?  Yes.  It might be taking slower than I want but I know I can get it if I push myself.

Thanks Professor Tomoe! your crazy ass inspired me to become a man like ya.

 

(Fuck Crystal/Manga Professor Tomoe tho.  That nigga’s a piece of shit.  Don’t be like him.)

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FREEWRITE: Haruhi Suzumiya and Law 6 of the 48 Laws of Power

‘Law 6: Court Attention at All Cost’

-Robert Greene, author of the 48 Laws of Power

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To say that Haruhi Suzumiya (The Melachonholy of Haruhi Suzumiya) is a bit of an attention whore is a grave understatement.  Haruhi lusts for attention.  She demands notability.  She wants all eyes on her like Tupac.  To Haruhi, the world should  and must revolve around only on her. (of course, she’s God after all, so she’s not. She’s not wrong to think that [despite unaware of her godly reality wrapping powers]). Every day, she makes an effort to be noticed, to have people know her name, and who she is.  She doesn’t care if people speak of her in a negative light; it keeps her name circulating. She loves it.

Haruhi  doesn’t want to fade in the background.  She does not want be average, or one of faceless many in the world. Haruhi’s drive is to become extraordinary and different from the rest of the world.  To understand this drive, we must look at her flashback scene from episode 13 of season 1.

‘So I figure I would change myself in middle school. Let the world know that I wasn’t a girl content with sitting around and waiting.’
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As they’re walking home from school, Haruhi tells Kyon the story of her family going a baseball game as a child. Haruhi was amazed at the sight of the overflowing, sold out stadium. She believed that the entire population of   Japan came together at the venue to watch baseball.  When she asked her dad about the number of people in attendance, he told her around 200,000 people. These people, including herself, only made up very small fraction Japan’s population (around 128 million during the show’s original run in 2006).  After returning home from the game,  she did the math, breaking down the attendance , compared it to the entire population of Japan, and discovered that it only made one two-thousandth of the population of Japan.

Haruhi was just one of many. A  drop in the massive and everlasting ocean.

Realizing this, she no longer felt special.  Haruhi was just like everyone else; doing the same shit (brushing her teeth, eating breakfast, going to school, etc.).  Life became boring. What’s life when you’re just like everyone else? Maybe in the world, there was somebody amazing, unique, and extraordinary And yet, it wasn’t her.

At this  revelation,  Haruhi  had to  stand out from the rest of the world. She to get up and demand change by her own will. To  not become content with being average.  She had to make her mark in the world by any means. To court attention at all cost.

 

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Be obsessed or be average.’

-Grant Cardone, American CEO, Author, and motivation speaker

 

Later, Haruhi set out to achieve her dream of being noticed and not average. On her first day of high school, she proudly introduces herself and states that she isn’t interested normal humans.  Rather, she wants to meet with time travelers, aliens, and espers. This caused a stir in her homeroom, making people think just who the fuck is this childish girl, and why does she still believe in such things at the age of 15?

Throughout the series, Haruhi attempts (and mostly succeed at) various actions to be noticed.  She devolved a system to change her hairdo by style (she even went as far to wear a different hair ribbion each day).  She stripped down from her school uniform into her gym clothes, not caring if her male peers were watching. She attempted to join every school club, only to dip out from each and forming her own club: The SOS Brigade. She stole the show at her school festival, filling in for a sick guitarist ( revealing that she’s an amazing musician in her own right). All in the name of courting attention.   She places herself at the center of it all, regardless of what others may think.

It’s her world.  She just want all the attention.

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‘A normal life’s boring’

-Eminem, American Rapper

Haruhi’s World art source:
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FREEWRITE: ZUN, and the Passion of the Craft

The other day,  I was browsing through a Touhou fangroup  on Facebook when I came across an topic: ZUN’s networth, and how much money he makes off his games and other products.  We threw in our (not so educated) guesses out, ranging from being completely broke due to his alcoholism love for beer, really broke from snorting cocaine off the asses  of  Sanae  cosplayers at Comiket, to being incredibly well off from the games, his day job (network programmer), and having some passive income (apparently he invested in  a brewery in Japan [yay sin investments] and SONY is giving him passive income for the PS4 Touhou games,  but neither statement  has not yet been confirmed).

Somebody brought up an article with statements from ZUN . Zun states that even  if he wasn’t making money off to make Touhou games, he would still make them regardless, as he is passionate about game design.

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To ZUN, that’s a shot glass.

(ZUN reminds me of another doujinshi game designer and writer, Ryukishi07 [When They Cry series creator], another dude who loves making games just for the joy for it, but that’s for another freewrite)

ZUN  spreads the lore of Gensokyo (the fictional land of Touhou), not for the love of money, but for the love of his fans and  his passion of storytelling.  ZUN finds fulfillment from his craft, his art.  Naturally, everyone in the topic started to respect him more than ever (ZUN seems like a very cool and chill guy). This got me thinking a bit; am I doing this writing  thing for fame  and money, or am I doing this because I love writing and I want to share my views to the world?

Or to go a little deeper; is there a greater sense of fulfillment by working on my passion so I can spread my words to the world?  Do I want to influence others and have them think about anime and otaku culture on a deeepr level?  Or am I doing this for my own pride and ego?

Maybe one day I’ll find the answer.  Maybe one day I’ll become just like ZUN and keep pushing out my writings because I find it fun and I want others to be happy and find joy from it.  Thanks ZUN, not only for your hard work, but also inspiring me to work on my passion for the joy of it!

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“Real Niggas Do What They Wanna Do. Bitch Niggas Do What They Can Do.” (Freewrite)

I’m a 90s hip-hop fan, with the late Tupac Shakur as one of my favorite rappers from the era.   “Staring Through My Rare View” (which the title of this freewrite is from),  is my favorite work by the legend, as to me, can describes one own desires of achieving their dreams , goals, and how one yearn to reach  their personal level of success by any means.

As stated from an earlier post about my pride and ego, for most my childhood and teen life, I was told I’d never be successful with having a learning disability and being in special education.  Overtime I managed to prove the doubters wrong . However, with recent unwanted interactions from a toxic person ()whom I had cut off a year ago) who decided to remind me of my past struggles, my pride and ego has been working overtime to prove yet another doubter wrong to say the least.

This is where the line “Real niggas do what they wanna do” comes to play.

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I do not know what’s going on in my head (in combination with my desires), but I have this drive to do whatever the fuck I please in order to reach what I want in life, or at the very least, achieve  my own personal short or long terms goals  then move forward to the next one.   Even with things not going how I want it right now, me starting on this anime blogging (and now “vlogging”) journey at an late age compare to most others, and working full time, I still gonna do whatever I want to gain higher success.

Massive success even.

There’s more from life I want then just doing the same shit everyone else is doing.  I wanna new shit rather than doing the same old bullshit from last year.  Maybe this what Haruhi Suzumiya probably felt when she realized she can do whatever she pleased  on that fateful day of realization watching baseball with her dad (gotta keep this somehow anime related).

So, I’m just going to keep doing me. Do whatever I wanna do in life, and for my passion.

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On My Pride, My Ego, My Ambitions, and Helping Others (Freewrite)

The other day on Facebook, I created a status about haters. I stated if you have them, you’re making moves.  My homegirl, who’s incredibly infamous in her field, and have a lot of haters, replied with “YES I DO LOL!”.  I asked “How can I get more haters fam!” given she’s the expert of gaining them.

 

She followed up with some real shit.

“Do you want my honest opinion?  Your ambition isn’t that high.  You have form, but no clear refinement, or clear purpose, or agenda.  Set the path up for yourself to contribute something worthy of recognition towards society and the haters will come and drove.   Stop practicing your trolling skills online doing nothing.  Instead of trolling to seek hateres, use your social skills to improve people’s lives, and make a positive impact for both their lives, and your own.”

(The last sentence is a paraphrase, but whatever.  The message is still there)

This made me think hard about myself, and my life goals hardcore.

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Ever since I got back from Anime Central, my ego, arrogance levels, and pride, were growing larger.  I managed to  successfully run a room party with my friend (bartending the party), made new contacts, expanded my network, and managed to promote my blog and brand.

My ego was on an all-time high.  I felt unstoppable, and needed to reach higher and yield more results, but just for myself, Nobody else.

Years of being the underdog, belittled, bullied, and people calling you a failure at life because you were in special education for academics weaknesses does that to your ego; make it larger after success.  Sans a handful of people, who I guess saw I had more potential than what I gave myself credit for (growing up with low self-esteem issues is a bitch),  people counted me out, telling me I’ll never be successful.

For years, I just let that shit bottled up inside me, trying to ignore it subconsciously.  However, it manifested itself into pride, and a sort of “revenge mission” against the haters, doubters, and niggas who belittled me.
The breaking point of this was when my brother, who I haven’t talked to a year (due to his own petty bullshit) decided to randomly text me, calling me a failure, a retard, and a loser who’ll never do anything with my life. He went on to compared me to our uncle, who (in my brother words “a fucking failure”) . That shit made me berserk, and made my focus to produce more work.

I wasn’t working to make others enjoy my work.  I was working to feed my ego, and stunt on this family member. I’m gonna admit something; My Sailor Moon S’s analysis  and my analysis on Hitagi’s mental state  were results from my anger towards this family member who was doubting my success (the last two themes  of my Sailor Moon S analysis was rushed just so I could prove a point and prove this man wrong, not because I was passionate)
‘I WILL be successful and I make every last one of ya who counted me out or made me felt bad about myself regret saying all that shit.’

-Benjamin’s Pride.

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My current cover pic on Facebook.  Updated out of pure pride.

When my friend (and another one whom I spoke to in private) to me I could do so much more by helping others with my skills, rather than using them  just feed my ego, and increase haters, it awoken something in me: The drive to help others.

I’ve known and befriended many people over the last seven years of my life.  I can easily help them, and more.

Saw a friend  who was upset with their family fuckin’ with them (not going into details, as that’s their busssiness), and I figure “Well, guess I better put whatever fucking skills I have to good use and help this friend out.”

Besides, I’m so used to dealing with an insecure family member’s petty bullshit.  Let me use my experience with them to help my friend feel better and have a space to get out their anger.  If I can make my friend feel better, and push themselves to prove their family members wrong, then I guess I’m on the right path.

Another friend was having problems letting go the past, being insecure, and confidence issues.  Three fields I’m an expert in! Not going into details (because again, I don’t wanna put their business out there), but I told my friend she need to focus on herself first and foremost.  Find something that she’s proud of that she done, and build confidence off that.  In addition, taught her that it’s normal to have insecurities, but to also work and improve them, so she can be more secure and happy with herself.

When she told me that she was glad she was able to speak to me about those topics, that legit made me happy.  Another friend is feeling better about themselves, because I helped them out.

May I say, happy others really feel good?  Perhaps I really should focus on that skill, and build up my ambitions through helping.

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Queen Beryl or: How (Unrequited) Love Makes People Crazy (Freewrite)

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I wonder, how Queen Beryl could let her love for King Endymion consumed her so much, that she allowed herself to be control by Metalia, and murdered an entire kingdom. Did she felt entitled to his love or something?  I understand love can make you do many a crazy things, and boy did this woman did some crazy ass shit.

Beryl caused a young girl to commit suicide after murdering her family and friends. Not just muderer that girl’s love ones, but she also slaughtered an entire kingdom.  All because she couldn’t get some dick from the dude she was crushing on.

Maybe Endymion and Beryl had a small chat one day and my dude knew she was crazy as fuck, and was like “Nah.”

This woman was a low-level sage who overtime, became corrupted by power and love.  Unrequited love mind you. She legit thought she could let a king fall in love with her commoner ass.

Girl who the fuck you think you are?  Stay in your place.

But forreal, how did her seemly innocent crush evolved into pure jealously and hatred towards Princess Serenity?  Why was she driven to the point of mass murder over love?

“What you won’t do for love” doesn’t mean slaughter an entire population, Beryl.  I’m sure Bobby Caldwell wasn’t on that shit when he wrote that song.

 

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These are the things I think about on my off day, when I make no plans to kick it with the homeboys, and I have nothing better to do but to overthink about fictional Japanese cartoon and comic characters while listening to vaporwave.

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Work/Grind While They Sleep (Freewrite)

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Recently, I came across my new phase; “Work While They Sleep, Grind While They Party”.   To break it down to even simpler terms,  take advantage of your rivals and competition’s  partying and sleeping ways.  Work your ass off while these sleep and party.  Get a head start of the game before the others.

A couple of my posts (such as my Sailor Moon Infinity analysis and my recent analysis of Hitagi Sengahara’s mental health analysis), were done at night, for about 2-5 hours a night.  Other were done at night and the next morning, with me taking a 6-7 hour sleep form between those time, and before I head to work.

I like this phase.  It’s a movation tool to work harder to reach my goals.  Moviation for me to work on my passion so I donot have to work for anyone else in my life.

Yea it sucks to sacrifice nights of partying, and hours of sleep, but I rather spend the nights working on my blog, posts, and learning about the anime industry  I want to make a name out myself.  A legacy even.  .

Don’t get me wrong: partying with yout friends every once-in-a-awhile is cool.  You shouldn’t isolate yourself from the crew.  Sometimes, you need a night to relax and enjoy yourself.  Just don’t makie it an hobby.

Work while they grind.  Learn while they sleep.  It’ll be worth it for your futre.

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I Don’t Get The Three Episode Rule (Freewrite)

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I never got the “There Episodes Rule” of the anime community.  The “logic” behind this rule is that you should give a series three episodes  to see if it gets good, or worthy enough to continue. 

I personally believe that a show should be good and make a great impression on the first episode.  The first episode should at least have a few things in it that should match your taste so you don’t have to wait for a show to get good.

If I don’t think a show is good on the first episode, I ain’t gonna waste my time on the series.  I have way too many shows on my backlog to get through to worry about shows I’m gonna dropped of the first episode.

Pic related: Attack on Titan,  a show I wasted nine episodes on waiting for it to get good lol.

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Thanks, Son Goku! (Barely Edited Freewrite)

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Goddammit Goku…

Imagine this: Your homeboy gets you caught up in his bullshit.  You had no involvement to his actions prior but this doesn’t mean anything.  Your careless ass friend managed to drag you into their mess. If you do not get involved, the  dire consequences will impact not only him but you as well.  And it ain’t gonna be pretty.

In the recent episode 78 of Dragon Ball Super, Goku is that careless friend.  Goku manged to drag his associates, friends, and family into his bullshit.  Goku defiantly went against Beerus’ prior warning to not to remind Lord Zeno (Zen-Oh-Sama) of the Tournament of Power.
The Tournament of Power (a.k.a the Omni King All Universe Survival Tournament)  the all universe tournament hosted by Lord Zeno, king of all.  There are no rewards in this tournament sans your universe not being wiped out of existence if you’re declared victor in addition to using the Super Dragon Balls. There’s at least that.  Yay!

So, because Goku wants to fight so badly he endangered not only endanger his friends, family, and planet, this man put the existence of his universe at risk of being wiped out.

Goku, for the very first time in his life, has to take responsibility for his actions. Beerus had to threaten him  to do it of course.  Thank god for you Beerus.  Thank god for you.

Goku enlists his son Gohan and friend, Majin Buu to fight in this tournament and explains If they lose, goodbye to their  universe existence. Mr. Satan tags along but he ain’t doing shit. They ain’t too please about Goku getting them all caught up.

They ain’t the only ones you know.  You already know word got  spread quick about this tournament.  You already know you got niggas from all 12 universes who want to come after Goku.  They have to fight  not just for surivivial, but for their existence because Goku needed a good challenge.

Nigga you need your ass beat.