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What NOT To Do At Cons DJkillzone Feat. weebtrashyuki (Collab Video)

 

Audio collab between my boy DJ Killzown Jones and myself.  With the convention season well into the summer season, DJkillzown and I figure we will be nice and give nice audio guide on NOT to do at cons.

TOPICS INCLUDE:
Cosplay is NOT Consent
Respecting Personal Boundaries
Personal Hygiene
Ghosting Cons
Alcohol/Drugs Consumption
Hotel Partying
Creeping on Women

TEXT VERSION COMING SOON!!!

DJ Killzown Jones’s social media accounts:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCwO0lojnveRjDrVyJyl167A
https://www.facebook.com/Killzown314/?ref=br_rs

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FREEWRITE: Haruhi Suzumiya and Law 6 of the 48 Laws of Power

‘Law 6: Court Attention at All Cost’

-Robert Greene, author of the 48 Laws of Power

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To say that Haruhi Suzumiya (The Melachonholy of Haruhi Suzumiya) is a bit of an attention whore is a grave understatement.  Haruhi lusts for attention.  She demands notability.  She wants all eyes on her like Tupac.  To Haruhi, the world should  and must revolve around only on her. (of course, she’s God after all, so she’s not. She’s not wrong to think that [despite unaware of her godly reality wrapping powers]). Every day, she makes an effort to be noticed, to have people know her name, and who she is.  She doesn’t care if people speak of her in a negative light; it keeps her name circulating. She loves it.

Haruhi  doesn’t want to fade in the background.  She does not want be average, or one of faceless many in the world. Haruhi’s drive is to become extraordinary and different from the rest of the world.  To understand this drive, we must look at her flashback scene from episode 13 of season 1.

‘So I figure I would change myself in middle school. Let the world know that I wasn’t a girl content with sitting around and waiting.’
-Haruhi Suzumiya

As they’re walking home from school, Haruhi tells Kyon the story of her family going a baseball game as a child. Haruhi was amazed at the sight of the overflowing, sold out stadium. She believed that the entire population of   Japan came together at the venue to watch baseball.  When she asked her dad about the number of people in attendance, he told her around 200,000 people. These people, including herself, only made up very small fraction Japan’s population (around 128 million during the show’s original run in 2006).  After returning home from the game,  she did the math, breaking down the attendance , compared it to the entire population of Japan, and discovered that it only made one two-thousandth of the population of Japan.

Haruhi was just one of many. A  drop in the massive and everlasting ocean.

Realizing this, she no longer felt special.  Haruhi was just like everyone else; doing the same shit (brushing her teeth, eating breakfast, going to school, etc.).  Life became boring. What’s life when you’re just like everyone else? Maybe in the world, there was somebody amazing, unique, and extraordinary And yet, it wasn’t her.

At this  revelation,  Haruhi  had to  stand out from the rest of the world. She to get up and demand change by her own will. To  not become content with being average.  She had to make her mark in the world by any means. To court attention at all cost.

 

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Be obsessed or be average.’

-Grant Cardone, American CEO, Author, and motivation speaker

 

Later, Haruhi set out to achieve her dream of being noticed and not average. On her first day of high school, she proudly introduces herself and states that she isn’t interested normal humans.  Rather, she wants to meet with time travelers, aliens, and espers. This caused a stir in her homeroom, making people think just who the fuck is this childish girl, and why does she still believe in such things at the age of 15?

Throughout the series, Haruhi attempts (and mostly succeed at) various actions to be noticed.  She devolved a system to change her hairdo by style (she even went as far to wear a different hair ribbion each day).  She stripped down from her school uniform into her gym clothes, not caring if her male peers were watching. She attempted to join every school club, only to dip out from each and forming her own club: The SOS Brigade. She stole the show at her school festival, filling in for a sick guitarist ( revealing that she’s an amazing musician in her own right). All in the name of courting attention.   She places herself at the center of it all, regardless of what others may think.

It’s her world.  She just want all the attention.

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‘A normal life’s boring’

-Eminem, American Rapper

Haruhi’s World art source:
http://photobucket.com/gallery/http://s634.photobucket.com/user/MawsCM

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THEORY: On the Source of Kale and Her “Legendary Super Saiyan” Power (Part 2)

In my last post,  I  explored  bullying as a possible source of Kale’s rage, which served as a catalyst for her faux “Legendary Super Saiyan” state.  Supported by theories such as her  shyness , timid nature, and socially withdrawn, I theorized that Kale may had been bullied in the past, and  bottled her anger of being bullied within her.  Bottled up until Cabba managed to enrage her, sending her over the edge, and triggering her transformation.  Caulifla managed to chill her friend out, telling her that she wasn’t into Cabba romantically (which Cabba  assumed was the source of Kale’s anger from his interactions with Caulifa).  Hearing this, Kale reverts to her normal state and passes out with a smile on her face.  Kale was pleased to know that the two weren’t that close and that her mentor respects her.  Maybe Kale likes Caulifa beyond that of a friendly relationship, and seeing Cabba and Caulfia all chummy with each other might had been the cause of her rage.

Is jealously the true link to Kale’s rage?  Let’s examine this theory!

In the previously episode, Kale is “spying” on Cabba training Cauifla to become a Super Saiyan.  She smiles when Caulifla snaps on Cabba for making her angry.  Kale becomes at awe, amazement ,and admiration  when Cauifla obtains Super Saiyan with ease.  Kale is impressed by her mentor’s achievement, but beats herself up as she states she could never be a Super Saiyan like her.  Later (in the following episode), Cabba and Caulifla are encouraging Kale how to become a Super Saiyan.  Cabba attempts first.  He focus his energy and displays the Super Saiyan form to Kale, who is completely unimpressed by his power.

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Caulifla encouraging Kale. 

When Caulifla shows Kale her Super Saiyan transformation, she starts blushing and flash a bashful smile towards her.  It’s clear that Kale is more impressed by Caulifla’s efforts.  Perhaps Kale has a secret gay crush on Caulifla or just really looks up to her.

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Either way, Kale has a strong interest towards Cauifla.  Too strong maybe, as Kale ggets rather jealous with Cabba and Caulifla’s interaction.   Kale assume that they’re too friendly just to be that close.    It’s possible that Kale gets jealous quick.  A little too jealous for the good of her friend’s sake, and her own sake.

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Kale: The Yandere

Kale’s jealously (and inner rage) hits maximum  when Cabba and Caulifla are trying their absolute damn best to help Kale tap into the power of the Super Saiyan.  After a barrage of insults by Cabba, Kale becomes agitated and discouraged.  She loses hope of becoming a Super Saiyan, telling Caulifla that she’ll never reach that level, and that she’s just an useless and pathetic excuse for a  Saiyan.  Cabba’s words triggered Kale’s emotional state, causing her power to soar. She loses control of all sense and self awareness and finally achieves the Super Saiyan transformation!  However, there’s something  quiet different about transformation compared to Cabba and Caulifla.

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Kale transform into a hulking monster, influcned by her rage and jealously.  She focus her attention towards  Cabba, and vows to make him her first victim.  She lunges at the man with furious anger, completely ignoring Caulifla, who seems to be pretty excited that her friend achieve a greater level of Super Saiyan.   As Cabba and Caulifla tries to combat against the berserk Kale,   Cabba theorized that Kale’s  rage is rooted in assuming that  Cabba and Cauifla were a bit wee too close to be just friends.

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Caulifla just scoffs at Cabba’s theory and tells Kale that she isn’t so cheap that she would be romantically involved with such a low class Saiyan like Cabba (ouch).  Kale hears this, and stops her attack.  Caulifla then praises Kale, admiring her superior power.  Kale calms down, reverts to her base form, loses consciousness, and falls towards earth. As Kale is falling , Caulifla rushes towards her, catching her in her arms.  Cauilfla praises her friend once more, smiling at her sweetly.  Despite her unconscious state, Kale herself wears a warm smile across her face , happy to know  that Caulifla and Cabba aren’t an item as she originally believed, and her mentor  lauding her power.

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With the examples provided, I can conclude that Kale’s initial transformation was inspired by her jealously towards Cabba. She assumed that Cabba was romantically close with Caulifla (whom I can  assume Kale may have a possible crush on).  In addition of Cabba’s insults and her own frustration of feeling useless and fear of failure, Kale unlocked her Super Saiyan form out of pure hatred, jealously, and rage.  Thankfully, with Cauilfla’s calm words of respect, and reassuring her that she does not like Cabba, Kale managed to snap out of her rage.

 

With that all said I hope you’ve enjoy reading my theories on Kale’s power as much as I’ve enjoyed analysiing and writing about it!  Stick around for more theories and thoughts on Dragon Ball and other anime series in the future!

 

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Nerd Gatekeeping, Quizzing, and Understanding.

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We nerds are goofy.  You’d think that from experiencing rejection and exclusion  by non-nerds, we would be welcoming of our fellow nerds nerds.  But nah, we’re not.  Some indulge in repeating the same exclusion and rejection cycle they faced in the past to other nerds.  Elitist nerds will play the gate keeping game; allowing certain “real” nerds in their circle.

Others will quiz people who they deem fake; asking questions and checking if a person is knowledgeable to their personal level.  This essay will explore gate keeping, quizzing, and understanding the causality of such acts.

Gatekeeping is common, yet old practice, existing before the social media and nerd culture boom.  Gatekeeping is the act of not allowing certain people into the community; fearing that they’re fake, attention seeking fans (nerds blessed with good looks are often accused of being fake), or casual fans who don’t appreciate the source material.

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Example: Some Shin Megami Tensei (SMT) fans believe you’re not a real fan of the SMT series if you started out on Persona, or haven’t branched out to other games of the franchise.  Some hardcore SMT fans have belittle, mock, and excluded the newcomers; judging them for not starting or being interested with the archaic (but fun) early games such as SMT 2 or Megami Tensei.

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Elitists feel that to be a real fan, you must have outlandish amount of experience and knowledge before joining their ranks.  It’s really just their insecurities speaking.  They’re afraid of the inclusive.

But hey! What’s a great way to cope with your insecurities?  Showcasing your superior, yet unimportant knowledge by quizzing folks!  Elitists quiz others on topics that only the truly hardcore (virgin) nerd knows.  They’ll ask things like “Who was Akira Toriyama’s first editor”, or “What comic issue did Raven (Teen Titans) debut”?  It’s a test to prove you’re worthy to call yourself a real fan.   Honestly, it’s stupid and it makes you come off as an asshole.

You know some useless nerd trivial.  Congratulations.  Nobody is trying to play your quiz game. Nigga you ain’t Alex Trebek.

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It’s articles like these that make me an borderline alcoholic.

 

When compared to their male counterparts, female nerds are more likely to be subjected to quizzing.  These beta ass males can’t believe that women have nerdy hobbies and interests, so they gotta drill them to see if they’re not “fake”.

Oh, you’re a pretty girl at a comic book shop who takes care of her personal hygiene, rock a My Hero Academia snapback, and wear a Captain America shirt because you’re a legit fan of the comics before the movies because your dad passed down his Captain America comics to you?  If you’re a real Captain America fan, then name the main staff who worked on the June ’97 issue of Captain America!

Can’t answer?  You must be a fake nerd girl.  Girls don’t read comics!

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I mean, I get that these dudes are (probably) still mad about being bullied and rejected for being nerds by girls back in their high and middle school days, but let that shit go.  Don’t become the bully  fucking with a chick just because she’s a nerd and you assume she’s not a real fan. Go get help or something bruh.

While I do not agree with the gatekeeping, nerd checks, and quizzing, I can somewhat understand why they do such actions.   Nerds were/are ridiculed, bullied, and mock for their hobbies for decades.  Prior to the recent nerd boom, nerds weren’t accepted by the mainstream.  Having nerdy interests was considered weird; nobody wanted to fuck with you.  People were on  that “Oh I’m a nerd!” game,  only to play the real nerds and hurt them for being nerdy.

When you’ve been bullied and teased for your hobbies, you tend to be defensive.   It’s a shame that people are like this, but it happens.

Maybe if these elitists weren’t so hurt. Not saying what they’re doing is right though.

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We nerds are goofy.  You’d think we would be more welcoming of other nerds to our circle.  Sadly, with elitism, quizzing, and “nerd checking”, this isn’t the case in our community.  Quizzing and nerd checking may leave out some and expose “fake” nerds, but is it worth making newcomers feel excluded?

I can understand why the elitist do this due to ill experiences, however, you got to let go of the past.  Past experiences shouldn’t’ determine that everyone on that fake shit based off assumptions.

I would say it’s possible to end this but that would require humanity to end as well.

IMAGE SOURCES:
http://thomwade.tumblr.com

http://www.not-literally.com/2013/12/11/the-problem-with-true-fans/

https://www.wattpad.com/story/61718884-make-the-school-nerd-tears-fall

https://www.facebook.com/playarealsmtgame/

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Hitagi Senjougahara: Trauma, Trust Issues, and Defense Mechanisms (Truth in Fiction)

TRIGGER WARNING: Rape, molestation, and child abuse mentioned.  If you’re bothered by these things, please please please, for the sake of your mental health, do not read on.  Thank you.

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A traumatic incident can screw up one’s mind.  It creates defense mechanisms, anxiety, and trust issues.  Hitagi Senjougahara, main heroine of the anime and light novel series “Monogatari”,  experienced such things.  To repay a debt owed to a cult, Hitagai’s mother  set her up to be molested and rape by a high ranking cultist. Hitagi resisted, hitting the cultist with a spiked shoe.  Afterwards, her dad filed for divorce, and Hitagi haven’t  spoke to her mom since.

Overtime, Hitagi grew distance, hostile, and untrusting of others.

‘And now you’re kinda cold to the people you met
Cause of something that was done to you by some creep.’
Whodini: Friends (1984 hip-hop single).

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Throughout the “Hitagi Crab” arc ,  we learn of the condition and causality of Hitagi’s literal weightlessness, as well as her hostile nature.  After Araragi (series’s main hero) saves her from an otherwise fatal fall, he discovers that she’s weightless. In fear that he might run his mouth about her state, Hitagi attacks him. She shoves a mini stapler inside his mouth, stapling his check.

After removing the lodged staple from his check, Araragi reveals his healing factor.  Hitagi was shock that there was somebody like her (in terms of weirdness).  Araragi offers to help her regain her weight, taken by a god crab spirit.

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As Araragi and Hitagi bike to Oshino’s (friend of and occult advisor to Araragi) residence, the two engaged in an interesting conversation.  Hitagi refers herself as a tsundere (otaku slang for a character who’s hostile and cold initially, but grows softer and warm towards close ones overtime).  This fits her well. Hitagi is cold, distanced, and hostile due to her mental trauma and physical condition. With Araragi’s reveling  his powers, understanding her situation, and knowing someone who could help her, Hitagi gradually warms up.

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There are two points I want to explore here:

Prior to meeting Oshino, Araragi asks Hitagi if he could hold on to her school supplies (which double as her weaponry). She responds “You set me up, right?”, pauses, and surrender her goods.  At the second point, upom meeting Oshino, Hitagi asks if he could save her.  Oshino responds with that only she could save herself. Hitagi snaps on him, stating that  five people prior told her the same thing, only to try to scam her.  She then asks Oshino if he was a scammer himself, which he only laughs off her (somewhat baseless) fears.

This made me wonder: are her worries defense mechanisms?  If so, you can’t blame her. Victims of traumatic experiences tend to be more defensive and aggressive towards others.   Traumatic experiences can changed one’s point of view, as Oshino pointed out to Hitagi about hers.

‘If I trust a person so easily, I don’t know how many times I would’ve been tricked.”
-Hitagi Senjouhara

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Fasting forward to episode 2’s ritual scene, Oshino asks Hitagi a series of questions.  The first few are basic: school life, date of birth, and favorite author. All to each she answered unhesitating.  When asked about her most painful memory of her life however, Hitagi freezes up, taking a sharp breath.  Regaining herself, Hitagi painfully recalls the attempted sexual assault.   She brings up that  her mother was punished because she fought back against the cultist.

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Her parents divorced soon after.   Hitagi felt guilt for her resistance, blaming herself  for breaking the family apart (of course, it wasn’t her fault). She felt anger towards  her mom;  she did not save her. Oshino tells her that these were her feelings, feelings that she can’t transfer to others.

Feelings that she must carry the burden on her shoulders.

In their conversation, Oshino uses the word “omoi”, which can either mean “Feelings” or Weight” (depending on the kanji).  What I like about the word usage is the  symbolism of the meaning. The feelings caused by horrific, traumatic experiences are a heavy weight to carry.   You go through life blaming yourself when you should not, closing yourself off from others and being on edge; unsure if people will hurt you physically, or emotionally.

A weight that you can never get rid of;  just only overcome  it with proper help and support.

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At the end of the ritual, Hitagi  confronts  the crab god whom stripped her weight.  Hitagi freaks out.  Her breathing is heavy, eyes widen.  Her body is frozen in fear , muscles tensed.  Hitagi asks if anyone else can see the crab, which the others reply with that they cannot.

Hitagi shuts down right as the crab attacks.  Oshino rescues Hitagi and destroy the spirit.  He explains the crab is the result of her  mental state.  Finally, after thanking him, she breaks down and starts to cry uncontrollably.

Hitagi’s freezing, fears, tense body language, breathing heavily, avoidance of the crab, and crying made me think:  was she having a PTSD flashback of the attempted rape? Yeah I mean, the crab is a supernatural force for storytellin, but her response to not confront it, in addition to her being asked about her most painful life experience, can be debated in favor of this theory.

When triggered, victims of traumatic events experienced symptoms such as heavy breathing, feelings of tightness, emotional break downs, and avoidance of anything that reminds them of the incident to name a few examples.

After Hitagi regain her composure, Oshino tells her that despite how much she longs for her family to return, and her desires to remove the pain, those things will never happen.  She must learn how to overcome it and grow stronger.  At the end, she gained a new friend (and eventually boyfriend) in Araragi and  gain her “weight” back as well.

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Ohhh…tired of the strain and the pain’
‘There’s so much pain…’
-2pac: Pain  (1994 rap single)

Special thanks and shout out to my homeboy Mr. Y giving me advice and tips and checking if my info on mental health was correct.  Check out his blog here:

https://wordpress.com/read/feeds/61835112

Further reading:

http://www.mentalhealthamerica.net/conditions/post-traumatic-stress-disorder
https://psychcentral.com/lib/15-common-defense-mechanisms/
http://traumaabusetreatment.com/trust-issues-after-trauma
http://childhoodtraumarecovery.com/2013/06/20/childhood-trauma-defence-mechanisms-resulting-from-stress/
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/somatic-psychology/201107/effects-trauma-estrangement-family

Screenshots Source:
http://blog.seiha.org/index.php?s=bakemonogatari

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The Narrative Themes of Sailor Moon S/Infinity (Analysis)

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I’m a huge fan of the Infinity arc of Sailor Moon. I  love it. It’s my favorite arc of the franchise and was my first exposure to the series.  The soundtrack is amazing, the characters are lovable, and there are a slew of amazing scenes.  It is just a wonderful addition to the lore of the Sailor Moon series.

However, I think one thing that some people may have overlooked about this arc is the theatrical and narrative themes.  I believe that if one were to analyze and break down the arc’s themes, they could gain a better appreciation for it.

Join me as I go in-depth in the themes of the Infinity Arc.  I hope that after reading this article, you’ll gain greater love for arguably the best arc of the series.

PART 1

Science and Technology

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‘Yeah, but your scientists were so preoccupied with whether or not they could, they didn’t stop to think if they should.’

Ian Malcom – “Jurassic Park”

The theme of science and technology is one of the best things of the arc.  It’s a refreshing addition to the lore of the series.   While prior villains Queen Beryl and Wiseman were versed in magical arts, Infinity Arc villain Professor Tomoe used science and technology to combat against the Sailor Scouts’.

From genetically engineering superhumans such as the Witches 5 (manga and Crystal anime), transforming his own  daughter  into a cyborg, implanting himself with an alien egg, and constantly performing experiments, Tomoe had various tools of in his arsenal in relation to science.  I mean hell, the man was even blacklisted from the scientific community for his illegal and unethical experiments (manga and Crystal).

The brilliant Tomoe wasn’t alone in using science against the Scouts.  His assistant, Eudial had her own tool set as well.

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Toasty!!

Eudial (of the Witches 5) fought the Scouts using her own tools such as poison gas, a shotgun that exacted a victim’s Pure Heart, a flame thrower that even surpass the strength of the Sailor Scouts,  and perhaps her most dangerous tool; her wits and mind.

While she wasn’t a total genius like her superior, her  wisdom could not be ignored.  The woman even wrote a computer program that hunted down possible owners of pure hearts and the Holy Talismans. In addition, she built a super computer made from peach cans.  Hell, she even worked on dimension transporter device in her downtime.

Granted, she did realize there were fatal flaws with the device. Something that her hater I mean partner Mimete learned the hard way.  Boy did she learn the hard way.

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It was at this moment that she knew, she fucked up.

I can’t forget the more science fiction elements of Sailor Moon S.  The invasion of the Daimons  felt like something out of sci-fi movie; strange aliens from a foreign galaxy attempting to take the  world over,  using humans as their host.  Or whatever cheesy plot they thought of.

Even Mistress 9’s theme sounds like a track from a sci-fi film:

I wonder, was Naoko Takeuchi and the Toei writing staff were on a sci-fi kick during the development of the Infinity manga and anime arc? The sci-fi aesthesis are way obvious.   Cyberpunk and sci-fi culture were dominating and influential in the anime and manga culture of the early 90s. I would not be shocked if Naoko and Toei were influenced by the cyberpunk culuture for the arc.  In any case, the sci-fi elements were a breath of fresh air after compared to two anime season and manga arcs of magic and fantasy.  It brought something new to the series.

PART 2

Father and Daughter

Father, you left me but I never left you
I needed you, you didn’t need me
So I, I just gotta tell you
Goodbye, goodbye

– John Lennon “Mother”

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The father and daughter  narrative isn’t anything new in the series. You have Usagi and her pops, Kenji. Then we have Chibi-Usa, and her dad, Mamoru (and of course, Chibi-Usa’s dark persona Black Lady with  her Electra Complex with Mamoru).

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When he finally lets you call him “daddy”.

Those examples of fathers-and-daughters are stable. However, with the introduction of Hotaru,it broke the mold of the stable father/daughter relationship in Sailor Moon (excluding Rei and her dad, but that’s for another alcohol fuled writing)

The manga and the original anime continuity depict Hotaru and Souichi’s relationship in polar opposites.  To put it nicely, Souichi was a piece of shit to Hotaru in the manga.  The selfish asshole viewed his daughter’s injuries resulted from a fire in his lab as a blessing. Taking advantage of the newfound “blessings”, Souichi fitted Hotaru with cybernetic implants, as well as genetically modified her by infusing the kid with the egg of Daimon Mistress 9 (given to him by Master Pharaoh 90).  Souichi’s selfish actions, and his desire for revenge ruined not only Hotaru’s body, but her life as well.

Hotaru had some well… daddy issues.  She went off on her dad, frustrated with him for allowing Kaorinite  in their house.  She also moped about her dad being consistently away, focused on his research rather than her. Thus, Hotaru felt lonely.

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It doesn’t help Souichi’s case that he only cared about Hotaru to awaken Mistress 9.  In addition, he only saw Hotaru as a science experiment, a perfect hybrid of cybernetic, genetic, and alien technology.   Yea, the dude saved his daughter’s life.  Yet, he only did it to make her into a living puppet.

Sometimes, family ain’t shit.

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There’s something else Kaori likes to suck up from her dad but this is a Christian run blog. There are h-doujins of these two online if you’re into that.

 

Back when I was a child 

Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me’

-Luther Vandross “Dance with my Father”

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When “Take Your Daughter to Work Day” goes horribly wrong.

When it comes to their relationship in the first anime, Hotaru and Souichi were close.  The two loved each other dearly.  Souichi gave up his freewill to Germatoid , in order to Hotaru’s life, who lost it in a lab explosion.  Souichi was supportive of Hotaru, always there for her and made the girl his number one priority.

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Despite not being his fault, Souichi regretted ruining Hotaru’s life.  In his defenese,  he wasn’t unaware that Germtoid made her a vessel for Mistress 9. Souichi even risked his own life to protect Hotaru, taking blows from Mistress 9 and attempted to restore his kid (Even though Mistress 9 used Hotaru’s voice to trick him and Sailor Moon).

While I’m on the subject on Mistress 9, I love the more sinister side of Hotaru and Souichi’s relationship; Germatoid and Mistress 9. Although indirect, they did have some interactions while under the possession of their alien overlords.

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It’s strange to think how opposite their relationship were when comparing the anime and manga. Souichi was willing to save Hotaru, even if it meant becoming a servant to Germatoid. While he was noble for doing so, it did spite him, as Hotaru would become Mistress 9’s vessel.  Souichi had enormous remorse for allowing Hotaru to be possessed, despite he knew it wasn’t his fault. Unfortunately his manga counterpart did not share that guilt.  He felt prideful about his actions, thinking of Hotaru as just a project and not his daughter.

PART 3

Conflict and Division

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Sailor Moon: Civil War

Why can’t we be friends?
Why can’t we be friends?
Why can’t we be friends?
Why can’t we be friends
?

-WAR “Why Can’t We Be Friends”

Most fictional team up will have their time of division and conflict.  The nWo splitting between the nWo Black/White and nWo  Black/Red,  the Avengers splitting up between Team Iron Man and Team Captain America,  and Spider-Man and Venom’s team splitting during the events of Maximum Carnage.   It’s bound to happen.

With the introduction of the Outer Scouts, and their goal of saving the world by any means, including sacrificing the wielders of the Pure Heart Crystal, the Inner Scouts will face their biggest problem yet: Inner conflict and division.   It doesn’t help that the problem increased  with Hotaru revealed as the Messiah of Destruction, but more on that later.

I love the clash between the two teams. Right from the jump, the Outers didn’t play with Usagi’s optimistic, idealistic views.  Hell, they flat out told her to stop being childish and selfish; bigger things were at stake.

Episode 21 of Infinity arc, “The Death of Uranus Neptune?!” expands on this:

Usagi is desperately pleading Haruka and Michiru to join forces with the Inner Scouts.   You can feel her emotions as she wants the pair to unite with her team.  Usagi wants nothing more but to unify her friends.  Despite Usagi positive attitude, Haruka snatches Usagi’s transformation brooch and  gives the girl a chilling warning:

“Don’t ever show yourself in front of us ever again…Sailor Moon.  Or else.”

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Haruka and Michiru ain’t playing games, even if it meant threatening to kill Usagi to save the world.

Speaking of killing, The Outers had no issue with wanting to kill a sickly 12-year-old child, Hotaru Tomoe, whom was confirmed to be the Messiah of Silence, Sailor Saturn.  The second Saturn awakens in Hotaru, the trio went on the attack, not caring if this was a damn kid.  They wanted her dead, for the sake of the great good.

By the way, Hotaru is the best friend of Chibi-Usa, who just happens to be the future daughter of  Usagi.  One of the Outer Senshi is Setsuna/Pluto, who just happens to be a second mother to Chibi-Usa.

So this whole “Kill Hotaru” thing was going to be fun for all parties involved, right?  Two group of allies and friends split into two opposing teams.  You have one team aiming to save the person because it wasn’t their fault that they are a puppet for the bad guy.  Then, you have the other team wanted to kill the person regardless.

Hell, even our heroes weren’t the only ones with team work issues. The Witches 5 (anime) weren’t too keen on sticking together. Mimete and Eudial had their beef with one another.  In Eudial’s defense,  Mimete was a complete and jealous idiot who wasn’t  shit.  Their beef escalated to life-ending heights, with Mimete destroying the break system in Eudial’s station wagon, leading her to a watery death.

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Mimete’s petty shit starting would catch up to her, leading to her own death at the hands of another member of the Witches 5, Tellu.  You see, Mimete thought she was slick, calling up Tellu and pretending to be Professor Tomoe (using a voice changer), reliving Tellu of her duties.  All so she could could take Tellu’s spot in the upcoming mission.

Tellu wasn’t playing that shit.  Boy, she wasn’t playing that shit.

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Man, it’s such a damn shame that even the bad guys, who are supposed to work together in order to defeat the good guys, are beefing.

Teamwork makes the dream work but not with these fools…

 

PART 4

Messiahs

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‘The time has come
O Messiah.  O Messiahs.’
Dragon Ball Z Soundtrack “Day of Destiny – Spirit vs. Spirit”

Messiah of Creation.  Messiah of Destruction. They’re like ying and yang; one can’t exist without the other.  Sailor Moon is the fabled as the messiah; the one whom will bring hope and salvation against the taboo messiah of destruction and death; Sailor Saturn.

We are introduced to the Messiah of Destruction in Rei’s horrifying premonition.   The world is frozen, painted in red.  Rei, (the only person who isn’t frozen), spots a destruction force of light and energy approaching.  It’s dreadful.  As Rei is violently pushed back by the energy, a light shines behind her.  She turns to it and in despair ask is it the Messiah.

The light ignores her cry.  Rei can only watch as the darkness consumes her allies the world. Never get your hopes up, children.

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As the series progress, additional information of the Messiah of Destruction are presented.  In episode 30 of S, we are revisited by Rei’s nightmare.  This time,  there’s a feminine figure with a scythe (hmm…), standing on a cliff menacingly, illumined in a bright white light.  Rei’s vision ends with the figure violently descending towards Rei, bringing her scythe down on the girl ending with blood splatter.

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Rei awakens, recalling the dream.  She notices the figure has a recognizable face, but quite can’t put her finger on who it is.  It’s totally not Hotaru as Sailor Saturn who’s the malevolent messiah.   Trust me; I have never misled people on the internet.

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Not Hotaru.

As for the true Messiah, she is hinted as Sailor Moon. After Neptune’s death, and the revelation of the two being the Talimans wielders, Uranus questions the Messiah.  She asks their deaths were divine punishment for their crimes of their mission.   In her despair, she envisioned the messiah, whom in actuality is an untransformed Usagi.

Usagi envisioned as the messiah is fitting.  Time and time again, Usagi is willing to put her own life on the line for both the world, and her loved ones.  Usagi even risked her life to save Uranus, the same person who threatened her earlier in the episode.

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When the Outers tried to kill Hotaru, Usagi pushed the girl out of the way of a combine energy blast that may had otherwise killed her.  Usagi defends her new friend, stating that it’s not her fault that she is Saturn, and that she shouldn’t have to die.

Usagi still had the drive to protect Hotaru, even after her transformation to Mistress 9. Usagi took an energy blast from Pharaoh 90 head on, (who attempted to kill Mistress 9).  Before that, Usagi attempted to restore Hotaru back to normal by giving her the Holy Grail.  Granted, it was a trick from Mistress 9 (who was using Hotaru’s voice) to manipulate Usagi into giving her the Grail.

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Finally, Usagi tried to save Hotaru (as Saturn), who jumped into the core of Pharoh 90 to kill him and save the world.  Despite being warned by Saturn that she may not survive inside Pharoh 90, Usagi still went in. While Usagi “failed” to save Hotaru, who had  died using her destruction powers,   Usagi managed to recover a reincarnated, newly born Hotaru.

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By the way, did you notice that both Saturn and Moon were introduced as messiahs at right around the same time? It’s like both the Toei writing staff and Takeuchi knew how to directed these two  to meet at the end of the arc. It gives a sense of duality with Saturn, being the Messiah of Destruction, the one who would end the world, and Sailor Moon, the Messiah of Creation, the one who will save it.  Of course however,  Sailor Saturn became the savoir of the world, sacrificing her life in the progress.

‘If you have feelings for other people…anyone can be a messiah.”

-Hotaru Tomoe
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PART 5

Sacrifice

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‘Logic dictates that the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few…or the one’

-Spock
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The narrative theme of sacrifice returns in Sailor Moon Infinity and boy, do they shove it down our throats.  From Uranus and Neptune’s willingness to sacrifice the live of pure heart owners, to the two losing their own lives to ensure the world’s protection, to Profressor Tomoe surrendering  his freewill to save Hotaru in the anime, to  Hotaru herself  giving up her life to save the world, sacrifice plays a huge role in Infinity.

As previously mentioned, Uranus and Neptune’s prime objective was to track down the Holy Talismans, sealed within three Pure Hearts.   The Three Holy Talismans (The Mirror, The Sword, and The Garnet Orb) were tools to summoning The Holy Grail (or Sailor Saturn in the manga/Crystal anime).  Once summoned, the true Messiah will use the Grail’s everlasting power to stop the threating silence and Messiah of Destruction.  However, in order to unseal the Holy Talismans, the Pure Heart owners had to be sacrificed.

As time went on, Uranus and Neptune were revealed to be the wielders of two Talismans (by Eudial). Upon her death, Neptune ‘s Pure Heart transformed to the Deep Aqua Mirror. Once Uranus realized she too held a Pure Heart, she took her own life to exact it, in hopes that Usagi will use the Talismans to summon the Holy Grail and save the world.

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(Of course Uranus and Neptune were brought back to life, so their sacrifices were somewhat meaningless.)

After concluding that Hotaru was Sailor Saturn, the Outer  Scouts decided they needed to kill her in order to prevent the world’s destruction from Saturn.  Take an innocent girl’s life to save countless others.

It’s heavy, isn’t it?

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I do find this funny:  the Outer Scouts wanted to sacrifice Hotaru  life.  The Inner Scouts were all gung-ho against it.  Despite the conflicted groups’ back-and-forth aguring,  Hotaru ‘s life was still sacrificed.  Just not in the way anyone expected.  After Hotaru accepts that she is Sailor Saturn, she jumps into the core of Pharaoh 90, and destroys him, killing herself in the progress, but saving the world and her friends (and of course her father in the first anime).

While sacrifice was always a theme prior and after, I love how it’s portrayed in the Infinity Arc.  It wasn’t just about Usagi, or the other Scouts putting their own lives on the line. Others may have their own life sacrifice if needed be.   Eventually, one life was taken to save the lives of countless others.  This arc did brought up the ethics of sacrifice. It is like to to say is if really okay to (unwilling) sacrifice one person’s life to save the lives of others.

Conclusion

Sailor Moon S/Infinity is my most beloved and favorite of the series.  The narrative themes oof this arc made it interesting and analyzing the themes makes it a renewing experience.  The Science and Technology theme was refreshing in a magic based series. The paralles of the father-daughter relationship of Hotaru and Souichi from the anime and manga were conflciting,  The Outer Senshi brought in something that the Inner Scouts never dealt with in the past: division and in-fighting.  The Messiahs gave the arc a near  religious side to the series.  Finally,  the sacrifice theme presented the issue of is it ethic to take a life of a person to others.

On the surface Sailor Moon S appears to be that of a simple shoujo magical girl series but once you dig into the narrative themes with an analytical mindset you’ll uncover that there are hidden meanings behind this excellent arc.
I hope with this in-depth look of the themes of S you have gained a better apperication for the season as much as I have.  Thank you for taking the time out of your life to read this article.

Thanks to everyone who supported and believed in me.  Thank you so much.

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Asian Ghost. White Body. (Freewrite) (MAJOR GitS SPOILERS)

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Matoko: Asian Ghost. Mira: The White Shell.  In the movie, it’s revealed that Mira (or The Major) was in fact, Matoko, before the mind-to-body transfer.  Matoko was an Asian runaway girl who was kidnapped by Hanka units, along with several other runaway children of Japanese  heritage.  After destroying her body, extracting her mind, and injecting it with false memories give her motivation to fight terrorists, Matoko was given the body of that of a white woman.

Prior to that reveal however, Mira runs into an older Asian lady.  The lady welcomes Mira in her house, offering tea.  As the lady and Mira speaks, the lady remarks that Mria’s body language and verbal tones reminds her of her dead daughter, Matoko.  It’s incredibly eerie to the woman.
Hmm…

Anyway, While I’m happy  Matoko wasn’t “white washed” (completely), the scene made me think: Was this all social commentary on the white washing of iconic ethic characters?  You have  Matoko, an Asian woman inside the cybernetic body of a white woman.

Matoko/The Major, an Asian  anime character (we assumed), is portrayed by Scarlett Johansson, an white actress.

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Manga Matoko.  My personal favorite design of The Major.

In a sense, it’s meta. Film Matoko is Asian but why is she in a white body?  Why are iconic anime characters of Japanese descent are being portrayed by  White actors in Hollywood.
It’s probably not that deep or meta.  Hell, perhaps they changed things around to cover up any edvidances of white washing.  Perhaps this was just all apart of the plan.

These were just merely thoughts I played around with at 2 in the morning when I had nothing better to do but to overthink an action film based on a comic book.

 

DISCLAIMER: I’m Black.  Not Asian.  I don’t speak for Asian-Americans, Asians, or all people of color.  White washing is an issue in American films.  I am not okay with it. We all have different views on this shit.
(Gotta get that shit outta the way before people SJWs tumblrinas get mad or 4channers think I’ll support their bullshit I already got people mad at me on Facebook lmfao)

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I Don’t Get The Three Episode Rule (Freewrite)

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I never got the “There Episodes Rule” of the anime community.  The “logic” behind this rule is that you should give a series three episodes  to see if it gets good, or worthy enough to continue. 

I personally believe that a show should be good and make a great impression on the first episode.  The first episode should at least have a few things in it that should match your taste so you don’t have to wait for a show to get good.

If I don’t think a show is good on the first episode, I ain’t gonna waste my time on the series.  I have way too many shows on my backlog to get through to worry about shows I’m gonna dropped of the first episode.

Pic related: Attack on Titan,  a show I wasted nine episodes on waiting for it to get good lol.

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Digibro – Oh Shit…

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“Holy shit!  This is gonna be good!  My lord, this is gonna start some shit within the community!  Can’t wait to get home to watch this shit!”

Just shitalkin other anime youtubers for like half an hour, oh god what have I done’.

As soon as I saw the title of the ever controversial Digibro’s video, I knew I had to hurry up with my work, get home, and watch it.  I could had play the video on my phone while at work, but something of this caliber needed to be experienced a larger screen to be  great detail.

Plus I can’t drink at the job so there’s that.

“Oh fuck, who pissed off this nigga this time? Who is he gonna go in on this time?”
Digibro’s rant videos are like special events for me.   There just this feeling that know there’s gonna be some backlash and butthurt off of his  drunkenly brutal honestly.  It’s a fun time for the anime community.

 

Right off the bat he’s going off on niggas with bravdo.  My dude is straight up telling these cats that  they suck and their videos are garbage.  He ain’t being subtle with disdain either.  He’s name droppin’ like crazy; Mother’s Basement.  AnimeEverday RCAnime.  The Canibal Effect.  My dude  Digi out here callin’ folks out on their “flaws”,
negative” points of their content, and overall “lack” of quailty  This dude doesn’t’ care  and I love it.

He’s like the weeaboo Tupac.

(It is dishearting to hear him talk shit about anime youtubers I do enjoy. I can’t even lie because the people he name dropped do have great content. )

“Oh shit! Oh shit! Oh shit!  Is he trying to start beef with these guys?  Does he want the rest of the community to hate him?  I mean, he already got haters so why not more?  More haters and drama make the world go round!  Haters are motivation!”

As I predicted, the community was shaken up by this.  For the past 72 hours since his rant,  people on both sides have given their views and expressed their feelings.  Some are understanding upset by his words while others are supportive of his rally call to improve the community.  I’m in the middle but I’m learning towards supporting him.

Personally, I don’t think he should have called niggas out and their works like how he did.  But sometimes, you just have to be that guy.  The bad guy; like Scarface.   I mean forreal the liquor was flowin’ in him and certain substance make you tell the truth without a filter.

I do feel Digibro on his stance on the community.  Some people aren’t reaching out to one another and helping folks come up and improve.  People are putting out the same old bullshit and there ain’t much diversity.  It sucks.

Maybe I’m somebody who is way too optimistic for my own good  but I love it when people help each other. We need more diverse content from all range. I want to see this community improve and grow.  I may not be as harsh and brutal about it as Digibro was in his video, but I’ll be direct and blunt.

If I see a flaw in one’s works, I’m going to try to help that person out because I like seeing people improve.   I feel that people should strive to do better in their craft.  I don’t mind it myself when others tell me the areas I need that I need to improve on.  I welcome it.

Also, tell me that I suck and that I’ll never get better.  Not because you wanna feel better about your miserable life but because I’ll prove you wrong one day, work my ass off fixing my flaws, and come up.  Thus so when I come up and fix my weaknesses I can make you angry that I stop sucking. ❤

But that’s just my good ol’ pride talking shit!

What I’m trying to gain from Digibro’s controversial video is the sense of the community helping one another.  We all in this together ya know?  We all want to be successful and we want others as well.  I mean fuck, my homeboys and I are almost always on each other asses on our goals and passion, checkin’ one another and telling each other if they’re doing something wrong, how to correct it.

But that’s just me.

‘The question everybody wants to know is why they got this nigga started?’

-Reporter (Tupac – Bomb First)

The video:

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Twister, An Nutjob Fangirl, and a Shy Goth Girl (Or How I Fell in Love With Sailor Moon)

Introduction

I can still fondly remember my first episode of Sailor Moon.  It was on a Saturday mornig in early February 2001.  Dragon Ball Z had just finished on the Toonami’s “Rising Sun” block and Sailor Moon was next. I had prior knowledge of from a friend, who gave me a short run down of the series in the past

A magical school girl team run by some dumbass girl named Serena, running around Tokyo saving their city and the world from Queen Beryl or some shit in high heels and mini-skirts. (It’s been 16 years.  My memory of his summary is rather weak).

I figure that I’ll give the show a shot.  I mean, what young 11-year-old dude doesn’t wanna watch schoolgirls in minishirts and high heels?

Twister

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Hooray for clickbait images!

The episode airs.  I get a quick introduction to a sparkly Tuxedo Mask giving a short history of the Outer Scouts’ role in the past.  That was cool and all but it did not make an impact on me as the next scene: the infamous Twister game.

The game starts out normally; sans lady scientists playing in their lab coats and heels. But whatever, that’s anime for ya.

“Right hand on Blue 4”. Just a simple command for a simple game of Twister, right?  However, as soon as the woman does instructed, she makes a rather sexual moaning sound.

“Okay…? What’s going on?” I asked myself but whatever.

Next up was this cute, young, orange hair woman with glasses.  She starts ramblin’ about some track star  name Shawn,  who inspires her to win. That’s cool I guess.  I too look up to my idols for inspiration. Biggie Smalls, Tupac, and Hennessy to name a few.  It’s normal to look up to idols.

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Thank you Hennessy.  You inspire me to pretend that I like people.

What wasn’t normal was her ass soundin’ like she was having an orgasm.

In utter shock, I quickly turned down the volume on my TV. Didn’t want my parents to think that I was watching porn at 10 in the morning. As I watch this awkward scene I am asking myself   “What the fuck type of anime my friend suggested me to watch and why is this woman imagining that she’s getting dicked down by this sports dude?”

“Whatever.  Keep watching Ben.   Less than five minutes in and we have good lookin’ science ladies playin’ Fake Orgasm Twister, one with her leg up in the air! This show is great!”

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While the game of Fake Orgasm Twister was going on,  this  creepy ass science dude was peeping at all of this.  Perhaps he thought there was an orgy going down and he wanted in on the action.

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Creepy Ass Science Dude tells the Fake Orgasm Science Lady tells her about her new “Heart Snatching” mission and gives her this metal briefcase with a star on it.  As he and the rest of the ladies send her off with well wishes, Creepy Ass Science Dude declares it was his turn to play.

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I wanna work at a place where I can play Twister with some fine ladies. Ahh pipedreams…

“Creepy Ass Science Dude is a playa!” I told myself.

(Real shit, I always wanted to be like [90s anime] Dr. Tomoe when I was a kid.  Dude had beautiful women in his big ass house working for him playing Twister in his lab. You know he probably fucked the Witches 5 a few time while his kid Hotaru was at school and Kaori was away doing business. “I’m A Playa” by Too $hort is probably his theme song)

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Two minutes of  pure nonsense and I’m already hook on Sailor Moon.   I didn’t know what was going on.  Hell, I didn’t care. This show is great!

Ahh man, young me was easily impressed by anime back in the day.  Today? Nah.

Mimete: The Nutjob Fangirl

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Ah Mimete; the ditzy, nutjob  celebrity fangirl scientist of the Witches 4.  Her goofiness carried this episode to me. Hotaru did as well (it’s her character arc after all) but more on her later.

Mimete was crazy.  I mean, wanting to kill the guy she was fakin’ an orgasm to because he inspired her.   That’s kinda nuts.   Like this woman was straight watching this dude warming up, fangirling and shit, but also planning on killin’ him.

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Like, how do you even go on to think about killing your celebrity crush ? Ya fangirls are weird.  I hope ya know that.

On top of that, this woman straight tried to kill a bunch of innocent people with her Daimon, including two teenagers and a little girl.  All because she was salty that she couldn’t get close to her celebrity crush.  Granted she was going to kill him regardless, but still.

Seriously Mimete, you need mental help.

(Also I wonder if she knew Hotaru was her boss’s daughter.  She almost got her boss’s daughter killed off her bullshit.)

Her Daimon monster confused the fuck out of me.  I was like “why is this elf looking track star got a shell on her back?  You know what? This show is already weird.  Stop asking questions.”

The Daimon’s her Heart Snatching method.   It was rather…out there.

“Do all of these Daimon monsters make out with their victims to kill them?”
“Why does she need to sit on this guy for his heart? What’s going on with this show?”

Watching the monster’s attempt to make out with her victim was awkward but hell, there was an awkward scene earlier with a Twister game.  One more ain’t gonna hurt at this point.

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When you finally meet up with the nigga who was talking that good shit on Facebook

The Daimon would meet her end by the means of flurries of mini hearts made out of pink sugar (wut?) and a giant heart made from rainbows (okay).  Mimete runs off like she just ripped off her plug, declaring she will get Sailor Moon next time. And her pesky little sister/daughter/whatever too!    I presumed she’s gonna try to kill her next celebrity crush in the next episode.

But forreal Minete was fuckin’ weird. Her monster friend was weird.  This entire episode was fuckin’ weird.

Hotaru: The Shy Goth Girl

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I hate this character.  Ask anyone who knows me.

“Wow! She’s so pretty!” I said to myself, watching the girl in all black with purple hair and eyes writing a letter to her  sports idol. Same sports idol Mimete was gushing all over.

Man, this Shawn nigga is popular!

“And she has health issues.  Maybe she has really bad asthma like I do. That’s probably why she can’t do sports.”

Less than say, what 25 seconds into this scene and I’m already got a possible favorite character right off the bat.  But then, I started asking a few questions.

“Why the fuck is she writing in the dark wearing all black though?  Is she one of those gothic people that worship Satan, mope around all depressed, and cut themselves when they’re sad? ”

Ahhh 11-year-old me was so ignorant about alternate subcultures.  I blame Christianity!

(In defense of my 11 year old self, I at least got one thing right about this character)

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Goddammit Hotaru you’re so emo. Or gothic. Whatever.

As I admired this character (as well as questioned her fashion bedroom lighting choices ) an incredibly busty woman sneaks up behind her and starts belittling the girl. She states that she’s weird for writing the letter and doesn’t have the guts to approach the dude.

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When you’re high as fuck in class and your teacher sneaks up behind you.  And you smell like a loud blunt.

“Man, her step mom’s a bitch! How could you taunt your own step daughter like that?” I mean, she was right about her not having the courage to send the letter out and everything, but still.

Kaori is a bitch.

(Of course, I would learn that Kaori wasn’t her stepmom but her dad’s assistance.)

After Kaori’s taunting session, the scene transition to the girl chillin’ with her friends, Rini and Serena.

“Okay, she has friends. She can’t be completely gothic.  Most, if not, all of them don’t have any friends.”

(To my readers who are in the  gothic subculture:  I sincerely apologize for my  baseless, stereotypical views of that subculture at age 11)

The three discuses about Hotaru’s letter, which she expressed her concern about sending the letter out or even talking to Shawn, thus  she gets discouraged. Serena brings up that they should take her to the track field and give her encouragement.

There was something about this character, Hotaru. She had shit tier health, got teased,  incredibly shy, has confidence issues, relies on her friends too heavily and she’s pretty! Just like me at that age!
It was pretty much set that this character would be my favorite in the entire series, and I was just only less than seven minutes in.  That’s good character-viewer relation right there.

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Appreciate 90s anime Hotaru’s smile cuz you ain’t gonna see her smile in the Crystal and in the original manga.  Oh yea spoilers.

(I’m pretty sure Hotaru [along with Washu from Tenchi Muyo] may have been the source of me becoming a sad lonely waifu loving otaku years down the road but that’s for another time.)

Fasting forward, the three hit the track field to meet Shun, although they kinda sorta trespassed on the field.  Shun soon approaches Hotaru and Serena, but Hotaru  just freezes up.   Despite Rini’s  rally cries, Serena’s prep talk, and committing a few trespassing crimes, Hotaru ain’t talking.

Hotaru, you disappointed everyone. Good going.

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Mimette, witnessing all of this, gets butthurt because Hotaru and Serena managed to get close to Shawn. Although Mimete was in the right by not trespassing.  Ahh haters…

In her rage, she releases her Daimon and shit happens, like The Daimon indirectly burning Hotaru’s letter from the immerse flames of her rolling a giant ball.    All that hard work, dealing with Kaori’s bullying, and the Tsukino family’s prep rally: gone.

She ain’t too pleased with that.  Holy fucking shit she ain’t too pleased.

As Mimette and her Daimon friend runs away, the Daimon spots Hotaru being a depressed gothic emo girl in her makeshift emo corner.  Concerned, the Daimon tells her if she ain’t feelin’ well she needs to go to the medical office.

(Hey, at least she has her morals.)

Hotaru blankly stares down the Daimon, eyes glowing red and straight blasts her ass across the track field like she’s on some Dragon Ball Z shit!

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If a quiet, reversed person ever gives you this look, they’re about to fuck you up. You are already dead.

“Holy shit!  Hotaru has powers too!?  She doesn’t even need to transform like Sailor Moon and Mini-Moon!  She can just fuckin’ blast these dudes like nothing! She’s so cool!”

Yea, at that point she officially became my favorite character.

After  Moon dispatches the monster, Hotaru finally meets her idol and they talk about how much their frail health sucks and Shawn gives the girl encouragements to do  whatever she wants in life.  Like complete in sports.  Or blasting monsters across a track field.  The sky’s the limit, just keep pressin’ on.

“Hotaru is so awesome and cool!” I told myself as I finished my very first episode of Sailor Moon .   16 years later, I still feel the same way

Conclusion

A goofy game of twister, a psychotic fangirl, and an emo ass gothic ass shy ass girl.   What an unusual combination of  how I feel in love with the Sailor Moon series 16 years ago. A love that is still felt to this day

Granted, I am an 27-year-old jaded adult now who knows better.  Giving this episode a retroactive reflection, the writing was pure garbage.  Nothing about this episode did anything  enhance Hotaru’s character development, and I’m pretty sure the creative staff behind this episode were on drugs while creating this episode.

Also, doesn’t Hotaru hate sports? Why would she be fangirling over a sports star?  And why did everyone acted like everything was normal after Mimete attacked them?

Nevertheless, it was the episode that I got me into the series.  I believe if I may have watched the wrong episode as my first episode, I wouldn’t gotten into Sailor Moon at all.

But forreal drugs where involved in the making of this episode.

 

REFERENCES:
https://prettysoldierproject.com/

Sailor Moon blog site where I took some of the screenshots on this post from.

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Sailor Moon S – Why I Love It (Freewrite)

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Toei’s Sailor Moon: Civil War

Sailor Moon S holds a special place in my heart.  I do not know if it because of the characters, the sci-fi elements of the villains, the story, the art style, or the music.  There was just something about those things  that drew me into the series.  I just deeply love S.

As a kid, I thought Sailor Moon was a show marketed for young girls. I doubted that it was for guys but hey, I was 11 at the time.  My mind changed once I gave the show a shot.   Man, I not only was I proven wrong, I was blown away.

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This scene also got me into Sailor Moon as a kid but that’s best saved for another post.

The first thing I noticed about S was the sci-fi aesthetics of the Death Busters.  I did not expect an element seen in more male oriented cartoons and shows in Shoujo anime.   I loved that Professor Tomoe used science and technology to combat against the Sailor Scouts’ magical powers. Hell I still love it to this day.  Science vs. Magic is a very common ass theme in fictional but when done right, it’s great.  And S did it greatly.

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Another thing I drew me into S was the depressing theme of the destruction of the world.  That was a play out of left field for younger me.  Shows I have watched prior dealt with villains wanting to simply take over the world.  There weren’t any talk about awakening an evil Messiah wiping out all humanity or killing a 12 year old girl because she was assumed to be that evil Messiah.

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Totally not a spoiler.  Trust me: I’m a dolphin.

Finally, what made S great was the the amazing soundtrack.  Honestly this is best reversed for a more in-depth analysis post but whatever (pus, I need to freewrtie for a bit lol).  This is completely biased because I am a violinist, but holy shit the orchestra and violin tracks were perfect.    Like forreal the orchestra tracks they used for the Mistress 9/Pharaoh 90 battles made me felt like I was watching an animated movie than just a simple series.

I cannot simply forget the awesomeness  that is that of the Outer Senshi theme

Or the utterly depressing piano/violin duet of Hotaru’s theme: (“Hotaru’s Sorrow ” is a fuckin’ fitting title for that girl’s theme.  Her life was incredibly fucked up)

So yea, these are just short, rather shallow reasons why I love Sailor Moon S and how it got me into the series as a whole.   I may go more in depth with these things in the near future but for right now, I just needed to clear my thoughts (and have something for the 25th Anniversary week ha ha ha)

 

 

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What Makes an Anime Great (My Opinion of Course)

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Lupin the 3rd (1971). One of my favorites anime series of all time.

Everyone has an opinion on what makes an anime great.   Some people love storytelling.  Others enjoy aesthetics and art direction.

I love storytelling and music personally.   I love direction synergy between art and music tones.

We all bring in our own personal bias and taste when viewing anime, considering what will make or break an anime.

Anime is a visual medium.  I like anime series that can play off the aesthetics of the series. Visuals are narrative.  It gives aids the story’s tone.

Directors can use visual tones to emote viewers’ emotional reaction.

Example: The conclusion of Yusuke and Suzuki’s fight (Yu Yu Hakusho).

Series animation director Akiyuki Shinbo uses vibrant surrounding white light transiting into black and. dark shading on Yusuke.   It sets a depressing feeling; that Yusuke died putting his life energy to defeat Suzaku.

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Yu Yu Hakusho (1992)

Along with visual tone, a great anime needs a convincing story. The story needs interesting written characters with motivation. I like characters that are written in a way that can relate to naturally.

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Son Gohan of Dragon Ball Z: Fusion Reborn (1994).  I love his goofy and carefree nature as Great Saiyaman.

Most of my favorite anime characters are written like this. If I relate to a character,  I care for them. I root for them to overcome their issues and improve overtime.  This factor makes the character seem more human.

Mob from the 2016 anime series “Mob Psycho 100” is a character that fits this.

Despite  blessed with everlasting psychic power,  Mob wants to improve in other accepts in his school life.  Rather than joining his school’s supernatural club, he joins the athletic Body Improvement club.

He aims to nurture his weak psychical strength and body.

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Mob and Musashi. Mob Pyscho 100 (2016)

He wants to improve his weak body by strengthen it.  He could have easily joined a club suited to natural skills.  However, Mob wants something more in life than just relying on his natural gifts.

This makes him feel human. This makes me relate to him because I want to improve in life. We all do.

Finally, a great anime needs a prominent music.  Similar to visual, music sets tone.  Music is narrative. Music is expressive.   Music should  reflect the mood of the scene.

I want to experience the same shock and amazement of Kyon, a normal teenager, as he was spectating reality wrapping aliens Yuki and Ryoko fighting inside a data field.   Hell, I want the music to make me believe that I am Kyon.

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Ryoko vs. Yuki from The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya (2007)

I believe music can do this to my emotions.  The right usage of a background song can impact and trigger the emotional accepts of my core.  This enhances the anime for me.

As diverse individuals, we have our ideas on what make a great anime.  We bring in our own taste and ideas that reflects what we want in an anime.  Visual, sound, character story and tone.  We  use those factors to build standard of quality.

REFERENCES:

Ryoko vs. Yuki Fight Theme
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Love the song’s usage of of techno-like percussion, violins, cellos, and synths to create an alien sound.

Why You Should Watch Mob Pyscho 100

Super Eyepatch Wolf’s in-depth analysis on why Mob Pyscho 100 is worth watching.

Aesthetic IS Narrtive

Digibro’s analysis on the importance of using visuals aid and aesthetics for anime story-telling.

 

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Playing Favorites: Character Relation

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Shadow Kanji (Persona 4 – 2008)

 

 

Question:  Have you ever wonder why a certain character is your favorite?  The answer can be as simple as you think they’re cool and awesome or  deep such as you have a relatable personal connection to that character.

I believe everyone has that one (or more) character that they can relate to.  You probably relate to the character because of similar personality traits.

We like to see ourselves in characters we favor most.  We appreciate these characters because they remind us of ourselves.  This is how I am with my favorites. I love my favorites because I see myself in them.

Kanji Tatsumi from the 2008 video game Persona 4 is somebody I love.  I can relate to his issues.

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Kanji  has a complex with his identity as a man.  He enjoys sewing, knitting, and cute things.

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Generally speaking, those hobbies are stereotyped as feminine and thus, he has a complex about his masculinity and sexuality.

Years prior to Persona 4, Kanji was bullied for his hobbies.  He was taunted with homophobic slurs and other forms of name calling by his classmates.  This fucked him up mentality.

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Young Kanji (Persona 4 manga – 2012)

 

Kanji develops a tough guy facade to combat (and mask) his insecuirties. He bleaches his hair blonde, starts weight lifting, pierces his ears, and wear attire to reflect his “manliness”.

It’s a bullshit front to hide his unresolved issues.

Kanji would eventually accept himself. He gains confidence  embracing his “feminine” hobbies and learn to be open with his passion (it’s a story best saved for a more in-depth analysis post in the future).

Kanji’s struggle with his identity and self-acceptance was a reminder of my teen years.  My enjoyment of  nerdy hobbies such as video games and anime resulted in  being bullied and called an “oreo” (black on the outside, white on the inside) and being accused of “acting white”.

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An “Oreo” or whatever.  Stupid ass term.

 

Shit was goofy and baseless but it impacted me mentality growing up.

I knew I was black.   I knew I wasn’t trying to be white.  However, being fuck with and bullied for my hobbies by my black peers fucked my head up.

I developed a fear of expressing my nerdiness openly. I was afraid that people would judge me for being black and nerdy. Didn’t help that I  had  low self esteem pile on as well.

It took going to college to get over this fear.  In college, I found other black peers who openly enjoy nerdy things and being conformable with both their racial and nerd identity.

I was inspired to do the same.  To say fuck the judgement niggas and do me. To embrace myself.  I became my true self and felt accepted.

Today, I am not only just confident in myself but also I am happy.  Happy that I finally could be me and be understood without fear. Happy that I was able to accept who I am.
Kanji’s issues with his identity and accepting who he was reminded me of my younger days: A young kid dealing with his own issues with it and coming to terms with  loving myself.

It was a struggle of self-conscious issues and fear of rejection but I learned to overcome those fears.

When it comes to relating to an anime character I would say  Hotaru Tomoe from Pretty Solider Sailor Moon is one of my top choice.

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Hotaru Tomoe (Sailor Moon Infinity – 1994)

 

I’m a huge fanboy of the Hotaru/Saturn character. While it is dope that she can blow up a planet or even a  galaxy with her powers, my love for the character comes from finding parallels in her core personality in Sailor Moon Super (SMS) and me growing up.

Hotaru in SMS  is introduced as a shy, quiet, socially awkward, bullied and weird girl who doesn’t have any friends (prior to meeting Chibi-Usa and the Inner Sailor Scouts).   She keeps to herself and doesn’t  interact with othrrs due to her  fears of being shun, bullied and teased by others.
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Hotaru’s fears resulted from being mocked and rejected by her peers because of her general weirdness (her healing powers and random, but violent, mood swings from being possessed by Mistress 9) so it’s understanding why she did not open up to anyone before befriending Chibi-Usa.

Hotaru first encountered Chibi-Usa,who had hurt herself chasing her hat. Seeing her hurt, Hotaru offer to heal  Chibi-Usa’s wound.

Chibi-Usa was amazed by her power. Hotaru was surprised that Chibi-Usa didn’t freak out or thought of her as weird or creepy as others thought of her powers in the past.

 

(Granted Chibi-Usa IS a superpowered time traveling princess like Future Trunks from Dragon Ball Z. Healing factor ain’t shit to her but I am getting off topic).

The two became best friends from that day forth.  Hotaru didn’t dwell on how different she was from her new friend because she was just happy to be accepted for who she was. She was able to open up to somebody.

 

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“That’s my best friend, that’s my best friend, flexin”

Growing up, I was bullied a lot for my weirdness and awkward nature. I’m also rather  shy and quiet (expect when I am drunk. I am not quiet nor shy when drunk).

It takes a while for me to open up to people due to my own fears from the past (the fear isn’t as bad as it used to be in my youth). If I do open up to somebody its because I vavule that person deeply and I feel like they will accept me.

I get overwhelm with joy each time I can connect with somebody despite how different I feel about myself.  It is a great feeling to be accept despite what fears may hold me back.

To conclude,  I believe everyone has at least one  character they love because of one or many similar triat.  Being able to connect with a character is a wonderful feeling because you see yourself in him or her.

I was able to see myself in Kanji from Persona 4 and Hotaru from Sailor Moon S because I shared similar traits those characters had.  They became some of my favorite characters in their respected medium because of the parallels I had with their personality.

 

(I am never fucking editing on a phone ever again)

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Always Work on Your Craft. You Just Never Know…

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Dragon Ball Super manga artist Toyotaro. Former fan artist turned professional comic artist.

As an artist, musician, or writer, you often hear people tell you that you should always promote your craft. Always work on skills.  Always improve on your work because you never know who may be checking you out.

Having the right person enjoying your craft could lead your passion and hobby into a career or even working along side with your idol.

Dragon Ball Super manga artist Toyotaro is a prime example of this.  Toyotaro started out as a Dragon Ball manga artist.  As a doujin artist he is best known for his Dragon Ball AF doujin manga; a fan project that landed him a job with JUMP Magazine working along side with series creator Akira Toriyama.

A fan working with a series creator man.  That’s perhaps one of the greatest honor you can have that nobody can ever take away from you.

Think about it: Toyotaro had a hobby of making Dragon Ball manga.  He probably never imagined in his life that his passion and love would lead him to working with famed manga artist Akira Toriyama.  He gets paid to create art of his favorite series with the creator.

If you’re a producer keep making beats. A musician? Keep playing. A writer? Keep writing.  An artist? Keep drawing.  Keep promoting yourself and putting you works out for the world.

You really never know who may be enjoying your work.

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Thanks, Son Goku! (Barely Edited Freewrite)

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Goddammit Goku…

Imagine this: Your homeboy gets you caught up in his bullshit.  You had no involvement to his actions prior but this doesn’t mean anything.  Your careless ass friend managed to drag you into their mess. If you do not get involved, the  dire consequences will impact not only him but you as well.  And it ain’t gonna be pretty.

In the recent episode 78 of Dragon Ball Super, Goku is that careless friend.  Goku manged to drag his associates, friends, and family into his bullshit.  Goku defiantly went against Beerus’ prior warning to not to remind Lord Zeno (Zen-Oh-Sama) of the Tournament of Power.
The Tournament of Power (a.k.a the Omni King All Universe Survival Tournament)  the all universe tournament hosted by Lord Zeno, king of all.  There are no rewards in this tournament sans your universe not being wiped out of existence if you’re declared victor in addition to using the Super Dragon Balls. There’s at least that.  Yay!

So, because Goku wants to fight so badly he endangered not only endanger his friends, family, and planet, this man put the existence of his universe at risk of being wiped out.

Goku, for the very first time in his life, has to take responsibility for his actions. Beerus had to threaten him  to do it of course.  Thank god for you Beerus.  Thank god for you.

Goku enlists his son Gohan and friend, Majin Buu to fight in this tournament and explains If they lose, goodbye to their  universe existence. Mr. Satan tags along but he ain’t doing shit. They ain’t too please about Goku getting them all caught up.

They ain’t the only ones you know.  You already know word got  spread quick about this tournament.  You already know you got niggas from all 12 universes who want to come after Goku.  They have to fight  not just for surivivial, but for their existence because Goku needed a good challenge.

Nigga you need your ass beat.

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Father and Daughter – Souichi and Hotaru Tomoe

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Source: http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=43464201

Prior to Sailor Moon S, a laboratory explosion would claim the lives of Souichi Tomoe’s family.  Lamenting his daughter Hotaru’s death, Souichi is approached Geramatoid of the Tau Nebula. Geramatoid presents him an offer: Restoration of Hotaru’s life in exchanged for Souichi’s freewill and servitude.

Souichi accepts, not caring about  his own life.  Upon Souichi’s agreement Germtoid takes him as a vessell; controlling his body, will, and life. Unknown to Souichi , Hotaru would become a vessel to Mistress 9; the Messiah of Silence.

After the incident Hotaru and Souichi continued their lives “normally” and grew close, despite acting as pawns for the aliens. With Hotaru’s character arc introduction, we are given a solid example of their bond. In episode 112, Hotaru and Chibi-Usa are warmly greeted by Souichi at Hotaru’s house. Hotaru cheerfully introduce her Chibi-Usa to her father, who is glad to see Hotaru made a friend (for once in her pitiful life). Hotaru is affectionate towards her father, expressed in tone and body language.

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Later, the relationship cemented at the arc’s climax.   Souichi (liberated from Germtoid’s control) confronts Mistress 9 (fully controlling Hotaru’s body). He falls to his knees, clutching the unrecognizable woman and begins begging for forgiveness, guilt ridden for allowing her to become possessed and indirectly ruining her life.

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Irritated, she responds with calling Tomoe a “useless filthy shell of Geramtoid” and strangling him with her hair. Enraged, Hotaru (whom was inside Mistress 9) overpower the Daimon, forcing her to release her father.

Mistress 9 would struggle with Hotaru to regain control of the child’s body but to no avail.  Hotaru’s drive to save her father would lead to the awakening the spirit of Sailor Saturn residing in her.  Mistress 9 was instantly killed as the power of Saturn’s awakening was too much for her.

 

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Soon after awakening, Hotaru, as Sailor Saturn, proceeds to destroy Pharaoh 90 (leader of the Daimons, summoned earlier by Mistress 9) saving the world at the cost of her life.  However,  with her powers of rebirth, Hotaru was reincarnated as a baby.  Souichi (recovering from his injuries and amnesia) reunited with Hotaru, beginning a new life free from the Daimons.

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This is heartwarming and sweet and I’m happy for these two. They went through some shit. They earned their happiness. And then Setsuna kidnaps I mean borrows Hotaru for her powers. Yea. Borrowin’. That’s what they’re callin’ it these days.

 

At the end, it’s funny to think about the roundabout results Souichi noble act of sacrifice. The man gave up his own will and body to save his daughter’s life.  Hotaru saved her father and “sacrificed” herself to save the world.

To quote a certain rapper: ‘Have you ever loved someone so much, you’d give an arm for? Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?

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I think he gave more than just an arm for Hotaru.

(If we were to dig deeper into their relationship there’s actually a second side of Hotaru and Souichi’s, relationship although not as direct.  After Hotaru’s introduction in the series, there are a few scenes of Hotaru and Souichi [under the influences of Mistress 9 and Germatoid] interacting with one another and discussing plans for Mistress 9’s awakening and the destruction of Earth.)

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While the anime portrayed Souichi as a caring, warm, and selfish father, his original manga counterpart was a deranged monster. (Okay, maybe monster is a bit too strong of a word.  Bastard seems right).

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Professor Tomoe from Sailor Moon Crystal (2016)

Professor Tomoe was a self-centered madman whom perceived his daughter’s near fatal injuries and the invasion of the Daimons as gifts from the heavens.  His grand ambitions and selfish drive would lead to Hotaru living a horrible life.

An infamous figure in the science community, Professor Tomoe was blacklisted due to his unethical research and experiments.  After being blacklisted Tomoe sold his findings, using the money he earned to buy property for a research lab and founded the Infinity Academy to continued his work.  Flip and hustle my dude.  Flip and hustle.

Similar to the original anime, his wife was killed and Hotaru was severely injured in a lab fire.  Tomoe saved Hotaru’s, using a combination of genetic technology and replacing  her damaged limbs with cybernetics implants.

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During a follow-up operation, lighting struck his lab, opening a dimension gateway (it’s a comic book, roll with it).  Master Pharaoh 90 emerged  from the gateway with an offer: he would give Souichi everlasting power and knowledge  in exchanged for his allegiance.  Although bewilder and hesitate at first Souichi accepts, seeing this chance encounter as a breakthrough for his research.

Pleased, Pharaoh 90 gives Tomoe Daimon eggs for implantation of human hosts.  The professor receives one for himself and another containing Mistress 9.  The Mistress 9 egg needed a suitable host for her powers to grow.  Souichi knew the “right’ person.

Tomoe implants the egg inside  Hotaru who was still recovery.   Her body degrades to a frail state resulting from the unnatural combination of cybernetics implants, genetic technology, and finally, becoming the unwilling vessel of Mistress 9.  Culminating from the selfish ambition of her father, her health plummeted ranging from seizures, shortness of breath, and blackouts.

While Souichi and Hotaru were close in the anime, their manga counterpart was distant and cold.  In chapter 2 of the arc Kaori (Tomoe’s assistant) notices Hotaru having a health fit.
Kaori offers to help Hotaru until she recovers.

 

 

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It’s shocking to see Kaori concerned about Hotaru compared to how she emotionally tormented the girl in the original anime.

Despite being offered help, Hotaru pretty much tells the woman to fuck off, stating that she can take care of herself.  Tomoe intervenes, asking Hotaru not to be rude to his assistant as Kaori helped the family ever since the death of her mother.

Hotaru proceeds to go off on her dad. She doesn’t hold back in telling him that he’s only infatuated with the woman, who just happens to be his private tutor.   As Hotaru storms to her room she tells Kaori that “she ought to learn her place”.

 

 

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Hotaru isn’t quite subtle with her disapproval

Souichi checks up on Hotaru once things cooled.  As she is being comfort by her dad she remarks on how inhumanly cold his hands are.

I believe this is the best to describe their relationship: Cold.  The two were distance and cold.  Souichi was invested in his research, always in his lab. This left Hotaru lonely with little interaction with her father.  Souichi only saw Hotaru as a project, more concerned Mistress 9’s growth than his own daughter.

Later in the future, Mistress 9 awoken (transformed after consuming Chibi-Usa’s Silver Crystal). Souichi was excited to see her in full.    He expressed concerns that  initial  fusion attempts with Hotaru’s body failed, nearly prevented her awakening.   Hotaru (observing the discussion in her spirit form) wasn’t pleased that her father did this to her.

Her suffering and ostracized life was caused by her own father.  Her father whom only saw her as a science experiment.

 

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Fuck you bruh. Fuck you.

Souichi would meet his demise in Act 35 of the manga.  Soon after transforming into Daimon Germatoid, Tomoe was instantly killed by Super Sailor Moon’s “Rainbow Moon Heart Attack”.  (Dude was talking all that good shit but he didn’t even last three pages.)

As she watched her father die, Hotaru reflects how he did everything for her ever since her mother’s death.  However, she states that her father died on the day he sold himself to Pharaoh 90.  The man who died was not her father.

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It’s strange how opposite their relationship were comparing the anime to the original manga.  Souichi wanted to do anything to save Hotaru even if it meant becoming a servant to Germatoid and the Pharaoh 90. While he was noble for doing so it did spite him as Hotaru would also become a servant to Mistress 9.  Souichi had enormous remorse for allowing Hotaru to be possessed despite he knew it wasn’t his fault.

Unfortunately his manga counterpart did not share that guilt.  He felt prideful about his actions, thinking of Hotaru as just a project and not his daughter.  Yea, he did saved her life (how he did at may not been totally legal, performing surgery his  kid in his secret lab) but what good was that if he took advantage of her suffering?

Goddammit manga Souichi.  Just…goddammit.

 

Afterthoughts:
While most (hardcore) fans are aware that Hotaru and her father’s interactions are vastly different in the manga/Crystal and original 90s anime, there are some who may had only grew up watching or experienced the original anime.  It is because of watching the original anime alone that they were unaware that Souichi was a horrible person in original manga thus his cruel nature in Sailor Moon Crystal.

Their surprise is understanding as Souichi was a good person who was thrown into a horrible situation in Toei Animation’s portrayal of his character in the original series compared to Naoko Takeuchi’s Professor Tomoe in Crystal and the manga.  Their shock pretty much inspired me to write about both versions lol (YouTube comments can do that to you)

I hope you enjoy this post and if you took the time to read it and enjoy what I wrote I hope you follow me on WordPress for more content like this.  I am currently working on a piece for Son Goku from the popular Dragon Ball series so stick around for that in the future!